Have you ever wished that life showers you with good news and blessings? Like you wished that all these bad news can just disappear or not be heard and seen at least. Well, think again: life is a roller coaster ride. It has its ups and downs no matter how much you escape.
Being pessimistic is actually one of the feelings I am trying to avoid in my life. It is like a deadly virus. Once you let the feeling in and absorb it deeply in to your heart, it is where depression comes in. It is like your world becomes pitch black and you just realize that you cannot see any light from somewhere. It kills you inside. As a natural-born optimistic woman, pessimism is a big no, but we are all not perfect. This can still be felt no matter what you do. You see, our emotions are like a thermometer. There is one for each. Once the sadness takes over your happiness, it affects everything. Take the movie Inside Out as an example.
But you know what is more depressing? It is when a person whom you helped so much starts to forget you just because of a mistake. Sad isn’t it? Its sad that people (all people) has this kind of mentality. We all remember the bad things done to us and not the good ones. Saddening isn’t it? But can’t do anything. Its how the world goes.
So why am I writing an open letter? I just want to release what is in my head. This weekend has been rough to me. I have experienced pain, regrets and sadness. That moment when you had given your all to help a person in need and every single day you think that you’re making a fool out of yourself. After all what happened, all those sleepless nights, risk-taking and health sacrifice has turned to nothing. But hey, we must all learn from our mistakes so that in the future, you will know what is the right and the wrong.
But I would have not gone thru my tough weekend without my family, friends, especially the love of my life. Papabe, without you, I don’t know how to face tomorrow (to be honest). I keep on blaming myself when something wrong happens in mine and anyone around me’s life. As my pessimistic side has taken over most of my emotions, you were there to get me back on track and be strong. I know we are very distant, but I admire our relationship. No matter how far, we still communicate and comfort each other. I guess this is what the power of love does: we never leave each other sad. We make each other happy no matter what. We solve problems together. There’s no boundaries even if were in LDR. This is indeed the best #relationshipgoals. <3
Also my family who gives the best advice like never regret or blame yourself over the situation. Not everything should be blamed on me. I must learn to move forward no matter how hard it is. I am blessed to have them <3.
To the friend of mine who gave me the best advice of the right thing to do: thank you.
To the person (or the people) who caused me this: I have done my part to help or comfort you guys. Its time to go our own ways, but I am not burning my bridge.
So life, you may bring me down so much. I may lose some people around me, but my life must go on with full confidence. Not looking back. Only time can heal the wound(s).
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