Beware Depression

*TRIGGER WARNING* Stay Strong, Life's just shit for the best of us. |21| Anxiety, Depression and Fibromyalgia |

[lost-inside-lilly]

When you find out what you thought would be 40 more years with your dad might only be 2...

He might have not been the best dad in the world but his hearts always in the right places and he definitely deserves more than this ♥️

[lost-inside-lilly]

Every time I blink,

Every time I think,

It's all I see.

The one thing I don't want to see is always there embedded in my mind like my own reminders of how fucked up the world is.

[lost-inside-lilly]

People need to grow up, move on and keep the past as the past.

[lost-inside-lilly]

Stuck inside these four walls with no one to talk to, stuck inside my head and I'm spiraling.

No job to keep me busy and have no reason to move, days flying by with no notice.Going from no food to too much.

So much pain throughout my whole body and mind. Counseling seeming like a great idea but stuck in self quarantine. Don't want to waste NHS time with my issues and no one else seems to care.

All I can do is lie here with my thoughts and it is getting too loud in here.

[boysaresuicidal2]

SURVIVED!

[lost-inside-lilly]

To whoever told me life was fun...

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Go Fuck Yourself You Lying Twat.

[lost-inside-lilly]

"Look after yourself"

I wish it was that simple, maybe it is but I just can't get round to it.

[lost-inside-lilly]

Next time a joyful person stays with you all day and night to make you smile again, just think of what they are hiding away and suffering with just to help you.

Here's a 🎉Thank You🎉 to all of those who suffer more to save everyone else around them

But now I think it's your turn to be saved ❤️

[sadtastical]

[surviving-hero]

[surviving-hero]

… to act like I’m fine…

[lost-inside-lilly]

That's it, I'm done

Christmas I'm cancelling forever, just bad fucking luck, I don't want any part of it.

[lost-inside-lilly]

Just when you think you're at your worst something even more horrible hits you to the ground ten times harder.

[lost-inside-lilly]

Next year if all the plans pan out, I should be moving far away from home into happiness surrounded by those who truly care. this is what keeps me going ❤️

[lost-inside-lilly]

Just wishing I still had people from my past to help me in my future.

[lost-inside-lilly]

Glad to finally have someone who cares for your health and mind more than wealth and sex. I'd rather be broke and happy, just sorry the last one didn't think about that.

[lost-inside-lilly]

Sometimes the happiest person can be dangling by a thread so don't be the person who breaks that last thread.