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#(the opposite of organizational tags are #echo tags:#)#and the self-laughing half-bowing half-curtseying to yourself standing with your song as you learn this learn it yet again #what intensity of extremity-of-its-kind creature i wish i had laid eyes upon years ago #i’ve never felt a dream that made me feel so dizzyingly desire mad i feel more brightly insane just thinking about it #it is the whole glory of life to be stamped with this Truth: YOU LIVED. desires lit and seals set from your world and lifetime ARE LIFE. of #ofcourse i@always had starson the insides ofmi eyelids about ‘we who wrestle with g-d’ but secretly even from other jews i have #‘wrestle and overcome and mount g-d like a bitch in heat BECUZ they are beautiful and powerful and huge and terrifying and everything’#‘surely They must laugh in glee if we ever truly succeed in doing so????’#what starts as resilience falls in love and symbiosis with what you were long-sufferingly wrestling with #all the truest parts of me blushedswollen in reaction and anticipation #the personal mythology of a human lifesoulminddesire is so so So intricate and full of willful implacable unanswerable power about what #infinitely complex and mysterious that no one else can fathom them with a mere violent and erasing dismissal about ‘u’ vs 'society'#we have reached heights far beyond the tower of babel but it is this thirst for understanding that marks us as like unto g d #being born and living. the truth of your longings are stamped like a seal upon your heart in ways so unique and precious and secret and #could be i am her.....i will sell it for no less than a third of your names....argghhh!#but is actually existing as the flaming friction intensity made in the grinding of extreme power #as a jew i say 'b'tzelem elohim' (in the image of g d') + ''ehyeh asher ehyeh' (i am that i am = i will be whatever i will be')#paradoxes and puzzles and wry defeats....they are everything #in a clever paradoxical twist of ponderinghood....what’s the term for it #this is what g-d says to Itself before laughing Itself into a manic break #coal sings #and if u don’t vibe u pivot to projecting and accuse this girl of making demands by dint of being visibly mutilated by a violent crazy #mystical thing she did that brands her as the type of person who likes that and is ruined irrevocably by a thing only insane(tm) people do—#— g d and tamar talking to each other while tamar is standing in the middle of the street with motorbikes honking at her—#this is what i meant in that post about gd being psychotic and the creation of the universe the reintegrative fusion ignition #this is one of my favorites...the casually incongruous lights going about their way is such a familiar and happy memory #yessssss.....infinity opened inside your body. a wormhole or a new big bang that you expand into. rich and dense and glittering.#in the occasional best case scenarios it allows your soul to blast and flower into its whole size and shape and you know its dimensions.

petersolarz

Untitled © Peter Solarz

boundwithpurple

to have known such exquisite joys and still suffer so much it cannot feel possible to bear - a little life is really vary much tracking this particular real emotional tension in a way not much i have encountered does.

a quick one

need to make a masterlist of actual published books that qualify as kafka rpf because there's way more than you'd think lol

franzkavkas

In German:

Es waren wunderbare Zeiten by Melanie Feiler

A romance novel about Kafka's short-lived relationship with Julie Wohryzek, to whom he was engaged but never married.

Die Herrlichkeit des Lebens by Michael Kumpfmüller

Another romance novel, this time about his relationship with Dora Diamant and his death from tuberculosis. Has a movie adaptation now

Franz heißt der Kanaille oder: Schwarzer Prinz in Steiglitz by Hans-Peter Fischer

A novel that begins with a depiction of the doll incident in Berlin and gradually turns into a salon hosted by Kafka on the subject of literature and racism, among other things

Kafka und der Tote am Seil by Jon Steinhagen (thanks to @amtskind for suggesting this)

The day after his death, Kafka is waken up in the morgue by a large beetle. Together they must solve a series of mysterious murders in Vienna

In English:

Sonata in K by Karen An-hwei Lee

Kafka (or something like him, anyways) is resurrected by Hollywood producers so he can write scripts for them. A Japanese-American woman is assigned to be his translator and caretaker as he navigates life in modern day Los Angeles.

The Lost Pages by Marija Peričić

An alternate universe where Max Brod and Kafka become lifelong enemies and literary rivals in a Salieri/Mozart type situation

The Jackdaw's Last Case by Paul Di Filippo

A satirical short story and alternate universe where Kafka becomes a Batmanesque superhero in the US and has a rivalry with Brod, who has become a beetle-themed Zionist supervillain

#fascinating.#sonata in k sounds interesting tbh.....

vardasvapors

cheated by going into fayde to check on what the fuck is needed to get nuke line. 10 in reaction speed??????????

#disco elysium #..............#genizah.txt

chainofclovers

Put in the tags the completely finished (whether cancelled or wrapped up on its own terms) TV series that has YOUR perfect ending, however you define that

Please don’t include huge spoilers for the specifics of the endings, and it would also make me happy if people don’t use this to talk about the shows whose endings they hated

#does utena count?

ivanaskye

The Lives that Argue for Us: audio, pt. 7

(art by @vardasvapors)

Two chapters for you.

Chapter fourteen, So much simpler than:

Vocaroo is a quick and easy way to share voice messages over the interwebs.

Chapter fifteen, Could never be certain:

Vocaroo is a quick and easy way to share voice messages over the interwebs.

Previously in this series:

Link to Google Drive containing all audio for The Stars that Rise at Dawn, The Birds that Fly at Dusk, and the prequel short story, Stalking and the Glory of God.

The Lives that Argue for Us: part one (prologue, chapters one through three)

The Lives that Argue for Us: part two (chapters four and five)

The Lives that Argue for Us: part three (chapters six and seven)

The Lives that Argue for Us: part four (chapters eight and nine)

The Lives that Argue for Us: part five (chapters ten and eleven)

The Lives that Argue for Us: part six (chapters twelve and thirteen)

#these chapters are great and this is a great art concept for it!#the lives that argue for us #sehhinah #audiobook #i like how iconic hair that distinguishes stick figures has kinda become a pattern….the yellow blot for eliya the stylized #squiggles for tamar the two long braids for yairen

toiich

The Cat Lady (1969), dir. Tom Chomont

#glitch #film

pixel8or

#yum #shine loop #blur #the brightness

diserbillyti

My favourite ever piece of Disabled Research has always been that, when it was noticed that a lot of schizophrenics own cats, some dorks were like, maybe the cats are causing the schizophrenia?? and came to the stunning conclusion that people must be eating cat poo and thus getting a kind of parasite that makes you schizophrenic.

And of course a lot of these studies suck. A lot of them didn't actually think to ask WHEN the schizophrenic acquired the cat, so it's just always presumed that the cat came before the schizophrenia. Most don't really account for the fact that a schizophrenia diagnosis is often a very slow and complex process due to specific regional legalities associated with having "doctors can turn your rights off whenever" disorder. Basically, the same scientific half-truths that surround the phenomenon of "drug-induced schizophrenia," that is the conflation of schizophrenics self-medicating before their formal diagnosis is set and the ambiguity of proving when symptoms onset in relation to that, has been completely replicated for cat-induced schizophrenia lol.

And I love this because it's kind of a perfect demonstration of how the stigma associated with schizophrenia works in medical and scientific settings, right. Everything becomes possible to pathologize, from smoking weed to owning a cat. While the science here is usually pretty bad, "science communication" outlets make it much worse because they run with the most broad dumbass versions of these stories and present them to the public as if there's a clear causal relationship between owning a cat and having schizophrenia, instead of actually reading through the research with an appropriate critical lens and demanding real actual meta-review of obviously flawed studies.

Which is not to say that schizophrenia can't be caused by cats or THC exposure, but that the standard for a concept to become "scientifically true" when dealing with schizophrenia is uh, let's say lower?

Anyway, the reality is that a lot of schizophrenics have cats because being schizophrenic is lonely so many of us want pets. Dogs are too demanding and require a lot of hands-on exposure time, but having an adult cat is like having a gay little roommate that occasionally breaks your shit and vomits in your shoes, so they opt for that. A lot of schizophrenics also have pet fish for similar reasons and the second psychiatrists learn that fact they'll start punching up studies about how drinking fish tank water makes you schizophrenic and how to some of us born of the degenerate brain it's completely irresistable lol. Then science communicators will be posting articles with like stock image white girls superimposed over a fishtank lookin thirsty, titled things like, "COULD FISHWATER BE MAKING YOU CRAZY?" lol

barnsburntdownnow

Full Moon Over Mt Hood Ron Brown; Oregon March 2, 2026

#moons and others #mountains #photography

estrellasrojas

"In the work of the most important contemporary representative of German hermetic poetry, Paul Celan, the experiential content of the hermetic was inverted. His poetry is permeated by the shame of an art in the face of suffering that escapes both experience and sublimation. Celan's poems want to speak of the most extreme horror through silence. Their truth content itself becomes negative. They imitate a language beneath the helpless language of human beings, indeed beneath all organic language: It is that of the dead speaking of stones and stars. The last rudiments of the organic are liquidated; what Benjamin noted in Baudelaire, that his poetry is without aura, comes into its own in Celan's work. The infinite discretion with which his radicalism proceeds compounds his force. The language of the lifeless becomes the last possible comfort for a death that is deprived of all meaning. The passage into the inorganic is to be followed not only in thematic motifs; rather, the trajectory from horror to silence is to be reconstructed in the hermetic works. Distantly analogous to Kafka's treatment of expressionist painting, Celan transposes into linguistic processes the increasing abstraction of landscape, progressively approximating it to the inorganic. By appearing as art, that which insists that it is realistic injects meaning into reality, which such art is pledged to copy without illusion. In the face of reality this is a priori ideological. Today the impossibility of realism is not to be concluded on inner-aesthetic grounds but equally on the basis of the historical constellation of art and reality. Today the primacy of the object and aesthetic realism are almost absolutely opposed to each other, and indeed when measured by the standard of realism: Beckett is more realistic than the socialist realists who counterfeit reality by their very principle. If they took reality seriously enough they would eventually realize what Lukács condemned when during the days of his imprisonment in Romania he is reported to have said that he had finally realized that Kafka was a realist writer.”

—Theodor Adorno, “Paralipomena,” Aesthetic Theory (1970)

#paul celan #theodor adorno