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[leathersys]

on having a "collective consciousness"

[theweathersystem]

that was a wild conversation

[bathhousekitty]

No, amnesia isn’t blacking out and coming to like you’ve passed out.

Amnesia is the lack of memory. It’s completely omitted from your mind. It’s akin to trying to remember before you were born. It’s simply impossible! You had no awareness before you’re born, and that lack of awareness is the same for amnesia.

Those who have not experienced it can only piece together what it is like through the accounts of those who have it, which leads to this popular idea of it being a hard transition from point a to point b. The truth is, it’s much more complex. It more looks like your mind blocking off the bad parts of a moment and keeping the parts it’s okay with to fill in the gap of time. That’s why things seem to happen so fast for those of us with it! Because we are experiencing that time— just way faster because we forget half of the moment we experienced.

The way it’s portrayed in such a single, specific way bothers me… （´-`）.｡oO

[monidoll]

yeah ok [splits you into several smaller girls representing different aspects of yourself]

[laya-snowfeather]

@funnier-as-a-system

[gothextramiles]

My dad in 2001

[leathersys]

missing

[raz0rw1r3]

guy(s) who doesn't know he's plural yet:

yeah i just rlly like stories where someone has another person/personality inside that's a manifestation of their anger and stress. I just relate to it a lot. for no reason. I also like headcanoning characters as systems. for no reason.

[neo-pilled]

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

[permanenteclipse]

so you can enjoy it too!

[bathhousekitty]

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q

[permanenteclipse]

so you can enjoy it too!

[bathhousekitty]

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q

[sirfetchd]

how it feels to be obsessed with your own ocs but you cant think of what to say about them

[sugarpkts]

thank you to weird girls for being online

[bucketbaby]

this is very important to me

[maid-chevalier]

got sucked back into the Fallen Hero IF series again lately and was checking for Spotify playlists. unfortunately, none of the playlists i found featured hip hop really at all (most were punk/a mix), so I took it upon myself to fix that and made a Los Diablos hip hop playlist to be my soundtrack as i play!!!

it’s split into sections, with politics/hype/dark at the start, melancholy/romance after that, and optimism/smooth/hope at the end. got some reccs? lmk!!!

[oswednesday]

discord has turned people into wild animals

[oswednesday]

[1dietcokeinacan]

Remember when Charlie Kirk was murdered in broad daylight in front of hundreds of people…….that was so fucking awesome

[thesituation]

how it feels to remember charlie kirk got an undignified, violent death ^