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and i'm going to.

The emptiness inside me hurts

i am not doing good.

Not many people talk about how deep emotional neglect hurts you.

I’m afraid to want things. I’m afraid to ask for help. I’m afraid to tell someone something if they seem in a bad mood. I can’t process when someone is nice to me. I can’t handle rejection, but my brain literally short circuits if someone gives me a compliment to the point where sometimes the rejection is better.

There are lots of overlap with emotional abuse, but emotional neglect hurts just as much. And it’s even worse that it usually goes undetected, so a lot of people can’t tell they’re being neglected until it’s too late.

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How I wish more people understood this.

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I talked to my therapist about this back in November but now that it's a new year I'm ready to do better and feel better. In this case, I'll be confronting my mom and also coming out to her. I'll post the aftermath here

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Forgot to update but it went surprisingly well?? And I feel so much lighter omg. I feel like all of the darkness got sapped out of me

#this is insane #trauma healing #healing

I talked to my therapist about this back in November but now that it's a new year I'm ready to do better and feel better. In this case, I'll be confronting my mom and also coming out to her. I'll post the aftermath here

#I'm scared out of my mind #actually shaking in my boots #and shes Caribbean #pray for me yall #coming out #parental issues

It feels like my depression and anxiety are making my partner irritated with me. She tries to help as much as she can, but her saying things like "it's not that hard" can sometimes feel like a jab at me. It actually IS that hard for me to get out of bed, or to make myself food, or to stop myself from overthinking. I understand her frustrations, but it makes me feel a bit down...