LondonBlossom

Hey, I am just an ordinary person, who fell in love with poetry at an early age. Everybody is welcome here. No hate, no rasism, no sexsim, no homophobia. Be your true self, spread love and kindness This is a safe blog for lbgtq+, mental illnesses and everybody else.

[londonblossom]

How can I tell you that you were the person that healed me but also broke me at the same time?

I tried my best to be a better person for you but you didn't talked to me... Isn't it sad?

You were the knight I didn't asked for

~LondonBlossom

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Why is everything so hard right now? Why do I feel so tried all the time?

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At the end of this chapter I will leave the battlefield with a broken mind, a lost heart and a shattered soul

Knowing I tried everything but the system is constructed to make you like everyone else but I will never be like everyone

Voices I tried to shot out for 2 years are coming back

"we told you that you are nothing and you won't make it!"

The last question on this exam will be

Are you going to write the next chapter or will you close the book?

~LondonBlossom

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Standing here

Looking in the grey sky

And asking

Why always me?

What have I done wrong?

Thanks for welcoming me to this tragedy called life

Can I die?

5 exams next week and a bladder infection

~LondonBlossom

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Let's go all in

I've got nothing to lose

Expect my dream

Let's go

5 exams in 3 days

~LondonBlossom

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And that's it. that's the reason I go now. Because just it could have been don't necessarily mean it would have been better or was meant to be. It's time to draw the line. I set you free from my heart. No more dreaming, you didn't want to talk to me in the first place. So here I am burning my drawing of you. Burning all the poems I wrote about you. I will recreate myself. Like the phoenix I will be reborn in the ash that destroyed me.

I let you go. Peace in my heart.

~LondonBlossom

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Let's get a drink together

You and me

This will help us to start the process of talking about all our problems

Drinks on me

~LondonBlossom

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All the time when I am in your town I try to hide but also be as stricking as possible knowing you could be there

one part of me wants to see you wants you to see me because I hope you would talk to me

but the other part tells me that you don´t like me and that I annoy you because if you would like to talk to me you would have 

Maybe that´s the reason why I run slowly through your town not knowing what I want

Walking through your town: I never saw you and I believe I will never see you again ~LondonBlossom

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Crying on my way home

I walked the way home after the train

It took me nearly 2 hours

All the way I cried

People were looking at me like I would be crazy

I am not sorry anymore for showing my emotions

~LondonBlossom

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Maybe I didn't loved you

Maybe I loved the way

I created you in my head

I broke my own heart

But still... I loved you somehow

~LondonBlossom

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Let us push the what-ifs and could-have-beens aside

Let me see what is left

Only the it-wasn't-meant-to-be and our-overthinking-killed-it

Let's stop dreaming for a second

I am moving on... At least I try to

~LondonBlossom

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And that's the end

Was the only thing she said

While falling down

Knowing there will be nothing left of her after this

Falling and after she will be flying in heaven

~LondonBlossom

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To the boy starring at me yesterday in class...

I sadly have to tell you like the other 5 guys

No, I am sorry

My heart is taken, even if I know that we will never work out

But I can't

It's not fair to pretend that I love you when it's fake

That's not me

I would rather be alone

Than be in this relationship

And one thing

You only love my fake sites

You haven't seen the other ones

And believe me, it would destroy you

Because you are so untouched, you have no mental issues, you would never in any kind of way understand what goes on in my head

Please wait for the one girl that is meant for you

She will be there in time

But this girl isn't me

How to be single and believe me it works... I am single since forever

~LondonBlossom

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Why don't we talk about the fact that everybody is smiling

Even if they die inside

What happend to those people who can show their emotions?

~LondonBlossom

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Standing on top of the roof

lightly showering, raining, storming

I scream

"I loved you!"

And even this time you won't hear it

Because as I shout

The clap of the thunder breaks it

You will never know that I had feelings for you.

~LondonBlossom

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The doctors told my parents

Say goodbye to her... She won't make it.

And here I am

18,5 years later

And I am still breathing

They said I wouldn't make it but I fought for my life. 3 times.

~LondonBlossom

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We were both dancing in a movie. But not the same as I hoped.

Dancing and movies part

~LondonBlossom