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Forever thinking about “Boston is nice too?” and wanting to throw up about it. Just sitting on the floor of a gym across from the stranger who would be the Shane of his existence like.
I am so far away from home. I am so afraid but I cannot show it. I’m going to be all on my own out there and people are not kind to me. I’ve always been alone, but never this kind of alone before. I don’t really know you, but you seemed kind. And earnest. You would not lie to me. Is it safe? Will I be happy there and safe? Boston is nice too?
Ougghhhhgg. My brave little bug I’mgping to be sick
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i really really love that ilya who grew up in a very homophobic country with a homophobic family in a very masculine homophobic sport, has no shame around his sexuality. he has long since accepted that he's bi and has no shame around it, he has no shame around having gay sex or finding men hot, the struggles around his sexuality always stem from outside factors, but never from shame. i love ilya saying okay so you're gay, so what? because the act of being gay, being attracted to men, having sex with other men is such a non-issue for him when he could easily have internalized that shit and he also doesn't want it to be shameful for shane. instead he's like i love men, i love having sex with my husband who is super gay and i'm not feeling even an ounce of shame about it
"Ilya can't win an argument against Shane because Shane would just flash those eyes, and Ilya would give in."
Actually, Ilya won't try to win an argument against Shane because Ilya has been raised to believe that love (toward him) is conditional, and that if he pushes too hard or if he's too much then people will abandon him. He won't risk that with Shane- not while he still believes there's a chance Shane would leave him.
So it's 1000x more romantic once Ilya learns to put some of his own preferences above Shane's- rather than constantly adjusting his own preferences to allow Shane to always have things his way. Because that means he's finally seeing Shane as someone who's going to stay.
I cannot stop thinking about what a fucking year Ilya had in 2014
Putin warns gay people not to spread propaganda during Sochi Olympics
Every Western media outlet wants a sound bite from Ilya, a Russian superstar who’s lived in the West for five years, regarding the gay propaganda laws
Ilya has to thread the needle of neither denouncing or promoting Russia’s stance
Ilya leads the National Hockey Team to a demoralising crash out
The prettiest man in the world makes the unbelievably stupid decision that now is a good time and place to talk to each other in public for the first time ever
He is upbraided by his Papa
Sveta completely misreads what he needs, and he can’t even be mad about it because at least she’s trying
The Bolotnaya Square protesters are convicted
Russia moves troops into Crimea
He keeps frantically googling pictures of Shane in the middle of the night
Russian opposition leaders are detained
G8 suspends Russian membership
Boston makes the playoffs
The Russian government enacts laws tightening control of dissemination of information, categorising bloggers alongside journalists
The Donetsk and Luhansk referenda, unrecognised by the international community
Boston wins the Stanley Cup
Has panic attack in a bathroom, is immediately accused of being an asshole for arriving on time
Successfully convinces himself he’s capable of having sex with Shane without feelings, definitely doesn’t cry once he’s alone
Super super fun happy times summer with his ailing father
MH17 shot down by Russian-made missile
Russia hits back at sanctions by banning food imports, sends food prices soaring
Oil prices crash, halving Russia’s national budget
Foreign ownership in Russia media is capped
Has Totally No Strings No Feelings secret sex with Shane, everything is Chill
Russian financial crisis hits, prices of food up 40 to 50%, some KHL teams can’t even pay their players
And all throughout this, every time he opens Facebook he’s tagged in yet another hundred fucking ALS ice bucket challenges
ilya trying to soft launch by saying shane is his best friend in every interview “he loves me, really ;)”
except everyone thinks he’s just being a little shit and trying to rage bait the shane hollander golden boy of hockey himself
countless memes and articles are made about the “rozanov school of chirping” and everyone is anticipating hollanders response to this mess thinking it’s just a rozanov joke
until one day when shane answers honestly during a post-game interview that he was “up all night texting his best friend” and hayden looks completely heartbroken
“who?!”
“ilya..? we discussed his terrible powerplay against buffalo”
“what the fuck!”
Can't stop thinking about how much of a relief it must have been for Ilya to realise how insanely predictable Shane is. Like, he's lived his whole life with a mother who had horrible mental illness, a father who was unstable and always angry, a brother who couldn't even hold down a job. He's had to keep secrets and lie and read between the lines just to survive.
And here's Shane. Shane who folds his clothes before sex. Shane who will always be happy with a cold ginger beer. Shane who has a stylist and an interior decorator because he likes things to look objectively nice.
Shane who answers "How many times can you cum in an hour?" completely literally. Shane who has no filter and comments on the bed being dirty within 0.2 seconds of cumming all over it. Shane who comes out to Ilya the moment he figures it out himself, and who tells him point blank that it's not just sex, because he never ever expects Ilya to read his mind.
Their relationship is far from simple, but it's probably one of the most predictable things in Ilya's world. Shane is a safe harbour throughout the years, even while the hurricane around Ilya only gets more and more destructive.
Shane who, before him and Ilya get outed, keeps hearing people, fellow players, his own friends, talk shit about the man he loves and it pains him, so one night he googles "Ilya Rozanov nice person" and ends up in a subreddit where people share stories of celebrities that are surprisingly nice people and the page dedicated if Ilya is full of wholesome stories
hospital personnel from where he used or still visited the paediatric department with the team, parents of patients, even former patients themselves seeing how great, attentive, funny and light-hearted he was
puck bunnies or women he had one night stands with during the years playing for Boston saying he was a phenomenal lover and a consent king, or women that approached him whilst inebriated and whom he gently turned down, bought a bottle of water for and paid for their cabs to get back home safely
neighbours saying he was very polite, people he was nice or helpful to through the years, a mom with a screaming child whose first class seat on a flight to Moscow he gave up so she could have more room for her herself and the baby, a classmate he defended in school, a former teacher saying how smart and talented he was in spite of not having much time to study because he was training a lot, Russian-speakers saying his interviews in his mother tongue are a thing of beauty and incredibly well-spoken, waiters and shop assistants stressing how polite his interactions were
Shane devours these stories with tears in his eyes and a heart about to explode, the tab perpetually open in his phone, incognito mode.
And when someone talks shit about Ilya or when, after their outing, hate starts to be thrown at him even more viciously from the media, he goes back to the tab, just to see that there actually many that agree with him: Ilya, the love of his life, is the most wonderful person
Ilya and Shane, on top of being The Lovebirds Of All Time, are best fucking friends.
Shane is the #1 person Ilya gossips with. Since Shane isn’t the best on picking up subtext, all of the drama Ilya has to share is a complete surprise to him. Which makes him both the most entertained by the gossip and the most entertaining gossip partner.
Shane has an extremely dry sense of humor, and in public he’ll whisper deadpan commentary into Ilya’s ear while Ilya tries not to cry laughing.
Ilya has a very dark sense of humor that makes most people who hear it uncomfortable, but not Shane. Shane thinks it’s absolutely hilarious every time.
Ilya and Shane love to sit in the same room, do separate activities, and barely speak to each other. Shane will read a book while Ilya plays a video game, and one of them will have their feet in the other’s lap.
While everyone in the league thinks Ilya is a huge asshole, Shane thinks he’s hilarious. In fact, Shane usually agrees with Ilya’s chirps and will not defend anyone against them.
I just love the idea that they’re absolute best friends.
“he’s an empath who clocks what your crisis is”
IM NOT CRYING YOURE CRYING
I think Shane having “the support system” makes it harder for him in the long game. Bear with me. Boxing day fight, Ilya mad/sad he doesn’t get to have people knowing about them(I am oversimplifying) and Shane doesn’t understand him. Not at all. He doesn’t understand why would Ilya want to tell people because his experiences of telling people about either their relationship or him being gay is not helpful at all.
I don’t think his coming out was something glamorous like they supported him. It is just another thing to put up with him. And also I firmly believe that if Shane didn’t win the third cup, everyone would blame him. Only reason we don’t see his team having problems with him being gay is he is hockey god.
So coming back to my point, so he has a team that tolerates him at best. A best friend who knows about his relationship but keeps trying to convince him to find someone. So people knowing doesn’t help. It adds to the pressure it already crushing him.
So why would Ilya want that pressure? So yeah it doesn’t make sense to him at all.
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shane and ilya definitely caused some divorces; "I need someone who looks at me like shane and ilya look at eachother" "idk I get annoyed by my husband but shane and ilya spend 24 hours together A DAY and still want more" "ilya showed me the car shane bought for him and how he had to bid for it and restore it and drive 4 hours to get it and I dont remember the last time my husband bought me anything" "my wife just gets annoyed when I talk about hockey and yes i know it's my job but it's my life! hollander and rozanov watch tape together literally holding hands and she won't even come to games" "he never knows what I'm talking about or want and I have to spell out EVERYTHING and once I saw shane and ilya talk telepathically!!!! they didn't even say anything but they knew and I really want that"
they're horrified when someone tells them, "yeah things weren't so great and then we saw you two together and realized we never had that"
At a particularly low point during the Rose era, Ilya was up until 4am stalking the location of Shane’s cottage and then whoops! he paid a fortune to buy the adjoining plot of land.
Once they’re back together, Ilya has to decide whether to admit to the most insane thing he’s ever done or try to sell property in a country he doesn’t live in without Shane noticing.
shane starts thinking out loud during a trip up there together about whether he should go ahead and try to buy the adjoining lot in case they want to add a guest house one day or just want more privacy and ilya just