To Cregan, it seemed that Jacaerys was finally beginning to realize that he was not a dog to be called to heel. The hound that Jacaerys believed him to be had teeth, and he would continue to snap and bare those teeth at him. He was angering the boy, he could tell. His anger simmered his blood, and the soft palm cradling his jaw tightened enough to pinch. When he found the stomach to look Jacaerys in the eye, he saw nothing but disdain and anger swirling in his pale, lilac eyes. If the boy was so disturbed and insulted by this, how could he think to rule an entire kingdom? His mere presence disturbed lords and ladies, and though Cregan was certainly no Lord Manderly or Lady Arryn, he had seen enough of Jacaerys to know that whatever terms he had met with the two had likely not been peaceful, amicable ones. But, Jacaerys held the upper hand, whether he liked to admit it or not. The dragon changed much, and tipped the stakes in the boys favor, and he was forced the remember the dragon, an even more insulting presence in his lands, as it left the comforting warmth of the crypts with loud, leathery flaps of its wings to circle overhead, screeching and bellowing as if it could feel Jacaerys’s anger.
Perhaps it could. Cregan knew nothing of dragons except for the danger they posed. Jacaerys’s voice was silky and soft, but the words were poisonous. Threatening, angered. It was becoming clear to Cregan that he was one of the few who remained loyal to the Queen, and any amount of men he could scrape together would be fickle against this boy king and whatever host he now possessed. But he was not a turncloak. If he abandoned what he held true to his heart at the first signs of a struggle, he would not stand as Warden of the North. His lip curled, exposing the sharpened points of his canines as he tore his head free of Jacaerys’s repulsive touch, huffing and rubbing his palm over his jaw as if to rub the lingering touch away. “But I am not Lord Manderly or Lady Arryn, am I?” He said, and though perhaps it was said with the air of question, it was not one. He was no Lady Arryn, nor was he Lord Manderly, and what they did meant nothing to Cregan. Pressure was an inutile weapon against Cregan, one he had hardened himself against long ago.
He had been so appalled by Jacaerys’s audacity, and even more consumed by his anger, that he had failed to notice that the boy had seemed to lose control over his hands. His fingers undid the strap, leather rubbing against the metal buckles, loosening it enough for the sword to fall. Ice was not a heavy sword, despite its appearance, but when it leaned against the sword before falling to the floor with a loud thunk, it made a muscle in the lord's jaw twitch. A subtle, familiar weight had been lifted from his back, but in its place an even more surmounting one had been placed upon his shoulders, a weight that he could not part from no matter how much he may want to. The weight stood before him, goading and mocking him, and he would desire nothing more than to rid himself of it. The lulling words that slipped past his lips made Cregan’s skin crawl uncomfortably beneath his clothing, and he wondered bitterly what he would be forced to do to get those lips to seal and remain as such. “You will get used to denial.” He remarked flatly, anger beginning to swell up inside him again as Jacaerys swept his fingers over his jaw.
It was a gentle touch, like the touch of a lover, but Cregan certainly did not feel love, but only anger. And yet, to him, anger and love sometimes felt one in the same. He felt them both so intensely, and both were all consuming. Love and anger consumed like a frenzied hound, and he worried to think of which one may finish him off first. Once again, his lips twitched, sliding up enough to flash the hard ivory of his teeth, but Jacaerys was hardly deterred. He spoke so casually of allowing his dragon to taste his northern flesh, but the threat did not burn quite so badly as how he spoke of his son. As if he were merely disposable, a pawn of his to be used when he desired. Rickon was hardly more than a babe, and something like guilt coiled itself around his heart when he thought of his boy, of how frightened he must be. In that moment, he recognized that Jacaerys truly did have the advantage against him. Cregan, though loyal to the oath his own father had sworn, was no glory hungry fool, willing to go out in a blaze and greatness just so someone may remember his name in a few hundred years. His heart would remain true to the north, to his people, before it could remain to any monarch. He had been loyal, he always would be. So loyal that it would damn him, force him to submit to a tyrant.
Jacaerys slid his palms back to settle against his chest, tapping at the direwolf pin that remained fastened then. His touch burned, lit a flame within him, but Cregan was not so foolish as to let it burn. Every word Jacaerys spoke forked into another meaning, and it irritated him. Jacaerys was no dragon, he was merely a snake. Even less than that, a lizard. His words were a dual-edged sword, slicing him open no matter how he approached them. His brows furrowed, icy grey eyes narrowing into an expression of distrust. Reward was the last thing he had expected, especially not from a man like Jacaerys. “Reward.” He repeated, unimpressed, tone flat as he shifted against the leg slotted between his thighs. He was not even sure what he had been expecting. In truth, he had expected to be meeting his end, despite Jacaerys himself recognizing that he proved much more useful alive, and a foolish part of him hoped that the reward would be Jacaerys taking his absence, but no, the pretty, light eyed mink thought himself as the reward.
His jaw tightened, clenching his teeth so hard they began to ache under the pressure. Marriage. It was unheard of, two men being wedded. Though, as it stood, Cregan would remain as little more than Jacaerys’s war prize, lest he be forced into such an arrangement. He wasn’t sure if he’d ever felt more insulted in all his life. Something in him that tethered his rage to his inner core frayed, before it snapped entirely. He seemed to be reminded of his superior size, and he bullied his weight against the king, enough to push him back, and before he could truly weigh the consequences of what he was doing, he spat at him, uncaring if it truly made contact with him or not. “How dare you.” He grated out between his clenched teeth, the bridge of his nose wrinkling with disgust. “I would impale myself upon my own blade before I spend a moment bound to you.”