update: so. ol bipolar disorder got us good. my months-long depression finally ended and with it the desperate attachment of my last hopes and dreams to the vampire tv show. i'm free. i miss it in a lot of ways. but after finding happiness and purpose in life again i've noticed, for whatever reason, there isn't much room for all of that. there is a new love in my life that doesn't hurt so bad.
i stand in judgement of no one. may The Vampire Armand live in our hearts forever and ever, no matter where our paths and/or mood disorders take us. nothing but the best to my mutuals, i am not going to disappear but as you may have noticed, i'll be around a bit less.
maybe one day i will return here more regularly, perhaps in this same form, perhaps in another. what will it be? a Les Mis resurgence? a Ewan McGregor fan blog? how about a whirlwind obsession with an 80's movie about gay teenage boys? anything is popsicle. and i'm ready for all of it.