oh boy

20. australia. medical student

[catheinated]

29.09.2020 💎

went to pick up masks and visors from uni today and realised they somehow built this contraption while i was away from campus. it’s the little happy things that make the tough times worth living.

[stxrryart-deactivated20200823]

To everyone who is still studying despite the pandemic, I’m so fucking proud of you.

To everyone who isn’t studying because, well, we are in the midst of a pandemic and it’s hard to focus, it’s okay.

Studying or coping, either way, I’m so proud of you and keep going.

Love, Ax

[homunculus-argument]

My life has been so much better ever since I traded my impostor syndrome to brilliant conman -syndrome. Do I deserve anything in life? Fuck no! Will I grasp it anyway? Fuck yes!

 My art has never been worth shit, but watch me bullshit my way into art school! I am a horrid goblin, but watch me make these people like me! Am I qualified to do this task? Well I sure have the certificates that say that I am! And how did I get those? Who knows! Not me! I am so good at cheating, I don’t have to break a single rule to do it!

 I am brilliant, fast, and absolutely drunk with power!

[drpathetique]

Finally a concise, accurate description of what I’ve been doing the past ten years

[hergoldaura-deactivated20240509]

concept: a few years from now, you’re living your best life. you have your dream job. you’ve evolved into the greatest version of yourself. you’re happy. you’re content.

[theladyscribe]

when I was younger I didn’t understand why “may you live in interesting times” was considered a curse in ancient greece.

I get it now.

[studyblr]

you can do it ☆

[new-endings]

you know i think a cool thing medicine has done was taking all the diseases/conditions named after the Nazi doctors who discovered them and replacing them with a name more descriptive of the disease.

like ‘ye we appreciate the contribution but also we don’t want to honor your name because frankly, what you did was real shitty’ and i think that’s great. the medical community understands that this stuff matters

some examples: 

DiGeorge syndrome -> 22q11.2 deletion syndrome 

Wegener disease -> granulomatous polyangiitis 

Clara cells -> club cells 

Reiter’s syndrome -> reactive arthritis 

[warm-suggestions]

I hope you can wake up today knowing you are worthy and capable of great things.

[warm-suggestions]

Please remember that it’s okay to not be totally where you want to right now. Progress takes time. It’s a journey. You’ll get there. Cut yourself some slack.

[journalsanctuary]

The wall above my desk is finally decorated and I’m very happy with how it turned out :’))

[hypearies]

[thegoodvybe]

[eintsein]

Energy Management

A human-based organization method

click on images for better resolution; images also available here (link to google drive)

Other posts that may be of interest:

Getting stuff done: How to deal with a lack of motivation

Flexible time-blocking: A more breathable way to get things done

The ABCDE Method

[dxmedstudent]

Non-medics..

I can’t explain to the nonmedics in my life quite how medicine traumatises you in lots of little ways.

I remember, whilst we were comparing stories and discussing our mental health, an ITU friend told me something like ‘normal people are expected to be traumatised by this stuff. We’d expect an accountant or teacher to need therapy after seeing or doing  what we do. But even though we deal with it every day, people assume you are OO and it’s normal to you’.

And I always bring it up, but it’s true.

I try to include the non-medics in my life, and I need their support. I share stories; this patient died, that relative was mean, that delirious man threatened to strangle me. I an open with the people I love, but I still share a safe, anonymused, packaged version of the horror.  

But also, I want to protect them. I hope my mum will never see as much blood as I have. That my dad will never see a crash call where there’s faeculent vomit and faeces everywhere. That my boyfriend will never have to hear the sound of a bereaved parent or know what that’s like. That   everyone I love won’t see the many ‘worst day in my life that I deal with.

Even when we cope, we carry scars.

[studiousmedic]

And actually not only are we expected to cope with these every day traumas, we’re expected to cope with them over and over again within the space of minutes. 9am ward round - patient 1 is told there is absolutely nothing that can be done for them and that they will die from their overwhelming infection. 9:15am - patient 2 is reviewed for their chronic constipation. And so it repeats.

Every other day we can be party to somebody’s ‘worst day in my life’ but we’re expected to wipe the slate completely clean between each patient.

Lots of our traumas are completely invisible to the rest of the world. I’m working in paeds at the moment which is of course a bundle of joy and babies and adorableness but I frequently have to lean on my friends and family and remind them that the horrors that I have seen in this job are not compensated for by the fact that I get to cuddle babies.

People don’t want to imagine what we experience on a day to day basis. And that’s fine, I don’t want people thinking about dead and dying babies on a daily basis but they need to remember that this is our life. We need love and support and to have the right forums to cope with our traumas.

[viinnttaaggee]

none of my assignments are done but I sure am

[nonbinarycore-deactivated202508]

friendly reminder that your body isn't just acceptable, it's good. no matter how it looks or works. it's part of you and you're good.

[smiles-advice]

You decided to keep trying and that is so remarkable to me