Jenny Ratmeal🐀🍴

She/It, transexual bisexual. 6'2" as a joke. I work at the post office, where I distribute estrogen and the works of Lenin.

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My partner dyed my hair again, and he tailored this top for me, and he like taught me how to do make up.

So really every time I give you a snail trail you have him to thank lol.

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Has anyone made omegaverse but instead of mpreg warewolfs it's intersex Yuri world where there's only one sex and everyone has a dick and a cloaca?

Important

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I swear, even though my voice hasn't finished coming in, VFS has already given me a huge confidence boost. Going to the doctor and having them confirm it's healing good has just put me in such a fantastic mood.

It's weird because I still feel like my voice isn't that much better but I guess the stats don't lie. Maybe even if I'm not satisfied yet, the hope is enough iunno

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Vocal Feminization Update

First post-op check up

I went to the University of Washington to see my otolaryngological team, so this is the first anyone has looked at it since the operation.

Like, THANK GOD because I was so paranoid that I ruined it by coughing too much and it was making me so depressed. They put the camera down my nose and told me that it looked like it was heeling perfectly.

They told me I'm allowed to start talking a little bit, and set up my speech pathology appointments so they can teach my how to use my new vocal cords.

I love this picture, so stupid. I love my double chin no matter how many weird looks I get from cis women when I say that lol.

But yeah, since we were in Seattle already my partner and I made a date of it. We went to like, some sex shops, a yarn store and a queer thrift so it was pretty cool.

I love Capitol Hill.

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Oh yeah, I used to have a resting pitch of 100 hz, now that's more like 150hz. My trained voice was more like 130hz, now that's up to 185hz. So hell yeah, pretty good for not even one month post op.

Like, the botox they gave me hasn't even worn off yet, and that's supposed to make your voice deeper. Part of my voice definitely feels paralyzed, like when I try to raise my voice as much as I did before, I just can't even make any sound at all.

I mean, you want your voice to be at like 220hz to sound convincingly fem to most people so I've got a way to go... But they told me went voice won't be settle in to 6 month to a year, so I'm trying to not have brainworm about it lol

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Vocal Feminization Update

First post-op check up

I went to the University of Washington to see my otolaryngological team, so this is the first anyone has looked at it since the operation.

Like, THANK GOD because I was so paranoid that I ruined it by coughing too much and it was making me so depressed. They put the camera down my nose and told me that it looked like it was heeling perfectly.

They told me I'm allowed to start talking a little bit, and set up my speech pathology appointments so they can teach my how to use my new vocal cords.

I love this picture, so stupid. I love my double chin no matter how many weird looks I get from cis women when I say that lol.

But yeah, since we were in Seattle already my partner and I made a date of it. We went to like, some sex shops, a yarn store and a queer thrift so it was pretty cool.

I love Capitol Hill.

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Voice update

About 3 weeks post op

So, I've spoken a little bit. That's not what Dr. Kim told me to do at this point but he seems very much in the minority when it comes to that opinion (most other people who do VFSRAC have patients start talking at two weeks instead of two months), plus I just couldn't wait.

I think a big part of why Dr. Kim wants you to wait longer is just so the first thing you say is more impressive, honestly. He doesn wasn't people to get horribly depressed when they feel like they still sound the same. NGL that's totally what I did haha.

But I've had some more rest since then. My total no effort voice has gone from about 100hz to 140z (G2 to C#3) and my full effort fem voice has gone from about 120hz to 185hz (B2 to F#3). Objectively that is a huge difference but it doesn't feel like it, just because I'm on the cusp of landing easily in the female range.

But my voice is supposed to be settled in until like 6month to a year, so I'm trying really hard to not listen to the brainworm.

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Starting to not feel like a pervy weirdo when I wear short dresses.

Only took the greater part of a year

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‼️BREAKING NEWS‼️

new shirt

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What unique combination of neuron firings makes someone respond to “trans women are women and trans men are men” with “okay, transphobe”? Like, what is the chain of logic here?

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Yes, the “rape organ” is real.

Recently I have seen an uptick in transfeminists saying things like “a penis does not inherently make someone more able to commit sexual assault”. I’d like to push back on this because it’s so plainly wrong in my opinion.

Plain and simple, the penis is a weapon. Amab people are biologically equipped with a part that, when inserted somewhere, brings them pleasure, even if it hurts the receiving end. (This too goes for trans men who have received a phalloplasty, of course)

Those with vaginas often don't cum from penetration, meaning often penetrative sex is more about the pleasure of those with the phallus, effectively rendering the penetrated as a passive object for the penetrator’s pleasure. On top of that, people with a vagina don't have the possibility of effectivelly reversing roles and making people with penises into passive objects for their orgasm while not giving them one.

This is why the penis is more of a weapon, or as some would put it “the rape organ”.

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Behold, the 19 year old has spoken

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So if needing gender dysphoria diagnosed for HRT is a problem how are you supposed to know who needs it genuinely?? Before they checked if you had gender dysphoria there was more detransitioners. God forbid the doctors don't want to cause cis people dysphoria by putting them on hormones that don't match them.

...by giving out HRT. By making it freely accessible.

The point is that you don't need someone deciding who gets access and who doesnt. Trying to do that only causes harm.

If someone wants to try hrt, it's because they already have dysphoria.

If someone goes on hrt and feels dysphoric, they can stop taking hrt.

Crying about how cis people might get gender dysphoria is crazyy.

God forbid! They might understand what it's like to be trans! The horror!

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You can go legally buy any number of substances that can and will kill you and all you need is money, but if you want a natural human hormone that your body already makes and everyone starts shitting their pants and concern trolling.

You don't just start taking HRT on a whim. You ask a cis man if they want to get soft and weak and for their dick to stop working, to them that sounds like a fate worse than death.

Regardless, people will always suddenly stop caring about bodily autonomy when people start using their freedom in ways they find icky. Pathetic, honestly.

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MANDATORY TIMELINE GLOWUP POST

OK, I thought I might actually put some effort into a timeline for shits and giggles.

Hey uhh a lot can happen in a year.

1 Month HRT

This is like one of the first fem pictures of me I really like and can look at without dying of cringe. Goes to show the power of a good outfit.

2 Months HRT

I was really liking this weird little drape the hoodie over the shoulders technique. I think this was about when my titties started to hurt lol. Also I started wearing glasses.

3 Months HRT

My favorite top appears. Why is it so hard to find good bell sleeves?

4 Months HRT

My boss took this picture, I think that's when she like truly understood that I was actually like changing my sex because she would not stop yapping about it hehe

5 Months HRT

Me at the Seattle Aquarium. I think this was about when I started to not feel like a total weirdo freak in public at all times?

6 Months HRT

I was really proud of this picture, and you know what its still pretty good. Feeling very much like I got some tittes lol.

7 months HRT

I got my septum pierced, that was pretty ebic.

8 months HRT

9 months HRT

I love this dress. All power to the girls who wear pants but that is quite a rarity for me. Just feels way harder for me to pull off.

10 months HRT

Occasionally goth. Very good expression of the power of a good bra, I don't look like that haha.

11 months HRT

I will never not love this photo, so iconic. I look just like the girls I used to be so jealous of haha.

1 year HRT 🎊🎊

I'm a bit less desperate to look fem, a bit more sure of myself. Not obsessively shaving my whole body all the time. I don't wear makeup every day anymore so that's nice. Good shit.

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What is your number one autism snack? The more autistic the better.

Mine is a burrito that is just a flour tortilla with peanut butter and a banana inside.

This also functions as girl dinner, of course.

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I know that like, it'll totally be worth it but not bring able to talk is super depressing. It turns out that like talking to people is huge part of the joy in life and I still have like 6 weeks of silence left.

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It's like a reward

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In my Egg Era, I would go by they/them if given the opportunity. Not that anyone ever asked or I was bold enough to assert it. I'd tell friends or anyone who seemed woke enough if the opportunity presented itself. I think the only person to ever they/them me was my partner and maybe like my sister in law sometimes.

Now, when I started transitioning into a woman, I was getting they/them constantly for the first 6 months or so and I definitely wasn't asking for it haha.

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VFS Post-op anxiety

God, I am so incredibly paranoid that I'm fucking up my vocal feminization surgery.

Like, there's so many things they warn you not to do.

don't cough

don't sneeze

don't eat spicy food

don't have any caffeine

don't smoke

don't drink alcohol

don't sigh

don't mouth words

obviously don't talk

And like, of course they tell me if I mess up it won't heal correctly. I realize they are just trying to scare me so I don't get lax and do that shit all day, but still I'm so scared lol.

Like, I have coughed a fair bit, I sneezed a few times. I've slipped up and said a few words. The other days my partner walked in the room and I shit you not, I instinctively meowed at him. I mean it was funny but also scares the shit out of me. He was like "Really, Jenny? Your first word to me is gonna be Meow?"

All in good jest of course, he wasn't actually being a dick about it.

But god, it's so scary. I won't have any sort of idea of how things are going until the 7th when I get endoscoped. I'm sure I'll feel a lot better after that (assuming everything hasn't gone awry). But I won't know for sure for sure if shit isn't fucked until I can talk... In FLIPPING AUGUST.

Still got like 50 days to go, uguuuuu

But you know, I am pretty proud of myself for like completely kicking vaping and my like 600mg a day caffeine addiction. At least I took control there.

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Have you planned what your first words are going to be!?! How cool is it that you can literally plan that omg I’m so excited for you and your new voice :3

Probably "I love you" for my amazing partner who endured the horrible ten hour flights and ten hour layover to Korea just so I didn't have to be alone.

My work mom told me to promise that it must be "Meow" as that is our customary greeting to each other, since meow sounds somewhat similar to her Viet name. Too bad for her lol but she doesn't have to know.