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fran (she/they). blame Jason Isaacs' lycra-clad bottom for all of this. main blog: aristofranes | ao3: lorcaswhisky

[lorcaswhisky]

Author chose not to use warnings | Mature | Rayner/Charles Vance there was only one sleeping bag | war crimes | references to past torture | violence | trauma | shame | pre-canon | dubious survival tactics | lost in translation | problematic bi representation | nobody’s hands are clean (in either the moral or the hygienic sense) In the dying months of the Kellerun uprising, the Federation finally dispatches aid. Cut off from their convoy, stranded and alone, a junior Starfleet officer and a Kellerun militia soldier face a war of their own.

Well, that sure was four months. Chapter thirteen! In which everyone handles recent events in a mature and well-adjusted fashion.

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[lorcaswhisky]

Is this a safe space to admit that for this chapter I googled "how do very cold temperatures impact bloodflow" and then decided I knew better than god

[whooooomp]

Your character needs to be put through horrors so great that they don't even know how to ever talk about what happened. Years have passed and they have people they love and trust with their life now, but they're still unable to tell them about everything they've been through.

It's just too much and they've been shaped by it so thoroughly that talking about it in any way would feel like they're peeling their skin off and completely exposing every vulnerable part of themself.

[itshype]

Quick question. When someone asks what age you were in a certain year do you give the age that you were before or after your birthday that year?

Do you give the younger or older of the two ages you were that year?

I give the younger (age before your birthday in a given calendar year)

I give the older (age after your birthday in a given calendar year)

Voting ended onMay 15

[romanceyourdemons]

guy working on an artwork they knew would push them technically: what the hell why do i keep doing this wrong. am i haunted by malevolent spirits and such

[hansooyoungofficial]

(with hearts in my eyes) i hate him. he sucks so bad

[bedupolker]

Not trying to sound like a boomer but going to an art museum for the first time in a minute is wild because like... (visual) art really does hit different when its not on a tiny screen the size of your palm

[chamomile-teabag]

WHAT ARE YALL READING RN you must tell me

[eurasianmagpies]

went to a queer literature collection at the museum of edinburgh and was Not expecting klingon condoms in the hiv/aids section. Seven year shelf life (for vulcans) is my favourite part

[avoicefromthestars]

Star Trek: Discovery Unification III

[thepunkpanther]

RayK’s Bulls shirt — 4.02

[papayajuan2019]

hold me in contempt but hold me

[aphrostiel]

the one with the whales

the way the voyage home has changed my life, not a day goes by that i don't think about it

[lorcaswhisky]

Working on the next couple of chapters and thinking about how (in this fic) Rayner's lack of curiosity is weapon, armour and weakness all in one. His lack of curiosity about any sort of interior life of any Breen soldiers lets him kill them without hesitation, it makes him stronger. His lack of curiosity about the lives of his fellow FKA militants protects them and him (mostly him) from despair when they inevitably die, it keeps him safe. His lack of curiosity is a survival tactic but it also prevents him from seeing the world as it could be (or even really is) and keeps him trapped there. The times (Charles makes) the cracks in that armour widen and Rayner starts letting himself become interested in anything and he starts to consider the depths of Possibility, he gets emotional vertigo and starts lashing out. Marge Simpson potato dot jay pee gee.

[lorcaswhisky]

Rayner has already decided that he will die in this place and it's just a matter of when and how many Breen he can take down with him when he goes. He has accepted it as a fact, it is a fact, it's the only fact that matters. Curiosity has no place here. And then this nerd shows up who's brimming with curiosity, who comes from a world that isn't broken irreparably, who thinks that things can be fixed if he can just understand them well enough. And the nerd asks all these questions, so many questions, and all the answers lead to more questions and all the questions are like peeling off scabs, sometimes they're weirdly satisfying and sometimes they go too quickly and open up the wound again and he hates the nerd so much (it's definitely hate, no need to be curious about what else it might be)

[lorcaswhisky]

I'm having one of those months where I think about writing more than I actually succeed in getting words down on the page, but that's meant I've had time to realise, apropos of the above, that I've got the wrong character instigating a key moment. Hmm.

[ashen-crest]

I can do it. I can write a chapter. I am capable of putting sentences together. I know what a comma is. I am Aware of the Character.

[basingstokemercury]

"character deserved better" (but they were never going to get it that's the stuff great tragedies are made of) vs "character deserved better" (but the writers really blew it)

[partywithponies]

Tragedy and melancholy in art is escapism. Lets you put time and energy into being sad for a bit without thinking about the things making you sad in real life.

[stjohnstarling]

Good drama is about creating a desire in the reader and then teasing them with alternately fulfilling or denying that desire. In this way, it is a lot like a strip tease.

[stjohnstarling]

You have to find a way to make the reader want something and then play with whether you’re going to actually give it to them.

[stjohnstarling]

They love it btw. It makes them beg for more.