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TW 21 - Depressed - Gay - Ana & BED Block, don’t report pls - Not pro anything just here to vent

[livingind34th]

Hey, I’m 21 and I’m from Mexico. I have been struggling with my ed for almost two years, in the beginning it was just restriction, then I tried to recover and started binging like crazy. Recently I relapsed and I started restringing again. I’ve been using tumblr as a way to vent and express what i’m feeling and honestly it helps me a lot so please don’t report this account.

TW FOR ED, DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY

If you’re a minor don’t interact or follow and if you don’t have an ed or you are just starting please get out before it’s too late, it’s not worth it.

I’m pro recovery but I’m just not there yet.

SW: 65kg

CW: 63.3kg

GW1: 60kg

GW2: 55kg

GW3: 50kg

UGW: 45kg

[adventuresinentropy]

the masculine urge to be a gym rat vs the anorexic urge to waste away

[tumbleblindly]

[edmadness3]

Things are so bad, how did I even end up here

[970317980622]

at first i was like mmmm i wanna run away to another country as a joke. but bro, i don’t think it’s a joke anymore.

[mollysfedup]

I can literally fast all day but the minute I eat anything I just can't control myself

[tendernessandhysteria]

No offense but I’m really uncomfortable in my body and I want to rip my skin off

[poison-flower]

*full offense

[livingind34th]

i hate my mom so much, she keeps making me feel like shit about my body and my weight, i’m either too thin or too big, she makes jokes about it and i’ve told her multiple times i feel like shit when sho deos it but she doesn’t care

[alkyd-deactivated20210515]

[thursday]

DAY 15

GIVE IT UP FOR DAY 15

[fnaf-thechoco-deactivated201503]

You can only reblog this 12 times a year

Make the most of that

[jijarugen]

Every month I reblog this and every month I’m baffled that it’s already the 15th.

[pumpkindobby-blog]

I’m scheduling this for every month

[raise-me-up-take-me-up]

IT ONLY APPEARS ON THE FIFTEENTH OF EVRY MONTH

[lisianthoma]

THIS ONLY APPEARS ON 15THS WTF

[1800-sanders-sides]

*slams reblog button*

[booknerd1642-deactivated2021122]

Fuck yeah I get to reblog this

[goresociety-deactivated20241001]

hell yea

[ipcm5]

@adultkiddo IT’S ALREADY THE 15TH!!!

[c-h-pictures]

What

[c-h-pictures]

I refuse to believe

[the-eternal-loading-screen]

why is this the first time i have seen this 

okay im going to queue it >:)

[livingind34th]

Today my mom told me that in her worst times (referring to her weight) she was size x and made a disgusted face. I’m that size now.

And then she asks why i struggle with my body image and have an ed

[dirtychaied]

Why does alcohol have to contain so many calories? It's not fair!

[ur-fav-attention-whore]

Ur not depressed ur just lazy

It's all because of your phone

Have a shower it's not that hard

Just get up stop being lazy

You're too skinny, you're so fat

You aren't eating enough,You're eating too much

It's all in your head just act normal

You're being dramatic

Do you really need therapy, I can tell you doing better

Why don't you tell us stuff anymore

[livingind34th]

i’ve been so tired lately and i really don’t want to get shit done

[thinnamonbuns]

just eating disorder things

feeling like you wanna fucking die after eating a normal meal

thinking after you eat that normal meal “fuck it i may as well”

and then eating everything in sight

hating yourself more after that

restricting more after that

repeat

[tobpdornottobpd]

wow i love having a million little triggers that instantly ruin my fucking mood and make me unable to talk to people who have no fucking clue what they did wrong

fun

[disenchantinqs]

“talk about it”? hahah, no no, I prefer to internalize all my problems so they eat away at me from the inside until I’m unable to function in any way