kozone @ko-zone - Tumblr Blog

“go fuck yourself!” well i don’t think any of my headmates like me that way but if you insist,

DID sucks because in the morning you think "maybe I'm actually normal and I should stop overanalyzing my experiences and just enjoy life" and in the evening you get possessed by the ghost of yourself from 2018

songfawn

Hm i wonder why i feel so disconnected? *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afa

oursystemblog

orivu

youve died a thousand times before who caaares just climb out of this grave again & again &agaian & agaian & again & again & aga

star01007

#crag

prudishchanteuse-deactivated202

İ loved being neglected as a child…………

disordersofresonanceandairflow

so much time for research

neo-pilled

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

#yeap #switching feels less like someone just took the mantle and more like you're slowly oscillating into another person #like those wobbly flash transition frames #andthe fucking i have no problems thing. I will explain my current life situation to someone and theyll be like oh my goddd? Are you okay #and we're in 9 layers of dissocion onion like yeahg. all cool here 😎 obviously not but there is no winning scenario and we must persist #and some of these little and big shits are so annoying and full of themselves. Im right you have a fucking problem you are not hot shit #and then there's 2 parts who still deny that were even a system. oh my goddedddddd nobody CARES #all it goes in the vault that is the journals and it will likely stay in those until i die. because #idk what im doing #heart hands but with the tightest clenched fucking fake smile jaw and claw fingers youve seen in your life

liveleaker-deactivated20250423

my pet white boy has been exhibitting signs of stress, punching holes in walls, and now he won't even finish a full monster. time for vet?

#ME #odious

v3il

reading fanfic abt yourself as a fictive:

#i'll read stuff with me and it i'll be not even a few paragraphs in and the person failed to see beyond face-value character traits.#but when they get it right they hit it like a hammer to a nails head and its great #gaius

chrryparfait

#fely

back aagain

settled things with another alter with the whole "am i the new work alter oh god" thing yesterday. obviously both of us are more than just The Work alters were whole guys but man it's weird im the one trying to comfort you why are you hugging ME you big weenie

also i don't feel like tagging with the emojis anymore tbh because i keep forgetting mine im just using my name if it's that important to have a tagging system

#heh. tagging system

oursystemblog

really funny when we get a thought in our head that is incredibly opposite to what we're actually thinking and then we're just like "hey, wait a second, who thought that? Who Thunked"