Neurotypical/divergent rant/question thingy because I want to get diagnosed for literally ANYTHING but idk where to start.
TW long text ahead / mentions of MILD gore below!!
Just before I go on this rant thingy, I just want to state that I am neurotypical as I have not gone to get any diagnosis's(idk the correct grammar) yet. But I do show SIGNS of neurodivergence, and I was just planning on putting some of the main (symptom thingies) I have down so people that do have it can share their experiences, thoughts, and opinions. This is not self diagnosing for anything, I am simply looking to see if I should get a diagnoses, and if so- some suggestions on what for.
So here is my list of things I am (probably) overthinking:
I am bad(ish) at social cues / conversations. Like I either over-read into things and start ‘spiralling’ because I think somebody hates me, or I under-read and say something that I later recognise is very rude / out of line.
I do have a tendancy to bounce between hobbies and things. I have lots of half read books, half done puzzles, unopened arts/crafts sets, unfinished series etc.
I have a SLIGHT tendancy to hoard lots of things incase I may need them later.
I HATE outside noises. On a good day I can kinda focus, but most of the time I can’t focus unless I have my headphones on playing music. On really bad days I get REALLY overwhelmed because there are too many adds, the music ‘wont play right’, or my headphones feel weird on me and it makes me want to rip my ears off.
Sometimes I get really bad intrusive thoughts (like getting the urge to rip my hair/skin/nails off, and some other things that I don’t feel comfortable saying that are probably morally wrong)
Sometimes my body moves involountarily. I don’t want to call them ‘tics’ because they may not be, but sometimes I am holding something and my hands just twitch around for a second and the item gets thrown out, or my neck/eyes move around. Sometimes it hurts and sometimes it doesn’t.
I get urges to do things twice so they are like ‘even’, like I hit my elbow and get the urge to either do it again or hit my other one. But they aren't really really strong so I can ignore them. I still do think of them later though.
I have certain ‘rules’. Like I can start cleaning or studying until the time ends in 00, 30, or 45. (Idk how to explain it) and if something happens in that time (i.e somebody walks in) most of the time it feels like I physically can’t do that action again for another hour or so.
I have a medium sized fear of things touching my eyes. I say medium because it’s not small (I can’t look at piles of needles, sometimes images/videos of forests make me look away because I get the thoughts of the branches sticking into my eyes) but it’s not big because it doesn’t dictate my life.
I do tend to over-react and I am quite emotional in a really bad sense. Like I get scolded and I burst into tears. It’s really hard for me to take constrictive critisism face to face, and I am REALY bad at confrontation.
I do have tendancies to black out/start daydreaming or whatever. Although this might just be Petit Mal Epilepsy, because I used to be on meds for that.
I am reasonably messy/unorganised/unhygenic. I often either forget to or put on hold things like showering, brushing teeth, and brushing hair. I also have a reasonably messy room (as messy one can get in a boarding house)
I have one specific cereal that I have for breakfast every day. If I do not eat it, then I physically struggle to eat lunch/dinner. (Somedays I can get over it and eat anyways, others not so much.)
This is just a list of things, there (may?) be more later on. I don’t exactly know what I am asking, and I honestly don’t care if noboyd answers. This is more for me letting stuff off my chest, because I also know that you all are just strangers on the internet, and not registered people that can help, but I find this easier because I cant see your faces, you cant see mine, so it is easier to tell the truth and not lie.
if anybody thinks that I should get diagnosed/has any tips, questions, queries or litteraly ANYTHING please let me know!!!
p.s my spelling is shite because I am on mobile.