jmtorres

Queer, disabled, middle-aged, jewish dyke. Can be found on AO3, dreamwidth and Bluesky under the same handle.

[jmtorres]

ETA 1/16/25 My inbox is closed due to I get spam at 20:1 ratio to legitimate messages.

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ETA 11/24/24 I will continue to focus on pretty & fun content like art, knitting, cats, etc but I'm releasing my stranglehold on not discussing hard stuff ever.

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I thought as a fannish tumblr I could stumble along without a *jazz hands* policy but I guess I gotta pin a post.

I am on Tumblr for fun.

If you send an ask for money I will block and report spam.

Below the cut: stuff I reblog, sideblogs, stuff I try to avoid, block policies, queue, do not ask me for money, and as a palate cleanser to thank you for reading, a nice picture of my cat.

I like to reblog:

pictures of animals and flowers

fannish stuff about shows, books and podcasts I'm enjoying (I like a lot of shit and I'm a fannish butterfly and/or magpie, it's not useful for me to post a fandom list, it expands often) (this includes thinking about characters banging, if you are an "anti" you will probably not enjoy my blog)

sometimes chronic health stuff, that's less fun but the spoonie community sometimes offers advice i find useful or just, relatable weariness

neurodivergent stuff too

food and recipes

art (no AI. if you see me reblog AI-generated content feel free to let me know) (by the way I HATE being suspicious of artists and trying to figure out if something is genuinely creative or machine-mixed.)

architecture and interior decor

fashion

hot people, often wearing fashion

if it makes me laugh. memes and shit.

language/linguistics stuff

filmmaking stuff

knitting and other fibercrafts

general nerdery

queer stuff (history, queer rep, talking about the queer experience, hot queer people flaunting it)

jewish stuff (usually cultural, some midrash, I try not to post about current events see below)

scifi & fantasy writing/what-ifs/meta

polls I miss LJ clicky-boxes but i vote in all kinds of polls it activates something in my brain

like literally whatever interests me, this is a personal blog, not themed*

* i have a couple of themed blogs, which I very occasionally update:

@teachdeathtodye, about both fiber and hair dyeing

@wheresmygoddamnlunarbase, about surprising or exciting scientific and technological advancements.

any other blogs that are not defunct? apparently as of 2023 I still post to @hewasonfogmachine, which was essentially a moodboard for an epic plotbunny I never wrote. it was a rock star AU, so lots of interesting musical instruments and performances. also an MCU/Mission Impossible fusion so hot pics of actors from both franchises, and my fancasts for OCs. either a very specific or very random themed blog, but if it's to your taste, enjoy.

But back to THIS blog!

I try not to post about politics (I am trying not to even read about politics on tumblr tbh) but sometimes the moment moves me. I will tag relevantly (I use "us politics" for American shit and "i/p" for the Israel-Palestine conflict).

I believe in curating my tumblr experience. I filter a lot of keywords and tags, but I also unfollow people if you post something that upsets me and gets past the filters. It's rarely personal. Who I follow is meant to give me an interesting and pleasing dashboard experience, not necessarily be a reflection of who I'm friends with.

I block fairly liberally. If I find your posts/opinions antithetical to my existence or my friends' existence, I will do my damndest to block you rather than argue with you (sorry if i was unable to resist arguing with you before I remembered the block button).

I softblock declared minors who follow me. I'm not an "adult" blog per se but I'm not filtering my content for children and also if you are a minor for your own safety you should not be announcing it on the internet, get that shit off your profile.

I periodically check who follows me and I might softblock (or hardblock) you if I do not think we are compatible (ie you have a DNI that lists people like me but followed me anyway for some reason??)

I queue shit and don't mark it queued so me posting is never an indication of whether I'm actually online.

And here's the thing I need to say that got me to pin a post:

I do not reblog ANY requests for money, I do not respond to asks from people I don't know personally asking for money. I'm on Tumblr for fun and my wallet is not available.

If you send me something like that and it looks spammy (which if you're cold calling, it does), I will report you to Tumblr. If you send me something like that and we don't know each other at all, I will block you. (If I know you I will probably gently remind you I don't do that. Unless I know you but you've been borderline annoying or upsetting in the past, in which case I might just block you anyway.)

Look. The world sucks. A lot of us are in financial straits and are not getting the support we need from our communities, our governments, our families. But I don't have the energy to figure out if you're "deserving" and I'm not loaded either. I do my volunteering/community aid locally in person, not online, to be sure I know who I'm helping, and because a lot of the help I am able to provide is via action rather than money. I am very sorry for the failures of our society that have made social media your best chance of getting help, but please don't ask me to participate in that.

Here's my cat.

The end

[anghraine]

TOS K/S headcanon for the characterizations of the show (not films), ft. an established relationship formed shortly after the five-year mission:

Spock's second pon farr makes it pretty much impossible to conceal the nature of his relationship with Kirk from Vulcan. I subscribe to "his menarche first pon farr was unusually late, enough that he'd started to hope his human blood had prevented it from ever happening, and his later pon farr schedule might be irregular in other ways," so this could occur right after they get together after the mission, several years afterwards, etc; it doesn't terribly matter for the headcanon's purposes.

Anyway, no matter when it happens, my headcanon is that the revelation that Spock spontaneously formed a deep psychic bond with his human best friend, and the re-contextualization of evidence that already existed (T'Pau remembering Spock only introducing Kirk to her, and not his other friend until prompted, and implying he's considering suicide after the kal-i-fee: ...ah), isn't that surprising to the Vulcans. It's like, oh, the half-human among us who has chosen to align himself with human groups at every opportunity where a choice could be made—even within Starfleet—formed an irregular bond without a ceremony, to a human? Once again, we have discovered a fork in the kitchen.

Admittedly, nobody was expecting he'd go so far as bonding with a human male, but that's why the proper bonding process at an early age to an appropriate partner is important. But [grimly] what is done, is done, and there is no logic in attempting to alter what is already past and cannot be affected. Besides, a disruptive rebel choosing to rebel yet again hardly disrupts expectation.

Spock's legendary status notwithstanding, I definitely suspect that Spock Secretly Bonded With a Human (Man) coming out (as it were) only confirms the idea that Spock, however Vulcan his abilities, is as fundamentally human-aligned and scandalous and as much a loose-cannon renegade as always expected. The James Dean of Vulcan strikes again, etc.

Anyway. My more specific headcanon is that ... well, this is not the sole reason Kirk learns Vulcan. He's a humanities guy, he loves languages and he's good with them, and he adores Spock and will do anything within the bounds of his ethics that he can to support whatever Spock's relationship with his culture needs to look like for him to be happy. (Spock may not call it happiness, but they both know the truth.)

And, okay, Kirk is not someone who uses "babe"/"baby" or similar types of breezy endearments with any real sincerity; he just finds them hilarious (most conspicuously in "A Piece of the Action" and "The Mantrap"). Even an unironic "sweetheart" is iffy unless it's important to the other person, I think. In his handful of spontaneous, unambiguously heartfelt romances, he turns the other person's name into an endearment just by how he says it and the look in his eyes and how he touches their hands, not through the extra step of an endearment/pet name he would find unserious.

On the other hand, if it was significant to Spock for Kirk to use deeply serious, heavily weighted Vulcan endearments (aka logical terms to describe the role one person occupies in another's life with greater clarity)? That would be different, not silly or trivializing at all, but precise and meaningful. And besides, Kirk himself is profoundly rootless apart from the Enterprise in TOS (I think this is actually really important to how the show handles him, in ways the films and thus the accumulation of quote unquote lore forgot), but Spock—whatever other Vulcans may think—is deeply grounded in Vulcan culture and identity.

Also, I imagine it would make sense in Kirk's mind for him to accommodate Vulcan norms in their relationship a bit more than Spock should accommodate human ones for Kirk, given that Spock is already being 24/7 pressured to assimilate into human norms while living in an otherwise all-human environment that's going to dominate their lives together. And there's substantial overlap between what Spock values as a Vulcan, and what he admires and recognizes beneath the surface in Kirk.

(Kirk talks bleakly about the nightmare of metaphysical separation from one's beloved preventing "the total union of two people" that is how he defines romantic love, he is visibly the most comfortable with mind-melds in "Spectre of the Gun" of the three who have to mind-meld with Spock, and his mind is so welcoming that Spock can easily enter it while Kirk sleeps and Spock no longer needs any words or usual procedure to quickly meld with him by "Turnabout Intruder." They regularly communicate pretty specific information or emotions with exchanged glances and no words, and Kirk evidently finds this stabilizing and comforting, even in early episodes like "Miri" and "Dagger of the Mind.")

But there's another thing. So many Vulcans assuming that of course Spock's scandalous bonding to a human in Starfleet is what was always in some way expected of him, an innate draw to the human rather than Vulcan path due to his mixed blood, would I suspect make it deeply satisfying in the "bitchy scheming queen bee" side of Kirk's brain to strictly adhere to Vulcan marriage norms whenever they're on Vulcan or in a Vulcan social context. He exclusively addresses Spock by name or in Vulcan (usually a very proper adun with all the emotional affect of Lt. James Kirk teaching his notorious think-or-sink philosophy course). Adding "model spouse to a Vulcan male" to his stable of variously gendered, controlled personas he can project as needed is absolutely a good time as far as Jim Kirk is concerned.

Outwardly, it might seem like Kirk makes all the accommodations and concessions within the personal relationship, the very thing Bones was so often concerned about in their friendship, long before he knew what was really going on between them—and he still worries about that, sometimes. It's not actually true, though.

(Spock brings him flowers.)

[anghraine]

#star trek #you know #you're right #kirk would get an absolute kick out of designing his new persona #and then implementing it perfectly (via @elljayvee)

Thank you! I think so, yes. I feel like... well, K/S + Vulcans sometimes gets much more caught up in Kirk-as-the-human over Kirk-as-Jim-Kirk-the-specific-individual, but both Kirk and Spock actively enjoy disrupting expectations in ways that make assholes uncomfortable and also think each other is the most perfect wonderful smart adorable noble person in existence who deserves every good thing. So I think both the trollish and supportive, affirming parts of Kirk's motives are going to get a day in the sun :D

#and let's not lie spock would find the reactions of other vulcans very funny

Yeah, I think this is a significant contributor to Kirk's maximally correct Vulcan spouse being an ongoing thing. They have quite similar strains of bitchiness but also Spock genuinely cares what Vulcan thinks of him, but also he's well beyond being ashamed of his feelings for Kirk—so I do think Kirk's readiness to accommodate and welcome what's Vulcan as well as human about him is deeply meaningful, and also the look on various childhood nemeses faces are not in accordance with the precepts of Surak, how embarrassing for them.

#jim has made t'pau's jaw muscle twitch twice

In fairness, Kirk is a massive T'Pau fanboy and within an hour of meeting him she was lying to Starfleet for him (and personally, I think she 100% knew he wasn't dead and quite possibly that he'd defied Starfleet orders in the first place to get Spock to Vulcan, hence the lying to Starfleet to protect him). So I imagine Kirk and T'Pau might well have more of a mutual admiration society in the context of all this than he does with Sarek and Amanda; he likes Amanda, but they're very different. I feel like she's internalized more actually harmful perspectives in Vulcan culture from her isolation and active attempts to assimilate than Kirk is likely to share, but also retains some of the Terran-typical patronizing perspectives on Vulcan culture at the same time, both of which powerfully affect Spock. Meanwhile T'Pau observes and is silently congratulating herself on her good judgment (in accordance with the classic Vulcan belief that smugness is not an emotion :D).

(I think Kirk pretty evidently thinks Sarek is a dick towards both Amanda and Spock, but the healing of the Spock-Sarek relationship is important to Spock so fine he will be the most unexpectedly courteous son-in-law EVER. Also he learns several Vulcan games structured intellectual pursuits specifically so Spock will have the joy of seeing him crush Sarek.)

[pixierainbows]

[convexcave]

ok so instead of going on my usual the earth is doomed spiral I started looking into solar punk solutions and stumbled across the practice of permaculture & found a free 50 video series from the university of oregon on it if anyone else would like to learn abt ways we can actually start restoring earths whole deal

Permaculture Design Course - Oregon State University Ecampus

Permaculture Design Course - Oregon State University Ecampus

[anarchistmemedistro]

The Solutions are Already Here: Strategies of Ecological Revolution from Below : Peter Gelderloos : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : I

Are alternative energies and Green New Deals enough to deliver environmental justice? Peter Gelderloos argues that international governmenta

The Solutions are Already Here, Chapter One, A Wide-Angle View

Podcast Episode · Audible Anarchism · 11/01/2025 · 2h 14m

Agroecology - Wikipedia

[wispthicket]

Another cool resource with information on sustainable waste management and other environmental pursuits! https://solar.lowtechmagazine.com/

This is a solar-powered website, which means it sometimes goes offline

[autisticlowfodmapcookbook]

Easy Low FODMAP Breakfast I

This is one I make the night before when I think about it and you kind of have to. It has 1 serving of fruit, fibre and milk.

It is this easy.

1 Cup of your milk of choice. (Almond, soy, macademia, quinoa are all safe in 1 cup serving)

2 TBsps of Chia Seeds (this is a normal serving size and should be tolerated by most. If this meal upsets you, lower it by half a tablespoon and take note you may have a fructan issue.)

1 cup of frozen blueberries. Blueberries are expensive so this for some reason is usually a cheaper option.

Put it all in a jar and leave it til the morning, in the order listed. I mix it when I put the chia seeds in but just plop the blueberries in on top so the seeds have room to transform. Texture is not for everyone but with these ratios it is waterier and not slimy like usual chia seed pudding.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Happy pride, everyone! Remember to blame even the slightest inconvenience on the homophones this month, it’s your god-given right 🏳️‍🌈

[jmtorres]

the way i know this wasn't intentional is op didn't finish with "god-given rite"

[crypticcuntking]

Anairë portrait!

[sometiktoksarevalid]

[batwynn]

All I know is that six year old me REALLY wanted Xena/Lucy Lawless to come stand behind me with this expression when someone was bullying me.

[blackcoffeecinnamon]

Clare Turlay Newberry (1903-1970)

Cat Napping,  before 1940

[aemperatrix]

FURUYA KŌRIN from Shasei Sōka Moyō 1907

[cute-catts]

[mikkeneko]

From a cat's perspective, it's not that he has a bed and you have a bed. WE have TWO BEDS, a small bed and a large bed. And if you don't want to use the small bed, you do you, but he doesn't see why that should stop him from using the large bed.

[jmtorres]

22:05: dude still on the floor. cat on top of dude.

[vyva-melinkolya]

Don’t make your younger self into your own dead wife.

[jmtorres]

The Man Who Folded Himself, David Gerrold, 1973.

[sparklycartoonfairy]

I’ve seen people do au’s of Bloody Mary where Grace’s twin brother is Colt Seavers from the fall guy which I honestly love but I haven’t seen anyone do what I consider to be the funniest option available which is make Ryland Grace an escaped Ken from Barbieland.

Think about it throughout PHM Ryland never talks about having a family he mentions having a girlfriend once in the book all we really know about her is that they moved in together briefly and that she had a lot of stuff.

Let’s say after Ken and Barbie break up. Ken decides to go out on his own and stumbles upon the real world. There he learns about science and becomes completely invested in that pathway. He either eventually figures out how to become a human or he stays a doll which could explain why he was the only one to survive his hyper sleep (and so he can live with rocky longer)

It could explain why he so heavily believes in non water based life so much because he WAS a non water based life form. Water doesn’t exist in Barbieland it’s all plastic.

Furthermore this could explain why he decided to become a teacher being a doll previously it’s only reasonable to assume he’d enjoy kid’s presence the same way Barbie does.

He also loves the beach and we all know that Ken’s previous job was beach

In the Barbie movie the CEO of Mattel states “we’re not worried about Ken…. Ever.” Meaning that it’s likely they wouldn’t care at all if a Ken left Barbieland and perused an education became a scientist and eventually a school teacher.

All this to say imagine Simon and Grace getting into some kind of fight where Simon is like

“You have no idea what it’s like to live your life forced to be a cog in the system. Knowing that what you want doesn’t matter, nobody caring about who you are not even your name matters”etc. etc.

and the entire time Grace is having PTSD flashbacks of this:

And then responds with:

“You wouldn’t last an hour in the place I grew up”

[crochethub]

My Singular Brain Cell by DemocritusRadon

[jmtorres]

the internet is exhausting

there are so many ways people can be wrong and/or assholes

[himekokosu]

 Acorus calamus