lina

dont report, just block thx 17 • she/they

[lostinbutterflies]

college dining hall hours make it so easy to avoid eating and skip meals that is way too many people and the lines are way too long so i simply will not!

[lostinbutterflies]

just realized i'm nobody's favorite anything. not my parents' favorite child, not my friends' favorite friend, not my siblings' favorite sibling, just nothing. it's like i'm not even a person anymore, just a poor attempt at an echo of the things people want from me

[lostinbutterflies]

are mothers supposed to make you feel so horribly insecure in your humanity and personhood and ability to love and be loved or is that just mine

[lostinbutterflies]

interpersonal issues? just push everyone away and isolate yourself! problem solved ✅ 😁

[lostinbutterflies]

it appears to me that i am simply not conducive to any kind of interpersonal relationship

[lostinbutterflies]

i've lost 50 lbs and none of it came out of my boobs. wtf. and my old bras dont fit anymore bcs the band size decreased but now the cups r like fucking F like tf i didnt even know they went that far in the alphabet bro -_- why couldn't i have lost boobs instead of ass :(

[lostinbutterflies]

met w a nutritionist today and she didnt comment on my self-reported (mostly accurately low lol) calorie intake but she told me i need more protein and that i was losing too much weight too fast which i think was very cringe of her but she was nice so idk

[lostinbutterflies]

i really want to hurt myself right now just so people will give me a fucking break :/ cant expect me to do shit if im bleeding out, right!

[lostinbutterflies]

i will look like this by at MOST april if it is the last thing i do

[lostinbutterflies]

ive lost like 25 lbs in the past 2 months and i didnt even really notice on my body in the mirror and it makes me sad bcs im already only eating like max 200 cal per day and i feel like shit most of the time and i dont know how to get out of this plateau and i feel like i look the same as before

[lostinbutterflies]

i was hospitalized a bit ago after going a bit ham on my arm but my parents found my hiding spots and took my fresh second pack of wilkinson swords and im legit so sad about it like those are my fave and i cant get them on amazon anymore because my parents search my packages now so i guess i gotta find new ones in person and pay in cash :/

[sweet-suggestions]

Sometimes "getting better" means it hurts less to get up in the morning. Means it is a bit easier to step into the shower. Means small things make you smile again. This is okay. "Getting better" doesn't have to be giant steps. I'm so proud of you, no matter what.

[lostinbutterflies]

pictures of thigh/hip/stomach tattoos are the best kind of thinspo

(i found all of these on pinterest lmao idk man)

[lostinbutterflies]

i just got some wilkinson sword classics and goddamn those fuckers are SHARP like i went twice as deep as normal on accident with slightly less than the normal pressure i use with xacto blades

[lostinbutterflies]

some people daydream about their crush or their dream life <3

i daydream about hitting arteries or veins and absolutely covering my whole body in huge puffy scars and bleeding out in bathtubs and ripping open stitches and everything bright red and finding new ways to disappear </3

[whatismypoint]

Me going about my day normally

My brain: Damn, you should kill yourself

[rottenvomits]

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