- since 2016, Iāve gotten a degree in a field that I love, been in a toxic relationship, had a toxic relationship end, been in a kind but ultimately not what we wanted relationship, had that end too, been single for a while, learned Iām trans, started hrt, gotten in a different lovely proudly queer relationship which Iām very happy in, made friends, lost friends, mourned friends, made new friends, gotten a job I liked, made manager, quit, got another job that lets me do a bit of good in the world, gotten top surgery, travelled, swam shirtless in the warm sea, written half a dozen zines and a poetry chapbook, performed poetry, accepted Iām probably never gonna make a career out of poetry alone, gone on and off and on again various mental health treatments and hopeful that this one will stick for as long as it needs to, walked probably a thousand or more cumulative miles wearing through the soles of half a dozen or more boots, laughed, cried, rested, collapsed from fatigue, crawled back out again
- if I could reach back to the kid making this post⦠buddy, Iām not gonna say itāll all be alright, because thatās pat and trite and diminishes the very real struggles of growing. But we cut our hair and change our name and grow a beard and weāre not Quite out of the shitty little hometown but weāre getting there. I think youād like the jumper Iām wearing. I saw mcr live and I know youād kill me with jealousy for it. I took you with me, as much as I could. I still think youāve got great taste in movies, and Iāve got some new recs for you.
- I now have 4 tattoos! None of them are the ones I thought Iād have, but thatās okay. The first one is not an art style Iād choose today but the design holds a ton of meaning for me, and always will, and I donāt regret it. The other 3 are a more cohesive art style - maybe I could have changed the placement or tweaked some details, but I donāt need to, theyāre part of me now and theyāre beautiful for it. Iām excited to get more and to live long enough to reflect on them like this again and again and again