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Ro | 27 | she/her

[ilovefruit20]

Huh?

I come back to Tumblr after a few months and now my feed is 75% Zelda content. I've never played a Zelda game in my life, nor do I recall interacting with Zelda content. Not mad, just confused lol

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[everydaylouie]

muppet christmas carol ~ (happy holidays!)

[ilovefruit20]

Yuck

Jayvik content just came up on my feed. My day is ruined

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[what-even-is-thiss]

It took me a long time to figure out that being “smart” isn’t just some all encompassing never changing truth about a person. Pretty much nobody is a complete idiot in all things and pretty much nobody is a genius in all things.

When I was a kid being “smart” was what I had going for me basically. It was the one good thing that everyone seemed to agree that I was, so I clung onto that.

But then I grew up a bit and realized that I’m kind of an idiot. There’s certain things I just learn slower than other people. Things my brain and body just won’t do. This realization kinda messed me up for a while. Surely being smart is something you’re supposed to be forever all the time.

No. Everyone is kind of an idiot, turns out. The human mind isn’t capable of calculating the best and most logical response to literally everything there is. If logic even applies to any given situation.

The flip side of that though is that pretty much everyone is smart if you take the time to get to know them. They’re good at different things than you are.

One of the things that made this really hit for me was when I was catching up with one of my cousins and I was like man you’ve got a career, you were in the marine band, you’ve got a partner and a house and here I am unemployed and going nowhere. But then my cousin was like what are you talking about you have a masters degree and I can’t stay in college for one semester without dropping out I’m an idiot compared to you I can’t commit to anything that long.

And that’s when it hit me. We’re both idiots failing to accomplish our goals and we’re both very smart and accomplished people. Our idiocy and accomplishments just fall into different places because we’re different people.

Yeah you’re an idiot. But you’re also so smart. Because you’re a human. You contain multitudes of shades of idiocy and brilliance. That’s what keeps the world going around. We can specialize. We can fill in each other’s shortfalls.

Moral of the story, don’t build your whole personality around being smart but don’t assume that you’re dumber than anyone else either.

[silverjirachi]

saw an absolutely hilarious animal crossing theory that i now 100% accept and it’s that in the animal crossing world, humans are going extinct, and so all the animals have locked you in an elaborate zoo enclosure and are trying to give you enrichment. and that’s why they give you infinite pointless tasks, hide money in trees and rocks, invented debt that doesnt matter etc. it’s why they always act so happy to see you even after you raze the entire island, relocate their houses twice, and always act so pleased about your choices no matter what. it’s all to keep their little endangered human healthy and enriched. and thinking of it this way has genuinely improved my experience of the game

[ilovefruit20]

Brain dump

I am back on here momentarily. My friend and I were discussing books, specifically about how men write about women. It reminded me of a hilarious Tumblr post that someone sent me once. I was reminded of their humor and quick witted responses. For my slow brain, it was fun to be in their presence because their pace was different and refreshing. I don't talk to them anymore for complicated reasons, and while there are bad memories, there are good ones of us sharing laughs. I can't bring myself to talk to them again because I've blocked and unblocked shamefully. No matter what, I always hope they're doing well and finding the peace that they could never seem to grasp. It would be cool if they read this post since I also can't bring myself to say this to them directly. I know, shame on me ;-;

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[ilovefruit20]

back on tumblr bc i'm self-hating again ✌️

[abandonment-trauma]

Bouncing back and forth between “i don’t wanna be alone” and “i want to isolate myself” is quite the wild ride.

But incase you weren’t aware, these are both ways a fear of abandonment can show itself.

[shaynmothman]

Reminder to self: The goal is not to be free of insecurity or imperfection *before* building relationships. The goal is to learn how to own and work through insecurity *while* being vulnerable with the people you love.

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