I'm losing hope.
I've had suicidal thoughts since I was 11. I wanted to die so bad. But I survived. I took my meds, I went to therapy, I did all that, and I got better. I thought I would never live to see my 18th birthday. I'm turning 18 this year. I survived, but what for ?
The world is dying, and nobody is moving. Earth is burning. Animals are dying. Entire species are going extinct. AI is stealing and stealing and polluting and consuming more water than any human being. 1% of mankind owns 50% of the world's wealth. Billionaires are getting richer and richer meanwhile people are dying of malnutrition, of thirst, of cold, of heat. Children are getting raped and killed and trafficked but people are worried about drag queens. Women and racialized people and LGBTQ+ people and anyone who isn't a rich white christian cishet man are losing their rights. Everything is bad, but we prefer to close our eyes and plug our ears and pretend everything's fine.
So yes, I've got no more hope to give. I'm hopeless. You're telling me to choose what I want to do and work for it, but I don't even know if I'll still be alive tomorrow. I don't know if my country won't be the next one at war. I don't know if my rights won't be the next ones to go. I don't know if I won't be the next one to loose my home, my family, my friends, and my life.
So please, I beg you, open your eyes, unplug your ears, and react. Do something, protest, revolt, just get the fuck up. I beg you, because I'm not even 18 yet, and I've already lost all hope in the future. And I am not the only one.