@ofwildxhearts
whom: Lia & Caspian
where: The Pier
The pier creaked softly beneath her sneakers as Ophelia leaned against the railing as she stared out at the horizon. It was the first time she's been back to the beach since New Years and she wasn't sure how to feel. Her hoodie sleeves were pulled over her hands, wind blowing the salt air through her hair. She heard footsteps and smiled softly to herself when she knew they were Caspian's without looking at him. She tried to stay casual, like this was any other morning. Like she hadn’t woken up in a hospital bed with IV lines in her arm and his name caught in her throat.
She didn’t turn around. “Surf’s supposed to be decent this weekend, right?” she asked lightly. “Cleaner than it’s been. I heard it's been pretty choppy.” She shrugged, studying the surf reports were hardly anything new to her. It was usually the first thing her and her father said to each other in the morning. “You going out?” She glanced at him for half a second, and memory of fluouresecent lights and antiseptic hit her hard. The way she'd reached for him, the way she'd whispered and begged for him not to leave. The humiliation was worse than the hypothermia. She wasn't the girl that begged people not to leave. People left. It was the one lesson her mom had taught her.
She looked back at the water quickly. “I might come down and watch,” she added. “From a safe distance. Still haven't been cleared to go back in yet.” Her ribs were still bruised and yellow from where she'd fallen through the dock and she was smart enough to know not to surf when she wasn't up to it. Besides a safe distance would be good. That was who she was. She didn’t beg. She didn’t cling. When things got heavy, she dipped, vanished, submerged herself in saltwater and silence until the feelings thinned out enough to ignore. She had built her entire identity around being untouchable, independent, unbothered. And in one hospital room, she had unraveled it with shaking hands and a cracked voice. What scared her most wasn’t that she’d asked him to stay. It was that she’d meant it.












