Suspected system, functioning as a system while persuing diagnosis. Traumagenic, no syscourse please I don't care.
They/them collectively, will make alter intros eventually.
Vent heavy blog, beware. ok to reblog anything.
just realised that switching to cursive mid-word and then continuing to write in cursive for the rest of the notes I take that class for no apparent reason is probably a system thing
because this might be confusing i'm here to add additional context
pale yellow is a masker and has identity issues and often "becomes" a lot of different personalities. which is how they unintentionally announced that they were in front. via being jax.
we do not have a jax alter to clarify :)
darkgreen: *sigh* tadc finale soon. our tadc alter just integrated. PRAY we don't split tadc after watching-
CANCEL george rr martin for being directly responsible for 1) a Bowl of Mac and Cheese esque YA book titles 2) insufferable people saying "oh you sweet summer child" in comment sections across the web and 3) "the lion does not concern himself with the opinions of sheep" sigma phonk edits
Trying my hand at this system comic thing, but yeah this us how Hailey joined our system. I'm used to depictions of fictives coming from characters at least someone was interested in but we were pretty Neutral towards Hailey she's just here for some reason, we love her though.
Transcript:
*host🍃*: (Playing stardew valley) "Hailey's pretty mean but she's my wife's sister so I'll make friends with her"
1 year later
*Hailey🌻*: "Hey [Host] I just moved in next door, I'm a supermodel"
I can't fucking this isn't my face?? why is it so much rounder than normal? My lips are thinner than this, and my eyes are a different shape, my forehead is too tall and my skintone is wrong and what even is that nose? Why is it like this?
Add that to the list of "things we never processed as being related to our plurality until years later, it smacked us in the face".
Some non-plural people can keep up with multiple books at once. This is not a sign of plurality on its own. In context, though, it explains a few things we experienced growing up: specifically, the sheer number of books we had to juggle to be able to read at all.
We've each been reading whatever we wanted to read for a long time, and sometimes our tastes in books clashed or contradicted in ways that were very confusing before we figured out that we were plural. There were a lot of moments of "I guess I only like this sometimes" and general frustration at preferences and tolerances shifting unpredictably.
We might bring a book somewhere, only to be unwilling to read it because it seemed boring, poorly-written, or distressing when it was fantastic only an hour beforehand. Other times, we might like the book, but suddenly feel like the past connection and context needed to follow the plot properly was missing. It made deciding what to read both easier and harder. We had plenty of books available to us, but which one would be best to bring along in a given situation, knowing that our feelings around books (and people, and clothes, and activities, and...) might shift while we were out?
Book selection weirdness was one of the many, many things we found ways to work around pre-discovery, all the while wondering why we had to be like this. Reading multiple books at the same time gave us the best shot at one or more books being interesting enough to pick back up and finish. It was easier to find space in a backpack for another book than it was to hunt down one book that could cover all of those "weird moods" of ours.
Nowadays, we like using an e-reader to solve this problem. One book-sized device that's easily portable, doesn't tempt us into other activities like a phone, and holds as many books as we can cram onto it. Your book doesn't work for someone else? They can pick something else without worrying about space constraints.
(If you want a recommendation, we currently use a Kobo Libra. We switched to Kobo when Amazon decided that you couldn't download your purchased ebook files directly anymore, and it's been a solid device.)
Image ID/alt in image, but it's also been duplicated below the cut for those that prefer it.
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A comic as follows:
Well-meaning adult: "You read so many books! I don't know how you do it."
Blue-colored child semiplural, looking up at the adult: "I read like four or five books at once and pick the book to read depending on how I feel!"
Adult, nervous: "I'd just lose track of them all if I did that!"
Child semiplural: "You don't really! You just kind of remember when you open the book every time."
Many years later:
Blue, rethinking their entire life: "…Huh."
Echo: "In retrospect, maybe having different taste in books isn't a new thing."
