UNREFINED.

What comes from the heart needs to be unrefined, if it is to be celebrated for what it is.

[justanothermuddledkid]

I've forever been afraid for myself

But for the first time now,

I think im afraid of myself.

[justanothermuddledkid]

GUILT

When you are the only one awake in the room, hearing your own breath rise and fall like wavering winds; When peaceful sleep becomes too much to wish for, And you try to muffle your worries under the pillow; When you feel time vanish as the night grows old, And each beat of your heart is a count down to doom; You realise that sleepless nights are just a part of the price you’ve paid for your sins.

-Hira // guilt keeps me awake.

[justanothermuddledkid]

YOUR MISS.

You look at me Like I’m a Bubble floating Through thin air, Set to burst At the caress Of a small disturbance. You talk to me as if You’ve seen words Cut through me Like hot knife on butter. You feel the need To protect me With all you’ve got Like mother bird Around its helpless Hatchling. I don’t blame Your intentions They come from A good place But dear, I’m no bubble. I’m the wind Gently brushing Through your Garden today. I may blow away Your roof tomorrow. I’m not butter. I’m poisoned honey Sweet to taste Though I’ll erode Your guts as I flow. I’m not your baby bird, I’m a phoenix I’ll burn you as I Revive and glow. You approach me With shields When I’m asking For flowers. Protection isn’t my need, Endearment is. You don’t seem to Find the difference And that’s your miss.

Hira // Shields and flowers.

[justanothermuddledkid]

When I’m alone.

The child who Has no worry In the world With my parents But I fret over Pending Bills and loans; Sisters’ Education; Dad’s tiring Job routine And Mum’s Health When I’m alone. Big sister who Knows to love herself With my siblings But I pick and pull My every flaw When I’m alone. The cousin who Can take any joke With family But I rub salt Over wounds Etched in my mind By the insults Masked as jokes When I’m alone. The smart kid who Gets straight ‘A’s With my class But doubt Circles my mind Like vultures over Rotting meat Asking me if I’ll ever be of worth, When I’m alone. A beam of sunshine Who makes People happy On the internet But I run from Daylight, let Myself get lost In the dark When I’m alone. Concious girl who Hides under clothes In public But I love My curves When I’m alone. Blank faced With acquaintance But I smile At the mirror When I’m alone. Lost for words With people But a poet When I’m alone. I am all the parts I left behind While piecing myself Together after I fell apart, When I’m alone. Im the missing Pieces of the puzzle You see in me , When I’m alone. I am everything That I hide From the world, When I’m alone. I am everything I want to show The world, When I’m alone. I’m a contradiction When I’m alone. You’ll want To hate me Despite that You’ll love me If you take A look at Who I am When I’m alone. -Hira // A contradiction.

[justanothermuddledkid]

I fear moments in which my mind goes blank without a hundred thoughts bubbling away, like still water without ripples, because I know that such sudden calmness could only be a sign of upcoming storm.

[justanothermuddledkid]

Back!

Hey, all you lovely people! I took a rather unwilling break from writing for tumblr. I know I have not posted in a very long time, but I can see that I still have people who think my blog isn't bad. I'm trying to start posting again and I hope its worthy of all your support!

Lots of love,

Hira.

[justanothermuddledkid]

GUILT

When you are the only one awake in the room, hearing your own breath rise and fall like wavering winds; When peaceful sleep becomes too much to wish for, And you try to muffle your worries under the pillow; When you feel time vanish as the night grows old, And each beat of your heart is a count down to doom; You realise that sleepless nights are just a part of the price you've paid for your sins.

-Hira // guilt keeps me awake.

[notonesblog]

Battle

She is

Battling

In

A war,

She was

Never

Prepared for.

Is

She

Bound

To

Lose?

~e.f

[notonesblog]

Salt

The reason:

I constantly

Put salt

On the

wounds,

You gave

me.

-e.f

[notonesblog]

Traces

You Left traces Of truth, While trying To make me, Believe your Lies.

~e.f

[justanothermuddledkid]

Sun girl

The way you illuminated the room With your striking vibrance annoyed me The same way a beam of sunlight falling On my sleepy eyes, through the blinds, did. Because I was in love with darkness and Silence for they promised permanence While lights flickered with changing colours And familiar voices faltered with uncertainty. I thought you, too, with all your luminance Would disappear like a shooting star, Gone before hearing my many wishes, But you were here till my very last word. I never liked sunny sky and I didn’t like you But that didn’t stop me from loving you.

Hira // liking and loving aren’t same.

[dailyinspirationquotes]

[justanothermuddledkid]

[justanothermuddledkid]

Melancholy

I don't remember how my face looked Without puffy eyes and a red nose. My sleeves are always damp with tears I wiped away before people could see, And my speech is corrupted with the fear Of prying ears that twist truth into lies For treating their own heartache or unrest- I wish they would learn that setting fire to someone else's heart can never put out The flames that keep burning your own. Does it seem to them like I go looking For a reason to dwell in wallow and regret While all I ever want is to stay happy? Sadness used to be an occasional visitor But now it reigns every inch of my being, I see no way to get rid of it's bruising hold. By all means, help me defeat it if you can, Instead of telling me it's all my fault. I never chose to be wherever I'm today, And I only try to flee; never wanted to stay. -Hira // I didn't want to be sad, I just was.

[justanothermuddledkid]

"I've always been

A quick learner,

But when it comes

To matters of the heart,

I've never been one

To learn my lessons."

-Hira // Learning.

[writerscreed]

Creed Discovery of September & October 2017

Writers Creed has been digging through the Tumblr Writing Community to find more writers to feature on our blog. Here are the talented writers we have found during September and October who deserve more attention! Check them out and give them a follow, and as usual, keep writing everyone! We cannot wait to find out who will make the list in November!❤

@baldpoetry

@nadaclouds

@softspokenmemories

@ivegotcramps

@tonicristine

@read-my-heart-tonight

@jennfel-blog

@mobbleberry

@juanicu

@parasitethapoet

@starlightpoet

@leemartenspoetry

@xxsixzerosixxx

@the-wild-rxse

@poetfromlondon

@kythepoet

@taylorshowtan

@ghost-417

@shawnraepoetry

@wishididnotwish

@lettersandroses

@wickedmewickedyou

@jossfontenot

@claphandsound

@nicemeniceyou

@quietdissidentlyricist @azukilynn

@mcparty27

@vodkaandbears

@crowned-in-stone

@tomdeckard

@dream-in-hearts

@hiddenwhalewriter

@audiphillips

@teenage-author

@sitandbleed

@secretlyanonymouspoems

@rhymingtherapy

@rockinrollinhippiesoulin

@stripedgriffin

@marcoxroses

@shinypizzakid

@ghostofrevenge

@imagine-quotes

@astyze

@wordsaregolden22

@sassoonery

@synonymousme

@wicked-angeles

@sachdevkarishma

@rquideal

@ohhkandice

@shierri

@anna-g-x

@anavableu

@humcreates

@whispering-soul-in-darkness

@alittlebitofnightmusing

@theaslan17

@blynbleedswords

@r-jacob

@gretchenheffernan

@eaclesparaadoxa

@starrbeau

@alittlelessclueless

@dissonantwindchime

@moldybarstool

@bluemonkwrites

@i-am-bibliophile

@blooodywords

@xxrecoveringprincessxx

@enchantingsaddness

@wordslifeandthings

@words-pouring-out

@justanothermuddledkid

@kozmichaos

@thoughtandforgotten

@fatimanaseem

@lostinthistale

@wordsbykristen

@mthoney

@dearduende

@mirbes

@gil-tea

@tonicristine

@canadaalbin

@righteousghost

@soleanticipation

@shespoly

@mouththorn

@brentefisher

@distinguishabledifferences

@poetdreamerfool

@asiwithercrumbleandfade

@mega2wheellife

@redfortunex

@retrouvailleset

@imogenre

@silver-tounge-bastard

@mizflibble

@pierianensorcell

@onemissingsoul

@bones-and-mortar

@etrawme

@demianmolinari

@miss-mandyy

@naturesbrokenheart

@saccharine-is-a-good-word

@lichen-lull

@xmrgoodguyx

@maybeontuesday

@dreamsarelikedragonflies

@domingobot

@observationsofnow

@alytalang

@blackfeathereddeath @spokenwordonthepage

@writeinmysoul

@poems-for-sleepless-nights

@nervous-poet

@starsmattersinpoetry

@inhalemusicdna

@thevisualaftermath

@thatunicorndaniella

@tkpoet6

@sanojapoetry 

@somehowletters

@applekaur

@zahraapat3l

@seraamala

@creetdavies

@darrion-brown

@substantive-thoughts

@inkfrommyheart

@bookflakeshighbrowangle

@skylightpoet2

@not-so-silly

@cinnaluna

@sanskrutii

@psychic-landscape

@secretlyanonymouspoems

@alyce-wolf-413

@loved-and-lostt-blog 

@biatabones

@which-craft-me

@september-stardust

@ubiquitous-abhorrence  

@crimson-kuwaiti

@poems-for-agnes

[goodreadss]

The trouble is, you think you have time.

Buddha (via goodreadss)