i engage in many communities and am disordered. my asks are always open. ok to pursue, flirt, etc. none of my posts are targeted at the moment. i am just a little miss posting her woes.
the concept of your favorite person enabling all your toxic behaviors and encouraging it and accepting you as you are. the thought that they secretly enjoy how emotionally dependent you are on them, how much power they have over you, and see it as validation rather than something unhealthy. ah, to feel accepted and wanted without being judged or called "too much."
7: 15 or younger... it's sad. if i'm not all dolled up, i look like a kid. :(
8: not yet, but i plan to for my 20th in october.
9: yes yes yes. i want my first to be asoiaf related. specifically, i want my babies drogon, rhaegal, and viserion.
10: i used to. i had 5 lip piercings that i took out due to them being inconvenient. i was constantly in the hospital, getting surgeries, imaging, etc. it was easier to just remove them.
11: i want to get my vertical labret re-pierced. it was my favorite. i still have my gold opal and pink diamond jewelry for it.
14: dominance 🤤... assertiveness, possessiveness! i just wanna be babied. yum 🍽
15: immediate submission and overly submissive people in general. i've had to be in charge of everything my whole life. i deserve a break.
16: his girl friday... probably. or roman holiday... orrrr bound ( 1996 ).
21: my willingness to allow myself to be treated unfairly when i care about someone. in the rare times i love someone, i really let them walk all over me.
22: my intellect. it's the only thing i've always been confident in.
24: i'm only close with one of them and there's ups 'n downs. he's in the middle of his teenage years, so he's temperamental. but i love him. he'll always be my baby since i raised him for many years.
25: very good, i love my mom so much. she treats me like her baby and never says no to me. it's because she feels bad she wasn't there when i was a kid, but i forgive her for all of that.
26: cooking for them and watching my favorite movies with them. orrr getting lunch and going to a bookstore. i like quiet dates.
27: people assuming how i feel about things without just. asking me. i guess some people find me intimidating, but i literally have never gotten mad at someone for just being honest about their worries with me.
31: i don't do either, but i used to run my own business. i hated speaking with the customers. 💢
33: "no".
34: being called intelligent or gentle. the second is because i spent years being called agressive and violent. so i feel good when i'm called gentle or kind.
37: anywhere that tends towards cooler weather. preferably somewhere near enough to a city that it's not a bother to get there, but not so close that the area i live is busy. i would also be down to live in the middle of the woods with a pack of dogs.
39. neurosurgeon, astro physicist, and criminal psychologist. i had big dreams.
“ my best friend (& your worst enemy) “ // does your perception of others easily shift and change? how so?
“ i don’t really like your friends, either. “ // are you the type to get possessive or jealous over those you care about? how do you deal with it?
“ shut up, heather! (sorry, heather) “ // are you a passive person?
“ what’s your damage? “ // if someone hurts you, will you ever go out of your way to get revenge them? how so?
1: yes and no. it varies from person to person, i'm not very consistent at all. i can have the same level of friendship with two people, and they both can do the same thing, but i react completely differently to each person. i can overlook one and completely lose all interest in the other. there isn't a method to it.
2: yes... i tend to freak out on my own for a moment, and then i take it out on them. i'm very much a "you hate me and want me to die" person any time i'm made to feel inferior.
3: yes and no again. i definitely prefer to quietly observe things and let situations pass. but i can also be quick to cut people off over small things ( usually things that have nothing to do with me, i just get annoyed easily ). when i love someone, i'm definitely far less passive.
4: it depends, but not really. i think the most extreme instance of me getting "revenge" was me publicly exposing my ex with things that i, admittedly, genuinely did not care about. i just hated him and it made me happy to see him lose his voice acting career that he was oh so proud of.
⦻ Jason the Toymaker ⸺ If your darling has any traits that you perceive as flaws , do you want to “ fix ” them or leave them as they are ?
⦻ Sally ⸺ How pure would you consider your love for your darling ? Do your obsessions start out innocent or more sinister ?
⦻ Nina the Killer ⸺ Do you find yourself mimicking / copying those you love in any way ? Or , if your obsession is interested in someone besides you , do you try and copy that person ?
⦻ Eyeless Jack ⸺ Would you cannibalize your darling if given the chance ? Would it be their entire body , or just specific parts ?
⦻ Ticci Toby ⸺ Are there any specific crimes you'd be willing to commit for your darling ? ( Like arson , murder , etc . ) How much guilt do you think you'd feel for doing it ?
⦻ Jeff the Killer ⸺ How much does appearance factor into your attraction towards potential darlings ? Would you change your appearance for them , or attempt to influence theirs ?
1: i always want to fix them. to me, flaws are things to be corrected. and i'd want my darling to fix my flaws as well. we should be our best selves for each other.
2: unsure..? maybe more innocent. since i tend to become attracted to people based on how much i can view them as a parental figure. #incestmaxxing i am a little girl at heart.
3: i do mimic my darling a little. mostly adopting things they say or physical mannerisms. i'd never lower myself to copying someone else to seem more appealing for my darling. i want them to love me, not the emulation of someone else.
4: yes. their entire body. i've had detailed cannibalistic fantasies for most of my life. mostly in a murder-suicide way.
5: pretty much anything based on the feasibility of me getting away with it. what's the point of doing a crime if i get caught and separated from my darling?
6: i'm not sure. i don't have a definitive "type". all i can say is i can't disregard physical appearance in my method of attraction. i need to be able to be aroused by your looks to desire you in any manner beyond that. my own appearance is what it is. if they don't like it, they aren't meant for me.
⋆ 。➶ Throne — Would you imprison your darling and throw away the key if they wronged you?
. ˚ ✧ Tassel — What is your biggest boundary when it comes to love?
⋆ 。➶ Satin — Is your obsession subtle or obvious to an outside observer?
. ˚ ✧ Cloak — Do you forgive easily or do you tend to hold grudges?
⋆ 。➶ Rose — What's your favorite fictional relationship?
. ˚ ✧ Majestic — Would you enjoy being famous?
⋆ 。➶ Drawbridge — Would you abandon your life as you know it for your darling?
. ˚ ✧ Ornate — Do you ever become parasocial?
⋆ 。➶ Silk — Have you ever been in a yan4yan relationship before?
. ˚ ✧ Velvet — Do you prefer to give or receive gifts?
1: no. i'd rather them be free to inevitably experience the karma of being wronged by someone they love and trust. it also depends on the severity of what was done, but for less serious offenses, i prefer to let them get hurt by someone then come to me when they realize i'm the only one who really cares.
2: don't ever ever ever say "i love you" to other people. immediate family is fine, whatever. friends and anyone else? no. it grosses me out. it's disgusting.
3: a mix of both, i think. i tend to lean more towards subtlety in the beginning, but as my obsession progresses, it definitely becomes noticeable to anyone.
4: neither. i'm not really the forgiving type as i think most people are disingenuous in their apologies. but i also rarely care enough to hold grudges. but when someone wrongs a person i love, i hate them forever. nothing they say or do can ever make up for the distress they cause my love.
5: heathcliff x catherine ( wuthering heights ). they will never be surpassed. i love my crazy abusive man.
6: eh... not necessarily. i enjoy the idea of attention, but in practice, it severely aggravates me. i'd rather be idolized by one than by many. or be admired without interacting with my admirers.
7: yes, of course. on the basis that i'm certain they could care for me the way i require. i'm best suited for the housewife lifestyle.
8: yes...? i think. i'm not entirely sure since i'm not very self-aware in that aspect.
9: no. T_T but maybe someday. the problem is i tend to attract people who express their obsession submissively. and i like dominant aggressors, which i've never been wanted by.
10: both. especially as an artist, i like to give my love things i've made. and i do have a habit of dropping hundreds on gifts. but only if that effort has been reciprocated.
♡ Sweet Dream : Would you consider yourself a savior or the one that needs saving ?
♡ Unknown ( Till the End ) : What lengths would you go to in order to pursue your darling ? Would you continue even if they were uncomfortable ?
♡ Black Sorrow : Do you enjoy being in love , or does it bring more pain than joy ?
♡ Wiege : How important is your darling's comfort to you ?
♡ Witch : Would you ostracize your darling from everyone else ?
♡ Scars : Would you prefer your darling to move on if you died , or would you want them to mourn you forever ?
1: a mix of both, but i do think i lean towards being the one who needs saving. i don't like to victimize myself, but i do crave to be loved by someone who is fiercely protective and caring to the point of being "smothering". i'd like to be saved from my own solitude, in a way.
2: considering i spent 5 years pursuing the same person even after being shut down numerous times, and the fact that they were in a relationship for nearly 4 of those five years ( it was complicated ), i'd say i'm not quick to give up. even when boundaries are set, i have a habit of constantly overstepping when i really want someone. in my mind, boundaries just mean they don't understand what they mean to me and i need to push harder to show them.
3: it's a mixed bag for me... i'm highly reactive. if i sense the person i love is trying to pull away from me or if they're acting differently, i do tend to lash out violently. other times, i love to love even if it's not reciprocated. love is fulfilling enough on its own.
4: it depends. i do care for my partner's comfort so long as i'm apart of it. any requests to establish boundaries with me for their comfort, i completely disregard.
5: yes and no. i do like seeing my darling interact with others to an extent. but in limited amounts & if they are too friendly with someone or vice versa, i shut it down immediately. i'm not above lying about people to make the person i love drop them.
6: mourn me forever. no exceptions. preferably suicide done in my honor.
i saw a post about this nd i rlyy didn’t like the way the post looked so here u go !! comment if u don’t like to be tagged or if u prefer to be tagged (it’s not weird if someone who wasn’t tagged comments pls i’d like that!!) .. i love tag games ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
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2. age
3. shoe size
4. do you smoke?
5. do you drink?
6. do you take drugs?
7. age you get mistaken for
8. has tattoos?
9. want tattoos?
10. has any piercings?
11. want any piercings?
12. best friend?
13. relationship status
14. biggest turn-on’s
15. biggest turn-off’s
16. favorite movie
17. i’ll love you if…
18. someone you miss
19. most traumatic experience
20. a fact about your personality
21. what i hate most about myself
22. what i love most about myself
23. what i want to do when i get older
24. my relationship with my sibling(s)
25. my relationship with my parent(s)
26. my idea of a perfect date
27. my biggest pet peeve
28. description of someone i fancy
29. description of the person i dislike the most
30. a reason i’ve lied to a friend
31. what i hate most about school/work
32. what my most recent text message says
33. what words upset me the most
34. what words make me feel the best about myself
35. what i find attractive in women
36. what i find attractive in men
37. where i would like to live
38. one of my insecurities
39. my childhood career choice
40. favorite ice cream flavor
41. who i wish i could be
42. where i want to be right now
43. the last thing i ate
44. random fact about anything
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