[katetorias]

picrew used credit: slxpxke

autistic system 🪻 bodily 23

bodily Puerto Rican, transmasculine

we have autism, adhd, and cptsd (duh)

a lot of our art is about trauma, be safe!

we post more on our instagram. our carrd 🪸

“endos”/proship DNI

we don’t have collective pronouns. please use individual alter pronouns and names.

only a few will actually post. here are our sign offs, if there’s none, default to top alter:

🧶 Nathan (he/it) 18

🐚 Jocelyn (she/her) 25

📝 Nikki (she/her) 13

🐥 Prompto (pri/prin) 20-21

if we ever reblog/share something that’s we shouldn’t have, feel free to let us know in our ask box. we are also open to questions

[katetorias]

quickly tell me what you think my girlfriend is because a direct introject of Chloe is not what she is lol. only partially. Also we literally hated each other when she first split we would fight all the time not that it’s anyone’s business lol.

[katetorias]

have you lost weight since becoming the main host? prom seemed rlly fat positive and stuff but was wondering since you draw yourself skinny, do you try to replicate irl? safely ofc

I don’t try to replicate my actual weight since trying to get that far would be unsafe, but we actually had to make a small effort to lose weight a while ago, only a little because of health issues, I was struggling to breathe at night so it was mostly just for that

[katetorias]

‘we don’t care about Warren sorry’ yet you drew him and Nathan a lot before so what happened

you guys are so inconsistent and not in a system way

newsflash the person I was 6 years ago isn’t who I am today lol

when I first split I didn’t have much of a sense of self and the fandom is very grahamscott oriented so if i wanted content all I could get was that. I got bored of it very early on bc it has no substance to me

[katetorias]

edited some screenshots of Jocelyn and Shepard from me and @necroneol ‘s sims 4 game, it’s a lil embarrassing for her a little but it’s very fun lol

shepard uses he/him pronouns (no femshep tags)

[katetorias]

Feel no preassure to respind to this ask but, I wanted to say how much your worj means to me, we've veen following you and your partner for a really lonf time now and I look up to both of your individual art styles.

I loce how you've come into yourselves, yes your art is quite a suift from Proms but, I love how gritty it is, how yot incoperate photo bashing in your work - I can see hpw much love you have for Dakota in how you draw her, in hpw you draw *all* of you.

I think it's beautiful, Nathan, and I wnat to say that I deel seen in your work, in how angry it is at times, especially in pieces where you have your face sort if blurred out, we have a realjy distorted sense of self, it's hard to see *me* sometimes, I'm sure you have your own r3asons when you do it but; I feel seen.

Thabk you for everything you all do by just drawing, your work has a place everywhere.

- Star anon

Ps, sorry for poor hrammar and spelling, I'm usually much more coherent!! I uope you can understand me!!@@!!

thank you for this message sorry for taking so long to reply, this means a lot to us. I’m grateful people like what I share, sometimes I don’t that much but i still feel like it expresses something. I’m glad it’s made you feel seen.

The transition from Prompto being host to me was a little weird. It was really stretched out. But now I’ve been fronting consistently for almost two whole years. And that’s weird to think about. Life started two years ago and now I’m just here with my girlfriend. or like when you’re standing at work like. So much bad shit happened and I’m stocking merchandise and it’s like. Things can be normal for you as an alter. Weird

[katetorias]

Question abt being a fictive meant entirely in good faith, being one myself: Do any of you ever struggle with self-hate due to holding self-perception/memories that seem completely unrelated to the body?

We know the "fictive memories" are covering up something, but a lot of our other parts want "Me" to change into something more "real"/"original" if that makes sense? My name, my mannerisms, everything. But i like "myself" as i am, and it won't go away either way. Have you ever felt pressured like that?

Not seeking counsel, just curious about y'all's experience. We like how open you all are with your art. We know you're being for real because mentally we're living very similarly, it seems (tho there's no excuse to be mean or harbor disbelief imo).

Thank you for sharing your stories <3 -🎴🐾

I formed with a lot of guilt honestly I think it became part of what I held for the system. I spent a long time having to unlearn my guilt about events that never even happened, it shifted to guilt for stuff that did happen but feeling guilt for what my source did lasted a long time.

recently Jocelyn’s expressed that she thinks it’s stupid that I care abt my source experiences at all, not rlly like in a mean way, but in frustration that she can’t even get close to touching her own Real memories without freaking out if that makes sense. It’s unfair. But I have my fair share of real memories too so it’s whatever. Unless you’re doing anything unhealthy I think you should be allowed to be yourself, you are your own You. Your own special version of your source.

I appreciate that, luckily we haven’t doubted our system for a while. Idk how long ago prompto discovered the system tbh. But I have memories from college and high school. So I probably formed when we first interacted w life is strange all those years ago lol. I try to be open without being overbearing, at least cause I hope it helps people. ….sometimes to see if anyone likes the art lol

[loserr1zz]

dr frankenstein warren n the creature nathan for halloween

[katetorias]

I bestow Frankenstein Nathan @necroneol drew like two years ago

[katetorias]

a memory of David confronting me and Mr. Jefferson outside of the dorms. I remember a loop in my head, telling me to tell him what Mark did. which this early didn’t even involve other students yet, just stuff teachers shouldn’t do. but often I can’t think straight, I hear things telling me that the worst is going to happen, that people can hear my thoughts, that David might just join in and help isn’t an option and never will be

[katetorias]

all of my hatchetlings so far…. Was working on Ted but idagf about Ted I’ll do it later lol

[katetorias]

a doodle that was on the side of a Kate drawing that I didn’t like so I just buffed up this instead. I always think about making Kate something when I think about her, mostly because she’s so creative I feel like it’s better. but I don’t really know how she’d respond which is fine too its up to her

[katetorias]

on that note, what do you think of Nathan attempting to assault Chloe in canon?

horrible thing to do obviously. on what he was actually doing and why I think he was taking power away from someone he disliked. idk if he was ever gonna physically do anything to her like sa wise since he takes a picture which to me connects it to the dark room photoshoots which to me involve less physical touch on his part. but again idk exactly what the writers want u to think.

psychologically again I think he’s extending what’s happened onto Chloe. Idk if he recognized her she mentions that he was drunk or whatever already, maybe he would’ve just done it to anyone? But it specifically being Chloe feels like he did it bc it was her, bc of her connection to Rachel and how much he doesn’t like her. Chloe is someone who fights back and she isn’t someone that popular or rich but she still got Rachel’s attention. I’ve always thought it’s so interesting that they are so similar in some spots they are both displaying similar trauma responses sometimes in completely different circumstances and I like that about them. Also both of them bringing guns for protection but Chloe having more reservations about using a weapon than Nathan would with how unstable he is all the time. Nathan has social and monetary power but Chloe is actually her own person, she has a reputation and even if to him it’s not a good one it’s Hers. And Nathan is someone who struggles to be his own person without the men in his life who hurt and enable him and the friends who he can’t open up to and defend him. I don’t think Nathan would understand any of this about himself though.

To be honest the picture feels so like. Distant. Like. It’s very disconnected compared to the Rachel ones and with the description of his creepy smile I kinda feel like he’s high on the control it gives him. He’s the one in charge he’s the one taking the picture of someone else now. He got the dose right this time and he got away with it. If that makes sense?

[katetorias]

Trigger Warning: Abuse

older piece. still working through more difficult aspects of my source memories. lately our brain has been slightly stepping back from mine and mainly giving Jocelyn flashbacks which sucks for her but as host I’m grateful for the break lol… sorry sister

[katetorias]

also maybe it’s just bc I’m a fictive but I find it weird when people (I’ve only rlly come across it on Pinterest lol) will make an oc to ship with Nathan and immediately make it about how he would take pictures of them or sa them and it’s kind of like. :/// that’s weird right. not only because it’s out of character (he specifically Doesn’t Want people he cares about to get involved ex: victoria) but also because it’s like. ????? if u actually wanted to date him would u not want to get him help? or. Change for the better? just me? I guess??????? it isn’t like he’s a grown man who’s an asshole and you can make him worse, he’s a drugged up abused teenager who hurts people around him to gain control of his situation. it’s odd to me

[katetorias]

I think the life is strange fandom would have an easier time not fighting if they could treat these fictional characters like tools in a story instead of real people. like these are pixels

[katetorias]

a pinkie doodle while I was stressed the f out

[qamar2026]

I write these words with a broken heart. To those who read this and choose to ignore it, you can simply scroll past, but I am living through the most difficult moments of my life. My husband is slowly dying before my eyes. Due to a severe head and jaw injury, he has been unable to eat or drink for over a week, his weight has dropped to just 39 kilograms, and he is suffering from severe, life-threatening malnutrition.

[qamar2026]

The doctors confirmed he needs urgent surgery, but we can't afford the operation and treatment. I feel helpless watching him weaken day by day, while time is running out.💔

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