Sometimes, when I get sad or feel lost, I look to my heroes. I look and see how they got to where they are/were and see how I best can emulate them, use their tactics to help me climb to the top. And sometimes...I find a thing about one of my idols that is so like ME. And...it makes me feel not so alone anymore. It makes me see that I can push through my issues too, because they had to deal with the same thing. With all the crap about me and the burdens I carry, most of the time I feel just alone. Completely alone. No one around me suffers the way I do. But knowing I'm not alone in my pain makes it easier to bare. It fills me with hope. And so I will trudge on, winning over the trials of today, and tomorrow, and every day after until I make it to the top of that mountain. And I hope my footsteps will help carve a path for others to follow. I hope my foot steps make the path easier to all those after me, and for their steps to help those after them. And I will make it to the top of that mountain, with all the others before me, and proudly shoulder my burden as a badge. Without it, I could not be me even though there have been countless nights it's threatened to crush me. And after that...I will continue on. There is always another mountain to climb, another vista to see. Sometimes I just need these reminders though...and I'm glad for them. Sometimes I forget who I am, you know? Everyone does. We get caught up in life, in work, just trying to survive. I am an Artist to my very core. I can learn many other skills, but at the end of it all, I am an Artist. Nothing in the world will ever change that. I sometimes forget my path, but it never forgets me. I hope some day I can meet my living heroes. I know they say not to, but I still do want to. I know they're humans, just like me, with flaws and demons. I don't expect them to be perfect, because they're not. Tomorrow is a new day. And I will face it with a smile and determination.
