a/n: i luv toxic!riri. ok bye.
tgl: @criaaturaa @lyfeofbilly @newctrll @glimreaperss @mitchesmoon @impinkalicious (i cant tag u but ur here in spirit) if u wanna be added/taken off pls comment!!
exgf!riri who never got over your last argument. she knows she fucked up; she lied and you had every right to not want anything to do with her. she was just trying to protect you, to keep you from all of her drama, her personal shit, but you couldn't trust her; not afrer you found out about her "hobby" and "tech job". she hurt you, and that alone she could never live with.
exgf!riri who regardless of her guilt will never tell you she was wrong. sheās so fucking stubborn, thatās why you guys broke up; she swore she wasnāt gonna get hurt and insisted you stay the hell away from anything to do with her job or ironheart. she might not get hurt, but she definitely did want you getting hurt.
exgf!riri who jumped from girl to girl after the breakup, looking for you in everyone she kissed. she couldnāt get you out of her mind: your voice, your laugh, your lips. there had to be a piece of you somewhere, in someone. every time she frlt your energy she fell feet deeper into euphoria; she chased that feeling everywhere she went, and if that meant kissing 5 girls in one night to be reminded of you then so be it.
exgf!riri who made sure you saw her with the girls she paraded around. post after post, picture after picture, party after party. riri got around knowing eventually she would creep into your head. when your friends took pictures to post, sheād pull a girl a little too close just in case youād see it. or sneak a kiss in the background of a group shot so you could spiral later.
exgf!riri who asks about you with no shame. when your name comes up she sits quietly, and waits, and listens. but those around her dont know her racing heart has dropped to her stomach, her pulse is off the charts, and her head is banging with want. she listens and listens so she can know what she can no longer ask you personally: how you are, what youāre doing, who youāre with. and then she pops a question. or five.
exgf!riri who lies and says she doesn't care about you. truthfully, you are all she cares aboutāall she has ever cared about. she hasnāt loved someone, put her everything into someone, since she was young. you took a chance on her only to lose it.
exgf!riri who stalks your social media pages as well as every girl you have been linked too. your replacements could never amount to her. she knows cause you never keep them for long; one girl for three weeks, another for five. they cant sooth the itch in the ways riri can; you both know that.
exgf!riri who directs all her stories and reposts towards you under the guise of her roster. when her friends ask, itās about some girl she met last week. but truthfully? every post is about youāall of themāand they will forever be about you. she posts and posts and hopes one day youāll see it and know itās about you.
exgf!riri who goes to parties your mutual friends host, hoping you will be in attendance. she stares, and watches, and scowls at whomever is on your arm
exgf!riri who drowned in jealousy when you showed up to your friends' annual halloween party anything but alone. watching you smile with someone, dance with someone, laugh with someone, be with someone that wasnāt her tugged a piece of her heart she hadnāt yet named. and for you to taunt her so publicly? to drag around a nameless suitor and roll your hips against a waist that didnāt match the eyes you stared into made her drop to her knees in agony. it should have been her; it was always her.
exgf!riri who scares every fling you have away. you can never keep a girl for long because they never stay, because riri makes them leave. ever since your break-up she has found who you were with and made it her lifeās mission to get in the way of possibility. her future belonged to you; she will do anything in her power to get you to realize that.
exgf!riri who watches you in every class you share. she stares, examines your every move. you never return the favor, but you know sheās observing. she studies you, your teeth imprints on the wood of your opencil, the way the musclues of your hand contract and relax as your pen gides over the page, she studies your hair framing your features perfectly no matter the style, she's studied you so much she has you memorized
exgf!riri who hid her smirk under a grimace when your professor assigned you as partners for an assignment. it was a chance at last. forced or not, you would speak to her and she would cherish every moment with you, of you.
exgf!riri who's heart dropped when you texted her. she couldnāt believe it was real: the notification, the assignment. maybe she was dreaming, maybe profesor made a mistake. she couldnāt process the excitement coursing through her veins, a feeling only familiar from youāa breathlessness only you could quell.
i thought you had me blocked.
i thought u couldn't stand the look of me but i guess we both liars huh
im not getting a 0 cuz of u
exgf!riri who only wants you. who misses you in every way: you laugh, your smile, your mind, your skin. there is no one else for here and, surely, no one else for you. she knew from the first minute she saw you; she knew the first time you came to her garage; she knew when she opened up to you and you made her feel nothing but comfort and love; she knew when she cried in her motherās arms about your break-up and instead of ms. ronnie crying with her, she told riri to get it the fuck together; it was always you.
exgf!riri who's itching to be in your presence again. to feel your body on hers is a dying wish she will fight not caring if it will ever be granted. 8pm couldnāt come fast enough; she paced her room, sweat drowning her forehead and padding the nape of her neck. she couldnāt do it, she couldnāt be around you knowing she canāt have you all to herself
exgf!riri who knows if she feels so strongly, it can't be unrequited.
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