little miss no

Writer | Writing Commissions OPEN | Artist | Closet Singer | Procrastinator | Master of Awkwardness | Overthinker | Fluidflux

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[littlemissno3]

Engaged to Misery | Tapas

At the announcement of her engagement to the 47 year old Rayburn, a young princess, Enya, finds herself escaping to the forest where she plans to remain. Will the agents Rayburn sends after his fiance succeed in bringing Enya back to him? Will Rayburn take the throne? Follow Enya on her journey of fleeing her responsibilities and her engagement, and discovering truths to herself she'd never have found out otherwise. Will update every other day :D

Next Tapas Writers Camp started! If you’re interested, please give this a read. I won’t ask for you to subscribe, although it would help greatly. Thanks so much!

[littlemissno3]

Came Out!

Came out to my mom finally! I’m in summer school speech class, and for my second speech, I wanted to talk about gender and sexuality. To establish my credibility, I wanted to tell the class that I was fluidflux and pan. (I was so nervous, though you couldn’t tell, but everyone took it well!). Before I came out to a bunch of strangers, I wanted to come out to my mom, so the night before, I told her. I was only a little nervous at first, but as we kept talking, I started to tear up, my body trembling. My mom joked around, even making an irritating joke about me liking the stove (ugh -_- ), but I know she was just trying to make light of the situation. And, she didn’t have any questions, which tbh, I kinda hate, but whatever. She just nodded her head and told me that she figured since I told her a year ago I was questioning if I might be genderfluid. That time didn’t go as well.

Anyways, I came out to her! And, it was as good as I could have hoped it to be. I didn’t expect much in the first place since she’s a little homophobic and transphobic, but she didn’t show any sign that I disappointed her or anything, which I was worried about.

Now, time to go buy a binder and some masculine looking clothes. Maybe shave one side of my hair XD

[littlemissno3]

Dyed my hair blue, looks green in areas cuz I didn’t bleach it enough. I dyed it 2 times for like 5hrs each!!! Anyways, I also got snakebites. The original jewelry was wayyy too small and was getting covered over by the inside of my lip (it was caving in literally), so I had to change the size. Now, my lip can swell however much it wants, just calm down by Tuesday. I gotta give my speech.

[littlemissno3]

11 Days Til Next Contest

Been writing my ass off for the next Tapas Writers Camp on July 9th. Started the 8th chapter yesterday, and even though I only need 10 chapters to qualify, I need to write as many as I can. Like, if I don’t, my story is just going to get swallowed by the rest of them, meaning I can’t win the competition... I, at least, want to post a chapter every other day. That’s enough for me, but god, I still need to draw the cover, too, but what tho? I have no freaking clue! Not to mention I want to post another story around the same time... which only has 3 chapters written... and I’m in speech class... Fuck me.

[genderqueer-mormon]

favorite genderfluid staples

a list of clothing things that can be androgynous, masculine, or feminine depending on Stuff. I haven’t seen many tips like this so??? my attempt. I’m not super fashion forward but I am an artist soooo idk if I’m reliable or not tbh. Somebody correct me if I’m wrong

-leggings or skinny pants

masculine: baggy dark tshirt, flannel, sneakers

feminine: cute blouse, flats

androgynous: colorful baggy shirt

-flannels

masculine: darker colors, baggier. wear with an undershirt/t-shirt.

feminine: lighter colors, more form-fitting, keep fewer buttons done up. wear with a form-fitting shirt underneath.

androgynous: tbh flannels are generally about as androgynous as clothes come

-boring sneakers

literally sneakers go with anything; all you gotta do is wear clothes and they match whatever gender you feel like

-big sweaters

masculine: by itself or with a collared shirt

feminine: wear a cute form-fitting shirt underneath and something cute on the bottom

androgynous: just don’t wear super gendery pants/shoes and you’re good

-ties

masculine: yes. Nobody will question your masculinity if you’re wearing a tie. Unless it’s a Barbie tie.

feminine: skinnier ties, pastels, a blazer

androgynous: lean more towards feminine styles and colors, maybe pale neutrals, throw something feminine into the outfit for good measure

-scarves

masculine: thicker and more solid/darker colors. Doesn’t do so well with casual outfits.

feminine: lighter fabrics, patterns, pastels or floral designs, just go all out. wear a scarf with literally anything.

androgynous: just don’t shift too much on either extreme. err on the side of masculine.

-beanies

masculine: As Sloppy As Possible

feminine: just make sure you have a little hair showing

androgynous: yeah.

-pretty much all the hats

masculine: just, like, nothing pink. maybe avoid anything that has flowers on it.

feminine: cloches are pretty (those bell-shaped ones). Lighter colors, or just stick a fake flower on the band of a fancier hat.

androgynous: berets, baseball caps, fedoras… like anything tbh

-boots

masculine: baggy pants, thick socks

feminine: skinny pants, skirts, something floral

androgynous: big coat or sweater

[littlemissno3]

Never tried dressing masculine, despite mostly being masculine the past year... Maybe I’ll try some of these. When I get over the constant thought of never ‘looking’ masculine...

[littlemissno3]

Should be working on my speech due in 3 days, but hey! Instead of writing something boring, how about writing a short story? Or working on Yours? Something fun.

[littlemissno3]

I just love this part (another Yours quote)

“"Geez, what am I going to do with you?"

"Haha, love me?" Charli said, giggling. Adelah moved a finger aside and peeked at Charli, who showed her a toothy grin. Charli flinched as Adelah scooched forward and rested her head on Charli's shoulder, a timid hand reaching up to grip Charli's dress. Adelah remained silent, the only sound of her warm breath begging to hug Charli's skin.”

-From Yours on Tapas by Me (littlemissno)

[littlemissno3]

A Yours Quote

“Adelah's eyes sparkled at the many comics glistening before her. She ran to the newest volume of a yaoi manga her and Farrah had been waiting ages for and flipped through its pages. Charli stepped next to her and picked out an action manga, but she couldn't concentrate on its content at all. Her eyes skipped over to the smile plastered on Adelah's lips, the light shining in her eyes as they scanned each page, the slight tint of her cheeks at the racy scenes.

Charli sat on the floor, staring up at Adelah. She giggled to herself before turning away and forcing herself to read the manga she picked out.”

-From Yours on Tapastic by Me

[elidaddyy]

So a lot of you were wondering how I can look so masculine in my cosplay photos.  So here! I did a little “masculine makeup tutorial.” I hope you guys enjoy it! And i hope its helpful!

(by the way, i might make another post like this one with binding tips if you guys requestit! C: )

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[littlemissno3]

Not looking forward to Speech

Started taking Speech during the summer. It’s 8 weeks, but let’s see how long I last. Next week is Speech #1 of 4... Not excited at all.

[littlemissno3]

Confessed... Again.

Told my crush I like her again. Did it through text (shitty, I know) because it’s been ages since we’ve seen each other. We’re both just so busy. My hands started to shake. It took me like an hour to write the message. Felt like I might black out. I could feel a panic attack coming on, just from confessing my feelings for her. I don’t think she likes me back, so I’m prepared for her rejection, but god, how I wish she liked me back. I don’t like people often. I think I’m more afraid of dating her, though, than I am of being rejected. I don’t want to disappoint her.

If for some unknown reason, she did say yes, I can’t help but wonder how she’d react to my gender. If it would confuse her, or if she just doesn’t believe in anything not binary. Would she accept me? I guess I’ll find out... when I feel comfortable enough to tell her.

[littlemissno3]

Reasons I should’ve known I like girls #1

-Mandy Moore singing ‘Only Hope’ in A Walk to Remember

-Princess Jasmine seducing Jafar in Aladdin

-Constantly watching Ciara dance in her music videos every day when I was younger

[littlemissno3]

I miss you, and I’m sorry

Been thinking about my brother on my sperm donor’s side lately. He was 10 years younger than me and severely handicapped--blind, couldn’t speak, couldn’t walk, cerebral palsy, his cells weren’t regenerating (don’t know if this is part of cerebral palsy), had a feeding tube, constantly having seizures, etc. etc. There were so many things wrong with him, I can’t remember them all. Doctors gave him til he was 5 to die.

When my brother was 9, 4 years after he was supposed to die, my sperm donor called my sister to let us know that my brother was in pain from something wrong with one of his organs. They were going to stop giving my brother medicine and give him pain relieving medicine, just let him pass away, so he wouldn’t be in so much pain. Doctors predicted he had a month.

My sperm donor bought a ticket for my sister to go see our brother, but not me. When I called to ask if I could come to say goodbye, too, we talked for a few minutes about it, and then, he hung up (don’t remember the reason why, but I think it was like I’ll see if I can buy a ticket). A second later, my sperm donor texted me, telling me I couldn’t come because ‘I would start a fight with everyone.’ All because I didn’t talk much on the phone. How stupid are you? If you actually knew me, you’d know I don’t talk much normally!

To this day, 3 years later, I can’t forget this. I hadn’t seen my brother in 5 years because my sperm donor and I were on bad terms. (He couldn’t accept the fact he treats me differently from my sister and always has. For instance, he’s never thrown me a bday party but threw my sister one every year, and he gave me $30 while giving my sister $100 for our bdays repeatedly, among other things. See how unfair that is?)

I can never forgive him, and not being able to see my brother is eating me up inside. He would have been 12 now. I did nothing wrong, but I should have just sucked it up and played nice (even tho I already was).

If I had the money, I would have driven the day it takes to get to Florida to see you. I’d do anything for you. I hope you don’t hate me.

I miss you, and I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you.

[littlemissno3]

You’re small.

“"Mmm," Shae sounded. The fingers on his back froze, but only for a second. Shae opened his eyes to see a slight lift to Kylian's lips. He stared at them, wondering if Kylian, too, enjoyed their touch. They're tiny but look so soft...

"You're small."

Shae looked up at Kylian's simple words, his ears burning at the thought of being caught. His eyes met those of Kylian, who had already been watching him.

"Much smaller than me," Kylian said, his hands that now lay on Shae's sides squeezing them to emphasize his point. Shae widened his eyes. His hips throbbed at the touch.”

~Yours by Littlemissno on Tapas

Link: https://tapas.io/series/Yours1