Guys, don't fall in love with the guy who gives you so much attention.
Because he will do it in the beginning, he will seem nice to you, he will make you feel loved and appreciated and you will like him because no guy has ever been so nice to you.
But then he will start not calculating you anymore, even calling you a "whore" or "slut" but don't be mad, huh! it's just a joke! he does it jokingly.
You will try in every way to get him back because you think that the problem is you, right?
Then he'll give you some attention some times but most of the time he'll be with other girls.
You will feel like shit, you will not know how to react and you will decide to break away, because you need to reflect and you will notice that he does not give a shit ..
Then there will be a period of total detachment where you will feel good about yourself but he will still be there, in that melancholy little corner of your mind, consuming you, making you totally apathetic.
Then he will come back, he will come back to give you attention, joke and laugh with you. You'll feel like he always loved you.
You will go to take something and he will be kind, friendly and really sweet to you and you will even offer him something but it will be at that moment that a person will arrive, a person who you didn't tought it's a friend, who will look at him with contempt and disgust and say:
"That is, you first say you don't want to be with her because you called her a toxic waste of humanity and then you get them to offer you something ? You are so fake"
and that's when you will feel a little jolt in your chest, in the center of the rib cage, a small dagger has just pierced your heart and you can't do anything but look at him and wait for him to respond.
You will see him leave and you will remain with the person who opened your eyes.
You will talk to them and you will understand that in reality it was all an illusion, all of that was fake.
He also invited you to his house, you two alone but you have decided that you will not go there anymore
He never loved you, he only used you like his fucking toy , because he didn't love you, but you were ๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐บ๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐ด๐ถ๐ฟ๐น๐ ...
Anger will explode in your throat like a bomb that has just finished counting down and you'll feel like you just want to scream at him at all the contempt you feel towards him but you won't make it because he never gave a damn about you.
You'll go home and feel like nothing and just want to scream and cry till you fall asleep, but no, you promise yourself that from that day only you will exist because you are the most precious thing you have.
It will be hard, you know, but you need this, you need to love your self just like you wanted him so much to love you, you need to take care of yourself because you have not been loved, you have been disappointed so many fucking times but now you have decided that you will love yourself like no one else has before, because you deserve it, you deserve to be happy.
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