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tadc the last act spoilers!!
this is what happened right?
TADC: The Last Act and Suicide
So, I just watched the Last Act and I have thoughts and opinions on it, but I am going to hyperfocus on one particular little aspect and that's this little notion of suicidality that is brought up with Jax's Abstraction and how it fails for me as a person who has attempted twice.
First of all let's clear the air, having the (alluded to) transfem character fucking kill herself offscreen is really funny to me in a "Did JK Rowling write this shit" type of way.
Jax really didn't succeed for me as trans representation. There's the scene with Ribbit's bow and to me that just felt like a ersatz version of the ghost drawing scene from I Saw the Tv Glow, like a good moment taken from something else but replicated inferiorly. I wish this aspect of her character had been explored in more depth before she was taken out of the plot.
There is something interesting and tragic in internalized transphobia and repression that is touched upon in the episode, but only in the most unsubtle of ways. I mean, for fucks sake her femininity is represented by a maid outfit. Which, to me, is synonymous with an over-sexualized, terminally online view of femininity.
For many blooming trans women (myself included), a maid outfit and those striped miniskirts and thigh-highs were what the internet told us that "gender freaky" individuals wore. It allowed for a semi-ironic dawning of this skintight amazon basics attire to experiment with femming it up.
The film feels the need to throw away any subtlety and speak aloud this subtext; the maid outfit Jax literally says "oh yeah i'm just wearing this ironically..." It's like the writer is beating you over the head with a shovel.
DO.
YOU.
GET.
IT?
TADC's commentary on suicide isn't very interesting nor particularly subtle either. Abstraction in the last episode can be clearly read as a suicide allegory, and it doesn't really scan.
So, we see three abstractions this episode and I am going to try my best to recall the "reason" as to why each one abstracted:
Ribbit - Was pushed away by Jax; excluded from friend group; isolated self from others; died. Kaufmo - Went crazy over the fake exit; had problems with Jax; died. Jax - self isolated; ??? (offscreen); died.
Generally, what I found when rethinking over each character's "reason" for abstracting was that there was a need to show that the character was sad, or scorned, or depressed before abstracting. This depiction feels very trite, or cliched to how a "normie" would interpret suicide.
I'm not going to try to act like I am Jane Su Ecide (a professional authority on how this should be shown), but for me in my darkest moments there was a lot more going on into the "why" of killing yourself.
For one, when I tried to a thought that circled in my head was a sort of vindictiveness against everyone who hurt me a "This'll show em!!!" type of mentality, a way to get people to actually show compassion for my existence. Another brainworm that was floating around in those moments was a realization that I had no intrinsic motivation to live, and that the act of living itself was absurd or strange. The act of living was more odd and painful than just fucking dying.
So, what did I want from TADC: The Last Act? A one-to-one retelling of that time I tried to kill myself or that other one? No, don't misunderstand me. I do not bring up this example to be self-pitying or to say that it should've been just like this. What I am saying is that there were plenty of other underdiscussed or underrepresented mindsets and mentalities that could've been imbued into abstraction as a suicide metaphor with my experience as example.
To think that people just kill themselves because they are sad or nobody likes them is really tropey and shows a surface level understanding of the topic. TADC tries to pretend it has more depth than it actually does by referring to trite structures, E.G in EP 6 with Jax's whole archetypes speech. However, the Last Act really does fall victim to this triteness.
I have once fallen into this trap before. Being a trans women writing about closeted trans women, I had once before felt the need to confront trans suicide by virtue of the fact that I was trans and that I had to address this as a topic. Looking back at that work, it didn't really serve a place in the narratives that I had created and felt forced.
Others who had a superficial understanding of these topics thought my depiction was somehow deep or nuanced, but I don't think they were truely. It's really a shame how easily people are affected by claptrap emotionally manipulative bullshit.
I think Fire Punch does the topic of suicidal thinking amazingly, the act of living itself with all of the traumas and agonies that are actively burning you alive is what is painful. And yet, despite all of that when the main character actually finds an internal, intrinsic reason to live it really does feel like there is weight to it.
There's a myriad of other reasons as to why I disliked the Last Act, but this was the biggest and most personal to me. TADC is going to eternally be "Meet: Potential Series!" for me alongside Murder Drones. I just wish things had cooked a little better with a little more consideration.
Why Jax Is Nuanced Trans Rep But NOT Good Trans Rep (and what the difference is)
Hey guys. Not my usual content but I've been observing the discussions surrounding Jax being transfemme and I've gotta say... I agree with the people who say he's not good representation. Interestingly though, I haven't seen anyone discuss a particular reason as to why this is, and that reason (amongst others) is what I want to share.
Before I get into my explanation, I want to state that I am a transgender person! So to anyone who may find this and think I'm a cis person trying to speak over the trans community (which is an accusation I'm seeing flung at anyone who disagrees Jax is good representation) I am not :) I also want to state that while I believe I am correct, I understand I can not impose my beliefs on anyone. If you finish reading this and you still want to think Jax is good representation for whatever reason, you have every right to do so! All I ask is that you respect my perspective on this and don't attempt to change my mind, because as a trans person I am capable of deciding for myself what I believe is and isn't good for our community.
Now... One of the biggest reasons I've seen people claim that Jax isn't good representation is because his story is too ambiguous. Unless you are a transfemme looking for solidarity in characters or someone who keeps up with what Gooseworx says (because all the nearly-explicit confirmation of Jax being transfemme is of course not included in the show; sound like a certain creator who also likes to leave important character context out of the show?), it's easy to miss that he is supposed to be perceived as transfemme.
While everyone else's issues are made clear in a way that doesn't leave their issues up for debate (Gangle's issues with self-confidence and masking, Zooble's issues with body image, etcetera), Jax's conflict as a character struggling with his gender identity isn't ever truly touched on outside of Episode 9- and even then it's done in a way where Jax being transfemme is not the only interpretation. From the perspective of people out of the loop, I've seen assumptions that his conflict was with breaking the norms of masculinity and learning how to express himself without being seen as weak, assumptions that he grapples with his sexuality (in other words, a closeted gay man), even assumptions that his struggles are the same as Pomni in which he is acting the way he does due to inner conflicts of being seen as a child.
When a queer/trans character in your show is THIS ambiguous, it's safe to say they're not great representation, because their story is not being represented on screen in a way that is open and meaningful. Yes, I know creators have done this before under bigger networks to avoid censorship, which I dislike but understand. With Gooseworx working under an indie company I see no reason why she couldn't have leaned more into openly portraying the story of one of her MAIN characters instead of having him spend most of his screentime being an unreasonable asshole.
So that's two issues- ambiguity and improper buildup/exploration. My big issue with Jax being transfemme is that the kind of character he is is reductive to the image that the trans community needs right now. If you live in America or any place with major anti-trans movements occurring, you should well understand the image that transwomen (I switch to transwomen but transfemme is still applicable) face from conservatives and transphobes. If you're not aware, let me be the first to tell you that to these people, transwomen are seen as a danger to cis women (whether physically or socially) and will always be seen as masculine no matter how fem-passing they are.
I wonder who fits that description- a danger to cis women and perceived as masculine... Jax. It's Jax.
I have heard people say they like that Jax is an asshole because not every trans person is a good person. This is true. This makes Jax a nuanced portrayal of a trans character.
This (and the previous issues mentioned) does NOT make Jax a good portrayal of a trans character.
A good trans character is a character that does not perpetuate the stereotypes against trans people when it isn't really necessary. A good trans character has their transness visible in their storyline, whether it's in a casual way (such as in a trans character being out and comfortable with their identity) or in a serious way (as in their struggles and experiences are made clear to the audience even if not to other characters). An exception can be if the trans character is trying to pass as a gender, but if this needs to be handled even more delicately and still with visible, unmistakeable context to their transness.
EDIT: As I proofread, I want to add I am aware of the argument people have made in which they claim Jax doesn't need his transness to be visible because he is closeted/not aware of his identity yet. This is true ONLY IN RELATION TO THE PEOPLE IN HIS UNIVERSE. The people in reality- us!!!- should have gotten time to really see Jax's inner conflicts and turmoils past a few scenes in Episode 9.
So yeah... this is why Jax is NOT good rep, but rather just a nuanced portrayal.
I understand Jax is based on Gooseworx's experiences and self-perception. I also know Gooseworx has said Jax is not a good person and I respect her for admitting that instead of trying to make excuses for him. However, I believe Jax could have been better trans rep in an isolated series about himself (especially since it seems that's what the show wanted to be a good chunk of the time anyway) or better yet, if Gooseworx had just made an animated biopic about her experience as a trans person where she would have been able to thoroughly explore the themes and content she wanted to without having to worry about other characters.
Gooseworx said herself the show got bigger than she expected and she wasn't prepared for it, so I don't think she put much forethought into the way certain writing decisions of hers would be taken. I think she has the potential to write good stories and I would love for her to feel inspired enough to create again (because as a writer and someone who hopes to run a show I sympathize with her in some ways), but if that day comes I want her to do it with much more forethought to her audience.
TO SUM IT UP: It bothers me how many people are propping Jax up as "amazing trans rep" and such similar appraisals without acknowledging the flaws in his story and the stereotype he enables. I don't believe there is nearly enough positive, open trans rep in media (let alone animated media) for us to start giving flowers to the downright harmful portrayals.
I don't have much else to say on the matter. If you've read this far and agree with me, thank you for listening! If you've read this far and don't agree with me but still see where I'm coming from, thank you for listening! if you've read this far and don't agree with me and want to send some kind of hate comment, don't get too attached to the idea of a response because you will immediately be blocked! I don't have time to entertain people who can't have their attachment to a character without acknowledging their flaws.
Jax & Gangle scene and Stolas problem
After seeing the finale I still can't stop thinking about Gangle scene in Jax mind. I will not elaborate on it's meaning because idk (I have my own theory, but as a Jax fan, I don't want to make people angry). But I still want to criticize the inclusion of this scene in the movie.
TW: SA, r*pe mention
warning 4 TADC spoilers even though yall should be worrying about glitch being an abusive and misogynistic company instead 😭
Genuinely what the fuck. I thought the Portuguese(?) (or Brazilian I don’t remember) dub wouldn’t be all accurate but it’s still so fucking weird…
"Don’t act like you don’t like it sweetie."
SEXUALLL HARASSMENT???? GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF MY DAUGHTER BITCH
Man Jax as a character feels like if Jimmy were written and watered down by vivziepop.
Yall are trying to make him seem complex and someone we should feel sympathetic for but its really not working
Especially when yall are making almost sexual harassment played for laughs and giggles??? Even if it’s not sexual harassment it’s still insanely- LIKE YOU LITERALLY HAD GANGLE TALK TO ZOOBLE ABOUT HOW SHE WAS TERRIFIED OF THIS MAN AND THEN YOU HAD TO COMPLETELY BUTCHER IT JUST FOR THE SAKE OF JAX FANSERVICE. ITS WEIRD.
Who or What Killed The Amazing Digital Circus?
This is the first part of three. This post will cover the show itself and the second will cover the fandom. The third will basically be a final thoughts post encapsulating all my feelings about the show.
Spoilers Ahead!
No, you can't just abstract because you got pregnant, Jax! Be a man and take responsibility for Caine's mistakes!
Whoops!
that's her pet
Hehehehe
TADC gang at the end after putting living corpses of people who killed themselves that are implied to be stuck in their mindscapes forever in an aquarium and having fun with two dudes that are responsible for at least half of the things that happened (they found meaning in stagnant life or something)
There was only one bed
(Pomni it's just way to generous)
Can you draw Jax confessing his love for Pomni?
~Also love your btw!
She does not
PUT HER DOWN
ABOUT TADC EPISODE 9 LEAK
WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT REAL ISSUES INSTEAD OF ONLY WORRYING ABOUT ONE ADULT PERSON
Now that I have your attention, I would want to talk about things in the finale that are really messed up.
Everyone right now are only worried about leak itself, Goose or Glitch when FINALE ITSELF IS THE PROBLEM.
I will not talk about plot, because let's face it, there will always be someone who will like it even if its boring and that's ok.
The thing I want to talk about are: dangerous message (especially for sui****l people), s*****al harassment scene and how description on theaters sites makes it a scam.
The points I will make are not something I came to conclusion by myself only. I read several opinions, posts and comments.
There will be: MENTION OF SA, SU****L MENTALITY AND SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT
About the Game - The Ashworth’s Last Princess
~A KHR AU! Otome Game~
Summary
Once upon a time in Belmark, the Ashworth’s were once known as a great and powerful family. But that is no longer the case. With the deadly assassin group called the Varia, killing off the potential heirs of the family, the future of the family and their country is at stake.
Milena Garcia is just an ordinary college student who tutors kids and lives with her dad. But all that changes when the Varia attack her. Saved by a group of mysterious men, she finds out from them that she is the Ashworth’s last heir and they are her bodyguards sent from the queen to protect her.
Characters
Note: Names are in LastName/FirstName format
Main Characters
Garcia Milena* - Heroine
Sawada Tsunayoshi
Gokudera Hayato
Yamamoto Takeshi
Hibari Kyoya
Rokudo Mukuro
Cavallone Dino
Side Characters
Mother - Ashworth Cordelia
Father - Garcia Neron
Best Friend - Nakamura Aiko
Varia
* You have the option of changing the name once you play the game.
Languages
English
Rating
Teen/PG-13
System
Platform: Windows/Mac/Linux
File type: .zip for distribution and .exe to start game.
Coming soon
Demo Game
Ok, ok, ok.... is it weird that I reblog this just because heroine has the same name as me? I don’t even know how I found this, I just came back to KHR after so many years so... Anyway, from what I see project is still continued? So I can be excited for it, right?
I am still amazed that someone even considered to use this name... I used to hate it cuz it isn’t that popular in Poland, but... it’s still beautiful name, isn’t it?
ppap
Finally something that makes me laugh :>