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[lilangeldeath]

Why I don't post SP centric content

for those wondering, i have never made any posts abt sp manifesting bc i dont feel im the best person to consult on the topic!!! at least not right now haha.

there are plenty of ppl out there talking abt sp's as its the #1 thing people want to manifest, and is the #1 reason most people get into manifesting in the first place. it was for me too. i have been on my manifestation journey for many years now and it all started with me as a teenager BEGGING the universe for a man bc i was dumb and lonely lol.

you will notice THEEE #1 most requested thing IN THE WORLD for ANYTHING spiritual/magical/witchcraft/manifestation/divination you name it, anything spiritual or esoteric, is always "how to find love" or "how to get my ex back" and therefore the internet is SO oversaturated like a SOPPING SPONGE full of grifters yanking hundreds or even thousands of dollars from lonely people left and right claiming to have the "secrets" on how to get them love, whether in general or a specific lover. its usually mostly a scam. if they dont ask you for money, its probably more legit. there is some legit stuff out there but u have to have a Bullshit-O-meter and don't let your loneliness make a trap for you to fall in to get ripped off by those who want to pray on your desires for love, bc they will. its pathetic. like get a real job lol

i have been thru the process of manifesting 3 different sp's, and while 2 of them were mostly "successful"..... it never was fully successful bc i always ended up not wanting them. it wasn't because my manifestation "went wrong" for all 3, it was because even when it went right, i was like.... okay this is lame NEXT lol. only the first one "went wrong" bc i was very young, new to manifesting, and had VERY low self worth/self esteem and my self concept was basically "im gonna kms if i dont have a boyfriend bc i cant stand to live and be alone" haha drammaaatiiiccccc much

you may experience manifesting anything, not just an sp, and realize you dont want that thing anymore. and yes, it is true, sometimes when you STOP wanting something is when you get it. because you're no longer in the state of "want", you're in the state of "have"

for me, it didn't even matter if they were Best Version sp's, even when i was in the "i have state", when i finally got myself there, i.... just didnt care anymore. it wasnt what i wanted in my reality, and i dont keep things in my reality i dont want.

but that's probably bc i'm a huge misandrist LOLLLL and for me there is no "best version" of any man bc imo they're all disappointing and have st wrong w them, and all the sp "best version" material i personally consumed was just so unrealistic and childish and would never actually work out in a real life adult relationship. that's going to piss off the "it doesnt have to be realistic!" mfs but idc, our universe very clearly has laws of physics and undeniable science behind it, manifesting basically a brainless mona awad Bunny robot is weird imo and idc. like i said, that's just only the type of stuff /i/ ever saw. i have personally myself NEVER seen sp content that didn't remind me of Bunny by Mona Awad. and look what happened to their Bunnies.... "well then you have to believe there's one with nothing wrong w him" yeah i did that... it was still just boring and not what i was looking for. if i ever want to look again and find it, i'll be sure to let u know when, how, where, etc (:

i am well into adulthood, like WELL into it, and i do not fancy what is, in my opinion, childish Disney-like fantasies or Prince Charmings. so like i said, if you ARE looking for sp content, go right ahead, i dont give a fuck what you read or manifest, but i will not be a good source on it bc i'm a very grown woman and in the years and years i've spent manifesting, men are a disappointment and you're genuinely better off without them imo (which means in my opinion, which means you dont have to agree lol)

SO, if you are looking for general theory/philosophy around manifestation, techniques, guidelines etc that CAN be used for ANYTHING, then i'm your girl. but speficially sp content you will not really find here.

because i genuinely dont believe there is an sp for me, because i dont care if i have one lol. i went thru my phase of being a young girl begging for love, needing love etc and it honestly was just sad. then i went into my power phase and realized what i was capable of w manifesting. i know very well i COULD if i wanted to, but for me personally and my individual life it is a waste of time and i'm not interested (:

been very busy lately but will try to post more content soon since i've been away so long, xoxo happy manifesting!!

[lilangeldeath]

edit* i have made a few mentions to sp stuff here and there, what i mean is my blog is not one to find sp tips, affs, help etc and you will have better luck elsewhere bc i am not currently manifesting an sp bc i don't want one lol

[lilangeldeath]

Why I don't post SP centric content

for those wondering, i have never made any posts abt sp manifesting bc i dont feel im the best person to consult on the topic!!! at least not right now haha.

there are plenty of ppl out there talking abt sp's as its the #1 thing people want to manifest, and is the #1 reason most people get into manifesting in the first place. it was for me too. i have been on my manifestation journey for many years now and it all started with me as a teenager BEGGING the universe for a man bc i was dumb and lonely lol.

you will notice THEEE #1 most requested thing IN THE WORLD for ANYTHING spiritual/magical/witchcraft/manifestation/divination you name it, anything spiritual or esoteric, is always "how to find love" or "how to get my ex back" and therefore the internet is SO oversaturated like a SOPPING SPONGE full of grifters yanking hundreds or even thousands of dollars from lonely people left and right claiming to have the "secrets" on how to get them love, whether in general or a specific lover. its usually mostly a scam. if they dont ask you for money, its probably more legit. there is some legit stuff out there but u have to have a Bullshit-O-meter and don't let your loneliness make a trap for you to fall in to get ripped off by those who want to pray on your desires for love, bc they will. its pathetic. like get a real job lol

i have been thru the process of manifesting 3 different sp's, and while 2 of them were mostly "successful"..... it never was fully successful bc i always ended up not wanting them. it wasn't because my manifestation "went wrong" for all 3, it was because even when it went right, i was like.... okay this is lame NEXT lol. only the first one "went wrong" bc i was very young, new to manifesting, and had VERY low self worth/self esteem and my self concept was basically "im gonna kms if i dont have a boyfriend bc i cant stand to live and be alone" haha drammaaatiiiccccc much

you may experience manifesting anything, not just an sp, and realize you dont want that thing anymore. and yes, it is true, sometimes when you STOP wanting something is when you get it. because you're no longer in the state of "want", you're in the state of "have"

for me, it didn't even matter if they were Best Version sp's, even when i was in the "i have state", when i finally got myself there, i.... just didnt care anymore. it wasnt what i wanted in my reality, and i dont keep things in my reality i dont want.

but that's probably bc i'm a huge misandrist LOLLLL and for me there is no "best version" of any man bc imo they're all disappointing and have st wrong w them, and all the sp "best version" material i personally consumed was just so unrealistic and childish and would never actually work out in a real life adult relationship. that's going to piss off the "it doesnt have to be realistic!" mfs but idc, our universe very clearly has laws of physics and undeniable science behind it, manifesting basically a brainless mona awad Bunny robot is weird imo and idc. like i said, that's just only the type of stuff /i/ ever saw. i have personally myself NEVER seen sp content that didn't remind me of Bunny by Mona Awad. and look what happened to their Bunnies.... "well then you have to believe there's one with nothing wrong w him" yeah i did that... it was still just boring and not what i was looking for. if i ever want to look again and find it, i'll be sure to let u know when, how, where, etc (:

i am well into adulthood, like WELL into it, and i do not fancy what is, in my opinion, childish Disney-like fantasies or Prince Charmings. so like i said, if you ARE looking for sp content, go right ahead, i dont give a fuck what you read or manifest, but i will not be a good source on it bc i'm a very grown woman and in the years and years i've spent manifesting, men are a disappointment and you're genuinely better off without them imo (which means in my opinion, which means you dont have to agree lol)

SO, if you are looking for general theory/philosophy around manifestation, techniques, guidelines etc that CAN be used for ANYTHING, then i'm your girl. but speficially sp content you will not really find here.

because i genuinely dont believe there is an sp for me, because i dont care if i have one lol. i went thru my phase of being a young girl begging for love, needing love etc and it honestly was just sad. then i went into my power phase and realized what i was capable of w manifesting. i know very well i COULD if i wanted to, but for me personally and my individual life it is a waste of time and i'm not interested (:

been very busy lately but will try to post more content soon since i've been away so long, xoxo happy manifesting!!

[lilangeldeath]

been very busy! i moved recently and have had a lot going on! sorry for the hiatus and thank u to all my followers & for the notes xoxo

[lilangeldeath]

Mental Diet - use the block button!

This might sound obvious, but some need to hear it more than others. i was someone who needed to hear it for a long time and wouldn't accept it. i got kind of good at it but wasn't going far enough. your mental diet, in my opinion, is very important especially if you're a highly emotional person like myself. not highly emotional as in dramatic, but as in that i feel my feelings very deeply and i used to let them have control of me entirely, which is not a great way to feel. we all have to feel human emotions, and feeling them doesn't derail your manifestation, only when you let your emotions control your assumptions/affirmed knowledge is it a problem to experience natural human feelings.

that being said, the reason i made this post was to remind people that you should actively be tailoring whatever online platforms you use to make sure you're not getting stuck in echo chambers of negative energy. of course we all need to pay attention to the news and what's going on in the world, and those we care about, but don't let your algorithm throw you off your game. if you're trying to manifest an sp and keep liking/engaging with "oh i'll always be alone forever woe is me" content (and therefore sites pushing more of it to you), this is not good for your mental diet. would someone who already has their sp be liking videos about how alone they are or how depressed they are not to have the person they want? no. your mental diet is just like a physical one. sure, it's okay to have some junk food every now and then, we're all human. but you shouldn't spend all day eating candy bars and ice cream.

think about a healthy diet: you need protein, leafy greens, vitamins and minerals, good fats, etc etc etc - it's the same with your mental diet. keep it varied but consistent. just because you need protein in your diet doesn't mean the only food you should eat is steak every meal forever. that's how you get scurvy. eating some carbs isn't going to kill you. it's the same with your mental diet. we cannot live in a sensory deprivation tank where we never see or hear anything in the 3D ever at all. or if that's what you'd manifest, i don't know why. keeping a mental diet isn't about neurotically shutting out ANYTHING that triggers a negative emotion because "oh no my manifestation will go away". the harsh truth is that if your manifestation gets thrown off the rails by the slightest negative emotion, you aren't believing in your manifestation. you aren't in the state of assuming you already have it. you aren't fully knowing it's true in the 4D. since we can't avoid the 3D while we live in human bodies, it's about tailoring your 3D as much as is accessible to you to keep you on track, while also respecting the balance of understanding the 3D is a projection of the 4D and for things to be real in the 3D, they have to be real in the 4D first. even people who have no clue what manifestation is talk about this all the time: don't hang around friends that bring you down, don't put up with a toxic work environment, don't date people who make you feel bad about yourself etc etc - it's the same with the mental diet. don't constantly read depressing stuff all day. don't listen to sad music all day. don't consume media that encourages you to self-deprecate or to have body image issues. it's almost like brainwashing, but consciously for the positive.

literally brainwash yourself (saturate) with content and media that makes you feel safe and secure in your manifestation, or even better, not even really think about it too much at all. don't overly depend on using it to make yourself feel better either. it will end up being another crutch because you're not confronting that you don't actually live in the wish fulfilled if you need any form of crutch. it's a balance. let the movies you watch, music you listen to, subs/sleep tapes you use, spiritual content, manifestation content etc just be regular comforts and interesting hobbies for you. not an end-all-be-all that HAS to keep you on track by being sickeningly positive all day every day, but also vice versa, not what throws you off the rails because you keep engaging with negative content and checking 3D all the time. checking 3D is for another post but it's also bad for your mental diet. checking 3D though in my opinion is like eating a whole box of oreos in one sitting, and refusing to have a mental diet at all is like eating only candy and fast food for your entire life.

even if it just annoys you or puts you in a bad mood, block it. hit the thumbs down. hit "not interested" or "don't recommend" etc etc whatever feature it is on whatever site. don't allow yourself to be swept up in "misery loves company" content that makes you dwell on your OLD STORY! there are SO many content creators out there in every corner of the web who's entire game is keeping you sad, or keeping you hooked on them for answers. negative nancy's that spread extremely depressing and self-deprecating content in general.

this section is a bit of a derail but i can't help myself. this stuff applies to a shitload of the tarot, astrology, and other spiritual creators. and i like those things for myself. but a lot of those people are sus and prey off of sad, worried people, and people with psychosis tbr (bc i've been there when i was young and ik how it works), to make a quick buck or get attention. it's sad. like the types of tarot readers that say EVERY card is about your ex coming back, or your sp coming in, basically any combo they draw they say it means that. i've been reading tarot for 10 years, don't let other people's grifts get to you. this was just another example, but i know the manifestation community (at least to my experience) seems to be split up between those who like other spiritual things and those who really do not. you get what i mean though, hopefully. any type of grifting content where they're preying on your emotional stability and spiritual/personal beliefs. i also really do not like how a lot of manifestation coaches exist that charge hundreds of dollars for "classes" with them. none of us is any more powerful than the other, we are all the creator. we are the creator and we all have the knowledge inside of us already. you don't need to spend hundreds of dollars or even a single dollar learning how to manifest, especially when there's so much out there for free. all you need to do to manifest is to be made aware that this power has existed within you since birth (because of history it has often been a huge lie over millions of people that they don't have this power, another post) and practice applying it. that's it. EIYPO doesn't mean "no one exists except for me", it means we are all the same divine source. and just like our world/universe was created, it was in the 4D awareness and fulfilment first, then burst out into the 3D. that's also for another post.

no matter whether its spiritual content, relationship content, body image content, wealth content, etc etc the point is, keep the old story old, and the new story new.

make pinterest boards, youtube playlists, music playlists, blogs, whatever it is you enjoy - with your mental diet in mind. use the internet to your advantage as a tool of knowledge, affirming, and persisting and not as a crutch, or as a place to dwell on the negative/check 3D all the time. xoxo

[lilangeldeath]

Diary - Manifestation Success! new job

I manifested a new job today! the interview went great and everything i had affirmed happened exactly as planned. quick post bc i'm in the middle of some plans but when i have time i will post a picture of the paper saying i'm hired/have orientation (w the sensitive info blocked out ofc but w the dates and stuff on it).

don't give up! you too can create your life how you want xoxo

[lilangeldeath]

AFFIRMATIONS SERIES: #2

self concept/self power affirmations, a little big longer this time,

and i personally don't always prioritize "i am" or things like that as much bc i think you can literally say whatever you want as long as YOU know what it means in your heart/soul/subconscious) - you have to make it as personalized to you as possible because you hold the power

my reality is whatever i choose it to be, because i said so

i am grateful to wield the power to control my own reality

i am always receiving exactly what i want and need at all times

everything just moves so effortlessly for me

i am able to control and decide my entire life and reality

whatever i desire also desires me, because i said so

my desires chase me down to present themselves to me

life is always showing off for me and showering me with my desires

anything i truly desire instantly comes to me

it is not an effort or work for me to manifest, i create reality easily and with intelligence

i am so incredibly powerful that i even surprise myself sometimes

there is some real truth behind "i can do anything i put my mind to" - my mind is so powerful that as soon as i tap into a desire it's already on it's way to me

i see my desires like a package in the mail, i have placed them in my cart (had desire), purchased it (affirming desire), and it's now shipping in the mail, i know it will come to me because i ordered it, and that's just how easy it is. gifts from the universe are always showering my life as easy as packages on my doorstep, because i am the creator of reality and i choose to live a life full of abundant blessings

i am so blessed to be so incredibly powerful

i love the way my desires manifest into the most beautiful blessings

i am so fulfilled because i am able to easily manifest anything i want and need

i have all the power inside of me and nothing/no one else can ever truly take it from me unless i give it to them, i am always in control of my reality. i am so powerful that i even have the power to give my power away, however i choose it to reorder my reality to my desires

everything immediately clears out of my path as soon as i affirm my desire

blockages and resistance scatter from my affirmed desires like roaches

i can clear any path to my desires with a simple thought

i am immune and impenetrable, i cannot be taken down by insecurities, weaknesses, outside influences and circumstances, or the 3D at all

the 3D has no choice but to conform to exactly what i desire, because i said so

the 3D is my bitch and i call the shots around here

[lilangeldeath]

Manifestation tip #1

"if I can pause you, I can turn you off" - using your commanding power to harness your anger/frustration and start kicking Wavering in the face until it runs away crying

A little storytime. Once I was in the middle of a task i needed to finish before bed, and was trying to hurry it along because I was tired. I began having deep wavering feelings and felt like my entire manifestation was falling off the rails even though the entire day i had been experiencing lots of movement. I, with my inner voice, got frustrated and for some reason the first thing that popped up in my head was imagining the Wavering as it's own character, i'm sure you can tell what that sounds like. it's all very interesting to me, the links between so many religions, always has been.

Anyhow, if it's helpful, give your wavering a name or a "character"/persona, hopefully one you're not fond of. or if that's too extra for you, just try imagining those thoughts in the voice of someone you think is a giant, annoying asshole. it immediately makes you go "wait a damn minute, shut the fuck up!!"

the other thing that popped up in my head when i imagined the Wavering as a sort of asshole character was saying "wait! hold on! let me finish this first. pause. time out. if you're gonna test me, at least test me on a level playing field when i'm not in the middle of something." yes, i am an extreme yapper, even in my own thoughts lmao. and then right after that thought was over, i realized how silly it was.

i said inwardly "if i can pause you, i can turn you off. i can get rid of you." and called my power back to myself. it feels good to laugh at yourself now and then and i think that's really important during all of this. yes, you should want to take your creations seriously and not be lazy and expect good results, but taking them seriously in my opinion also has to have its silly moments. it's just the way life is, really. forrest gump, box of chocolates, you know the deal. sometimes even when you're manifesting really serious stuff, you have to be able to laugh at yourself.

you really can turn the wavering off whenever you feel like it, if you allow yourself to feel the strength and the power of commanding. don't be afraid to command the universe, your subconscious, whatever you want to think it comes from. not in an evil way like "oh i get to control everybody" but in a way that you refuse to let anyone, or anything, including your own ingrained negative beliefs, take your power away from you, the real you, the 4D you/soul

our bodies are just mech suits we use as the creator observing and experiencing itself, experiencing a new method of creation. if you feel drawn to do it, take your wavering by the horns and tell it to shut the fuck up. if it helps, beat the shit out of it mentally. not beating yourself up, that just compounds it. not like "oh i had a negative thought, i'm so bad at this". like "i command all negative thought patterns to leave my subconscious forever. i am a creator/manifester and i am so grateful to wield such power." things like that.

if you work on your self concept (in whatever way that feels best to you) enough that you really feel that power, that fire inside, you will really start locking in. you have to ASSUME the ROLE of being in charge around here (your reality). i'm the type of person that my anger management issues in the past used to make me isolate and be bitter towards others or lash out at them to push them away. now i funnel my anger into a sword that i use to cut off quantum timelines i do not wish to experience. that's how i personally see it.

[lilangeldeath]

Diary #2: A funny/silly manifestation

I had a funny one today, earlier I was watching the most recent episode of Neural Viz (a channel i like on youtube, they're the only ai art i will tolerate in this world and that's for another post) and the song Dirty in Deepton by The Chocolate Chip was cracking my shit up so hard, I was like "I really would love it if they'd post a full version of this song, that would be hilarious. They're definitely gonna post a full version." just casually, not even thinking about manifesting something goofy like that - a few hours later it was posted. just thought that was so fun and silly, i really enjoyed it haha

[lilangeldeath]

since it seems i was confusing:

TLDR - i will make a post like this once and once only. everything i write in my own posts are simply just MY own personal manifestation/creation opinions and i don't expect people to have to agree with me. if this doesn't apply to u it's not about you xoxo

i do not expect anyone to/think anyone should agree with me. i don't care what methods or ways you like to use or what people you like to follow/listen to. that's perfectly fine because you are 100% entitled to your own choices. everyone is allowed to perceive and achieve manifestations in whatever way they personally choose. i have no authority or leadership over what anyone does or thinks, nor do i want to. that means others don't have any over me, either. i can't believe i'm sitting here explaining that people are allowed to have and share different thoughts and opinions on their own blogs but clearly it's already become a problem.

that being said, i may offer my criticisms, usually in the form of informal shit talking, on why i personally do not like or agree with something manifestation related. those are just my opinions. key word opinions. we are all allowed to have our own opinions on manifestation and everything related to it. it's not rocket science.

i am not asking for advice, if i wanted advice i would DM someone for it. i am sharing my journey in the way i choose. if you don't like it, that doesn't hurt my feelings. this is just a personal blog. please just block me if you don't wanna see my posts. this is my personal blog to share my changes and journey in creating my own reality and reflecting it in my life/changing my own life, and i genuinely could not give a rat's ass to hear unsolicited preaching. it's so patronizing when people come across as trying to be holier than thou. you can do whatever you want, and i'm gonna do what i want, because no one tells me what's best for me besides me. also yes, i do like replies, and i don't even mind replies of differing opinions, just not with a "this is so sad that you think like this, i can help you, do my idea instead because i have the real answers and youUuUu don't" type of weird attitude. i fear that should be common sense but clearly it isn't.

i used to reblog other posts when i first made this blog, i'm going to make my own posts now. it is okay if you disagree or dislike my opinions. i'm not here to convert anyone or convince anyone of anything. i'm literally just sharing my thoughts. no one is better than anyone and none of us have any place to lecture each other on how we need to do stuff. you're not my mama. if you don't like what i have to say or share then move on and forget about me, and i'll do the same to you.

for the final time, i am here to share MY personal opinions, which i do not conflate with objective facts, nor do i expect anyone else to. you do not have to listen to me. i'm just here to yap about what i feel like. i'm not here to make this a place of fighting back and forth. it's immature and dysfunctional. news flash, when you're a mature adult you realize that everyone is allowed to have their own manifesting opinions and i do not think i'm better than anyone for having any opinion on it or anything relating to it. it's that simple. thank you. goodnight.

[lilangeldeath]

AFFIRMATIONS SERIES: #1

SELF CONCEPT - simple & easy

i am so beautiful

i am so magnetic

i am alluring

people stop in their tracks when they see me

my face is like an angel's

my beauty captivates people

my beauty draws in love and friendship

i am beautiful inside and out

my intelligence is beautiful

my personality is magnetic

i draw people in with my beauty and intelligence

i have a unique beauty that gets noticed every day

i have a unique beauty that makes me stand out in crowds

i have a natural beauty that cannot be replicated or replaced

my inner and outer beauty makes people remember me and think about me constantly

i am the perfect combination of beauty and brains

my personality impacts peoples lives forever

i am so mesmerizing and enchanting

i enchant people with my mind and beauty

my soul is beautiful

my face reminds people of artwork

everything about me is alluring

my beauty radiates all around me

people enjoy simply being around me because of my beauty and intelligence

[lilangeldeath]

Things I have successfully manifested into 3D

you can believe me or not. i really don't care. i'm in my idgaf era bc when you care too much about what others think, your manifestations will fail because you're giving your power away. that's my personal belief. i will put what came in the 3D and then an example of the desire i persisted in parentheses next to it. these are from various time periods, but all have happened within the past 2-2.5 years once i started actually getting the hang of it all.

four of my friends ("i have mature, caring, loving friends that love me for who i am")

three no contact friends that had drifted out of my life, not from animosity but i missed them (same affirmation + "[insert names] are my close friends and we are always talking" + "[insert names] and i have such a deep connection as friends")

exposing people in my life who were bad for me in some way: trying to use me, manipulate me, lie to me, or just were bad people in the sense that they were toxic and bad for my life because even if they were nice to me, the way they lived their lives were toxic immature messes ("all secrets and lies are instantly exposed to me, no one can hide anything from me, i always know. all manipulators and toxic people are instantly exposed to me for what they are")

job interviews ("every company wants to interview me, they fight over me, they all want me to work for them")

escaping my abusive ex ("i have a safe place to live where my ex cannot bother me any more. i am permanently free of my ex for the rest of my life and now it's my time to shine")

keeping my job when i should have been fired multiple times for attendance, about 5 or 6 times, i had a period of time where i kept repeatedly getting seriously ill, people were passing away, other major life changes and impacts etc it was like the biblical plagues fr and at that time, the company i worked for did not care when those types of things happened to others and would give them the boot in ways that were really messed up ("the people at my job genuinely care about me, want me there, and they know i'm not lying about my life circumstances and will let me get away with whatever i need to in order to heal, rest, and come back to work")

a glow up that changed me from medium pretty/medium noticed to having people in my 3D rave about my beauty and personality ("i am so alluring and beautiful. i am so interesting. i am so magnetic and charismatic. people love looking at me and talking to me. people find me so intriguing and mesmerizing. my beauty sticks in peoples minds like a work of art")

here's my thoughts on how i did this and what i learned about manifestation through the hard and good times:

i really had to dig deep into my self concept and get out of a lack mentality. the lack mentality, fear, and anger led me down a path of things getting worse and worse. my old self was very obsessed with spending a lot of time angry about how hard i was trying both in the 3D and 4D yet things were only getting worse. i had convinced myself back then that there was no point in doing anything other than the absolute bare minimum to stay alive, and that oftentimes there wasn't any point to doing that either.

i feel like i went through a trial by fire, tested again and again to see how strong my faith was, being tested by my own self. i had to find a way to understand my 3D and 4D from my own perspective, as the whole "you cause everything in your 3D, you bring everything upon yourself" was the most annoying mentality i kept seeing when trying to learn about manifestation, as i think it's a chronically online and privileged point of view for out-of-touch people who have never experienced things like systemic poverty, sexism, racism, SA, abuse and more. i was tired of seeing egotistical and narcissistic manifestation content creators go on and on about how everyone is them, and how everything revolves around what they think is the right way to do things. the constant solipsism of victim blaming and lack of empathy for others. there is no right way. that is why i always say something is MY personal belief, not the standard or the rules.

yes i'm aware i keep talking shit on here. and i'm doing so because the vast majority of manifestation content had me so in a tizzy with how hypocritical and contradictory it was that it made me go nuts just trying to follow along. i'm not the type of person that can go along with woowoo shit that makes no logical sense. that's just not me. i am deeply spiritual but also deeply scientific. i believe manifestation, creation, whatever you want to call it, has to do with quantum physics and quantum entanglement, but that's for another post.

you really can create anything you want in your 3D as long as you make it be in a way that makes sense to YOU. for example, i personally choose not to manifest money in ways that seem over the top to me. i grew up in poverty and so affirming things like "i'm so rich, i'm a millionaire, i'm one of the wealthiest people in the world" was so annoying to me because i'm an anti-capitalist and i'd rather spend my time manifesting jobs and opportunities than try to convince myself that i'm a millionaire when i think rich people are inherently evil by nature, because through capitalism the only way you can get rich is by exploiting the less fortunate. that's an example of how i see things.

i don't dislike goddard's work, and i do truly find some of his work very useful and enlightening, i just wish so many people would stop trying to treat him like a cult leader or messiah. he didn't invent manifestation or the law of assumption. these things have been present in every single religion since the beginning of time. it's just new age rebranding of ancient cultures across the world. it's taking a bunch of different cultures and cherry picking them and putting them together to make money. it's like saying L Ron Hubbard invented the idea of reincarnation and that Gerald Gardener invented witchcraft. not saying that everyone who likes/follows the teachings of goddard do this, but from what i've seen in my personal life, many do. the power doesn't come from goddard, it comes from you. and you would have figured out that power anyways even if you never read goddard. we have been manifesting/creating since time immemorial and it's how our species evolved in general. that's my personal opinion. like i said, i find some of goddard's work very helpful and strongly resonates with me, but i think too many newbies get caught up in him like a cult leader and don't truly have any faith in themselves.

my issue in my old self was that i had no faith in myself OR in anyone else. i got tired of doing vaunts, scripting, void state, shifting, writing things down 99 times backwards and forwards, all those other things. it just got annoying and felt like i was being a psycho like jack on the shining writing "all work and no play makes jack a dull boy" over and over. it was just turning into madness instead of me facing what my real problems back then were. and i see a lot of that on here and other sites. you have to be able to get over yourself and grow up. i learned that the hard way, and i'm being harsh in some of what i'm saying to hopefully "break the glass" of illusion on anyone who may be struggling with the same things i did. i am no point of authority or leader of any kind, i just want to share how i think and what worked for me.

i am going to be posting some affirmations and tips that have to do with wavering, persistence, 3D vs 4D etc. and I honestly don't like to use a lot of the buzzwords but what I call these things is very private to me and it will be easier for others to read and understand if i just use the buzzwords. thanks xoxoxo

[lilangeldeath]

everything on my blog before diary #1 represents my old self, some of that stuff i still agree with, some of it i don't. i will be posting original posts from now on xoxoxo

[lilangeldeath]

Diary #1 - my manifestation woes & solutions

honestly sort of making my own thing as far as how i manifest because a lot of people online either take goddard completely off the rails or are just saying a whole lot of nothing, going on for paragraphs but not really saying much. i have changed the way i manifest and the movement is so strong and fast. my old self was not fully understanding and was not fully accepting.

before, i was persisting and affirming but i didn't have as good of a self concept as i thought i did. the reason i wasn't getting manifestations in the way i wanted was because i deep down believed that those things just weren't possible for someone like me, for multiple reasons.

i didn't believe i was the operant power in a real way. i just kept saying it to myself. i kept getting confused as to why people were saying things like that i needed to completely detach from my desire and stop thinking about it. why would i desire or even try to manifest something i don't give a fuck about? that makes no sense.

now i see a different type of detachment, such as the sun. the sun rises every day, as it has my entire life, and everyone else's entire lives, and we don't think twice about it. we just know the sun will come up tomorrow. it's just the way things are, because of the way our very universe is structured. it is the same with detachment and being the operant power. show me where in any religious text it says god or the gods affirmed 10k times that there would be light. it just isn't about robotic repetition until you see results. you have to be in the state deep down instead of worrying about 5,000 methods and "breaking the rules", because there literally are no rules when god is in you.

i let my worries and stresses get the best of me because i truly believed that, no matter how hard i tried or what i did, it just wouldn't happen. or would be instantly ripped away the second i got a taste of my manifestation in the 3D. because that's what had happened my entire life. no matter what method i followed or how long i stayed in the fulfilled state, it just led to psychosis because the manifestation would never show up, or would show up perverted and twisted into an abomination, or would get millimeters away from me and then explode into nothing. like the bunnies in mona awad's novel, bunny. every plan, place, job, goal etc i wanted to achieve just fell apart no matter what i did. i followed literal hundreds of different people's different advice over a decade and it did nothing but make my life worse.

and that was because i was too busy trusting other people about how to manifest and what manifestation even is. i didn't even like the word manifestation because it just reminded me of manifest destiny: a "god given right" to terrorize and ruin millions of innocent lives and turn the earth into a stinking pit. which is coming soon, by the way. there's not much time left. no amount of manifesting is gonna save us from going extinct. sorry. there's not enough of us who actually care to save that.

now the reason i have been getting so much movement and so much more power is because i let go of all my hangups and doubts. i had to go through severe psychosis and almost ruined my entire life because i had to transform, my old self had tried hundreds of belief systems/religions/faiths/practices and nothing was working. that's when i realized the connection between all religions and faiths, that god is within us. sounds simple, goddard says it all the time. but i only understood it on a surface logic level. not on a deep level. because nothing ever worked out for me. i couldn't put full faith into something that i had 0 guarantee would ever work out for me.

i'm just supposed to believe a bunch of random people on the internet, who 99% of the time have no proof and no testimonials, who make a living off this type of content? of course they're going to sell me anything that makes my deep pain, hurt, loss, grief etc feel better.

honestly in my opinion most manifestation advice sounds like either 1. a way to grift people out of money

2. a way to trick people using psychological manipulation into no longer pursuing any of their desires, by tricking them into HAVING to work on themselves so that way when their desires never come, they didn't even care because they worked on their shit poor self esteem enough to give up on all previous desires, and keep doing this in a cycle until they just give up on manifestation entirely because they're so content in themselves they don't care to have any goals for it, a way to trick people into giving up with extra steps.

i want to write more about how i perceive the idea of creation, which i prefer more to manifestation, and how i perceive persisting, affirming, wavering, old story, new story, all of those trendy buzzwords that every creator says something WILDLY different about.

the amount of manifestation content online is so overwhelming and confusing, especially when so many content creators sell law of attraction as law of assumption, or vice versa, or mix them together, or misquote people, or make up whatever they feel like about it and expect other people to be able to get it, when they're really just sort of using word salad with buzzwords in it for views and attention.

i kind of want to create a guide or tips or something, but the truth is just because something works for me doesn't mean that's what will work for you. you are the god, you have to find out what works for you. if you like scripting, revising, sleep tapes, subliminals, whatever it is, doesn't mean other people will or vice versa.

i guess it will mostly be just me journaling about my ideas and sharing it, and if it helps others then that's great, and if it doesn't resonate with you then you don't have to care about it. it really is that simple.

[fairuzfan]

Here's a website where Palestine GoFundMes are vetted and shared that you can send out to people. The url is gazafunds.com

Easy to use and simple. Just share the site whenever someone asks for GFMs for Palestine.

[starmorself]

True acceptance

“true acceptance… i always thought true acceptance was believing i had it instantly in the 3D and the 4D…”

while reading edwards art “though false” post and his pdf for his series (you can find on reddit) it made me realize what true acceptance is really is when it comes to the law.

true acceptance doesn’t mean trying to force yourself into believing that its there in both the 3D and 4D. true acceptance is accepting you have it in the 4D and its okay to not have it in the 3D.

true acceptance is believing that the 3D will change to mirror what you have within because the inner world is the only reality, the only thing that reflects. true acceptance is knowing the outer man can’t manifest. the outer man cant “change the 3D”. it cant make things happen instantly.. it’s accepting your outer man can only experience and be human. true acceptance is knowing your inner world is your only priority to change and everything will come through from what you are, have and experiencing within.

it made me realize that all i really had to do is just accept i have it within without worrying about whenever i have it or not and not and forcing myself to have it within for a change in the 3D.

i always freaked out about the 3D and would always force myself to change it by forcing emotions, forcing methods, forcing feeling, forcing literally ANYTHING because i had really bad circumstances. but that wasnt what i was supposed to do. i was supposed to accept i have it within. surrender to my 4D and just know i have it within. i didnt need to time “when i will get it” or time “when it would come”. everything will come to pass. i didnt need to do xyz, i didnt need to listen to “instant result” subs. i didnt need to do any of it.

“Sure, you can try to control the how and the timing but do you want that responsibility? If you truly don't have to know that, wouldn't that bring you ease?” -ed art

i personally feel like i feel more at ease that know i have it right now in the 4D than having it “instantly”, you could manifest instant results in the 3D but manifestation is more about being within. i feel like the instant results thing makes people put a lot of pressure, expectations and fears on the outer man and the outer world thinking their priority and goal is to manifest for results in the 3D instead of just feeling fulfilled within and knowing you already have it.

whenever i would “try” to manifest instant results, i would always put an extra responsibility on the 3D. i would always try manifesting to change the 3D instead of just being it within. whenever i saw people saying they manifested overnight it always made me jealous in a way. but putting the responsibility of the 3D off my shoulders really put my mind at ease. it really did.

its just how the world works in the law terms. the 3D can only reflect you. if you manifest instant results, it kinda just shows you arent it, you dont have it within and you simply aren’t being it in consciousness. (IMO)

just relax and know you already have it within.

i promise it would better you mentally. you dont have to force to change the 3D out of fear. leave it alone. literally leave it. the 3D doesnt need your fixing, your timing, your fears. it dont need any of that.. it just reflects who you are within. just make it your home within. make it your dwelling place where you just know you have it..ROE. (regardless of anything.)

true acceptance is accepting it will pass. -starmorself🫶🏾

this was only proofread once or maybe twice so idk if i made some mistakes since i skimmed through it. this post inspired by @cleostoohot ROE challenge

[vesora]

change self, then others will follow

“Do not try to change people; they are only messengers telling you who you are. Revalue yourself and they will confirm the change.”

Instead of trying to change everyone around you one by one, change self by assuming that you're only ever in the presence of amazing people who understand you, share your values and you enjoy spending time with them. This will then effectively change everyone in your life to fit your ideals.

[kaportka]

To bring anything into your life, imagine that it’s already there.

— Richard Bach