salty dog

[joe-nobody]

AHOY MAMMALS AND OTHERWISE!

This is my brain vomit public diary of self affirmations, intrusive thoughts, depression wallowing, doom scrolling, shitposting, occasionally cohesive thoughts, and postings of those more articulate and artistic than myself.

MidStatesQueerPanPolyAncom (in theory; in practice, I'm quite isolated purposely and see the same 10 people regularly, mostly my wife and kids, #Dadlife.) Monogamous and boring, I've no particular cultural or social self identity to speak of (group dynamics elude me) except pothead (I am high enough on the daily to comatose 2 other people with a low tolerance). There's so much vocabulary these days to help explain my experience, I'm struggling to navigate it all in between everything else.

Exploring the buffet of expression; working on living outside of my mind.

RBF grayrocking through life for basic social survival. Though blessed with vibrant internal worlds, often the Conductor of the Executive Bullet Train of Thought at Dissociation Station sends me where IT wants.

WOO WOO!!! ALL ABOARD!

I resent being CIS and spicy whte presenting, so i've never been comfortable with how i'm perceived and expected to think and act. Socialization is a constant struggle. Always felt gender vague (THEY!? IT!? MAYBE? ANYTHING WORKS!) and not fully integrated into this meat suit (it has done well so far...🤞🏻). Portly, thiack, beardo, shorts or overalls erryday, I fool em all until the (heavy) mask comes off, even then, am I myself???

WHEN AM I NOT MYSELF?????

I AM.

I AM.

I AM.

NO COLLARS, NOTHIN BUT OUR CHAINS.

Autist, 80HDeez, Altered consciousness enthusiASSt. Movies, Weather, Rocks, Sex , Drugs, Music, and Art are my longest running special interests.

I used to see a lot of live, local music, and play drums or bass guitar in many bands for most of my life; original, recreational, no touring, several recordings and countless local shows over the 30ish years, but a hobby at best.

This place and time has me growing into myself, a late bloomer indeed. Only been a few years that I've had the sort of love, space, and support to progress.

Stray dog energy, perpetually scabbed and dirty.

This means I revel in the slightest bit of positive attention or curiosity and get the YAP, and you get undying, annoying devotion.

I spend/t most of my waking life outside, worker robotnik, jack of all, good with my mitts.

I'd rather be light than meat, but whatevs, here we are.

*monotone chants ad infinitum*

EVERYTHING, ALL THE TIME

Tags are pretty self-explanatory #sweaty is for mental health work, shadowsweat... #doin stuff is crafts and projects #LA TROKA is vehicle specific projects.

Periodically updated and revised.

[depsidase]

[vintagegeekculture]

[vee-dmsr]

[am1vf]

Not leaving this in the tags

[persephoneblck]

Bringing it back bc still very valid

[alineaaa]

my fault gang i wasn’t socialized correctly as a child

[driftwuud]

Leaving the house is really cool because everything is very expensive and everyone’s very unpleasant to be around.

[swagophile]

important reminder that most people you follow online are significantly lamer than you think they are including me. and if you feel insecure comparing yourself to someone online: DON'T. theyre probably also lame and weird. most people on the internet are

[most-sane-classicist]

reblog if you're also lame and weird.

[ometochtli2rabbit]

Lalo Alcaraz

Happy 250th, do better tho... Please share #laloalcaraz cartoons on this 4th of July.

[kosmogrl]

screw nonchalance embrace being crazy and intense about everything

[jukebarks]

reminder

[danikriatura]

[ernestsewell]

“What, to the American slave, is your 4th of July? I answer; one day that reveals to him, more than all other days in the year, the gross injustice and cruelty to which he is the constant victim. To him, your celebration is a sham; your boasted liberty, an unholy license; your national greatness, swelling vanity; your sound of rejoicing are empty and heartless; your denunciation of tyrants brass fronted impudence; your shout of liberty and equality, hallow mockery; your prayers and hyms [sic], your sermons and thanks-givings, with all your religious parade and solemnity, are to him, mere bombast, fraud, deception, impiety, and hypocrisy – a thin veil to cover up crimes which would disgrace a nation of savages. There is not a nation on the earth guilty of practices more shocking and bloody than are the people of the United States, at this very hour.”

— Frederick Douglass (1818-1895), from a speech given at Rochester, New York, July 5, 1852.

[spaceshipsandpurpledrank]

[spaceshipsandpurpledrank]

@tariah23

[danikriatura]

“When you're privileged you have just a little more than the lower class, the bossman allows you to do a little more, that's all. So you don't see yourself as oppressed as the next brother or sister; you have a little more leeway. You are permitted to have a few more luxuries.

In that case you try to assimilate, you try to be like the boss. But with this kind of mentality there's no way possible that you can make a revolution.

An effective revolution depends upon the lower-class people in this country." - Lessons from the Damned

[maircury]

if it’s not hitting the soul, what’s the point?

[anxietyproblem]

[oak23]

We forgot about it

[dickheaddutch]

[valilihapiirakka]

I once signed up to participate in a study on how depression affects memory, forgot I was meant to go do it, and when I emailed to apologise to the PhD student running it she basically told me that a) she was very used to this happening and b) the weird irony of her theories’ correctness making it very difficult to arrange proving them had by now gone from infuriating to hysterical

[plain-flavoured-english]

I went to the Grand Canyon when I was depressed and I literally forgot the whole thing. Like, the only reason I even know I was there is that I have photographs of myself standing in front of the Grand Canyon with dead eyes but i have absolutely no memory of it

People talk about depression like it’s just being sad all the time but straight up your brain stops working and sadness is just one of the many, many consequences of that

[alleesaur]

the productivity creatures