THE LOVE I THOUGHT WOULD SAVE ME!

an independant and lowkey multimuse as loved by alex

[lovesaved]

it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there

LOVESAVED - a private, very selective, and low activity study in love or the lack of it, being too stubborn to die, grief and it's many shapes, light as a seed and the darkness the dirt, and the love behind a haunting. multimuse. neglect and a slew of other triggers are present - please follow at your own risk. completely switched to beta editor. iconless for the time being! loved by ALEX ( 21+, she / they, pst )

please read: carrd, dni list

MUSE LIST & TEMP RULES UNDER THE CUT

CURRENT MUSES

ocs: olivia soto* g.rishaverse: harshaw quinn, fedyor kaminsky comics: peter quill, jason todd twilight: bella swan the d.arkest minds: mason marks*, liam stewart*, vida bautista*, jude steele* the magnus archives: jude perry, julia montauk, trevor herbert, emma harvey stranger things: 010/eddie munson, wayne munson film: edward scissorhands, tommy slater (fear street)

* - means muse is a minor as their default verse

RULES

some of my muses are minors so i have a very low tolerance for Weird Shit. I WILL use the block button freely.

be patient? i am an adult with depression, autism, and a full time job. this is my second blog, so sometimes i just won't be around much. i have a tendency to forget things, so if your ask never goes answered, i promise you have done nothing wrong; its down to me and my swiss cheese brain

i take my dni list pretty seriously and i will either hardblock or softblock solo blogs for the listed fandoms and characters without warning.

don't be a fucking freak. you know the vibes. racists, homophobes, transphobes, antisemites, islamaphobes, trump supporters, etc can roll over eat shit and die <3 I am not the least bit friendly to people who rp incest, rape/"""noncon""", and pedophilia. you don't deserve rights or kneecaps and better block my ass

for my comfort this blog is mutuals only and I ask that you softblock or hardblock me if you would like to break mutuals. no hard feelings or anything, I just would rather avoid confusion in the future! 💙

my name is alex (she/they) and I promise I'm a lot friendlier and not as intimidating as these rules probably make me seem! i am 21+, a white nb lesbian, and work as a caregiver in california. i do a lot of art and make jewelry on the side and my dream is to have my own tiny house and that is coming along slowly. i have another blog over @pyreshe

please tag things like suicide and rape

[t4timekeeper]

“this character should kill their abuser” i agree. unfortunately they wouldn’t do that.

[t4timekeeper]

like it feels like “some people can have complex feelings about or even love their abusers” is tough for a lot of people to grasp because they’d rather have some kind of easy karmic retribution toward a character at the hands of their victims. which i sympathize with. but sometimes they just wouldn’t do that, you know?

[lovesaved]

one day i will re-write twilig.ht bc I have thoughts about esm.e and c.arlisle being an unhinged power couple and a backstory for e.sme that makes me insane,

[lovesaved]

elaboration under the cut bc i have cant shut up disease;

esme is in a loveless marriage with a powerful and abusive nobleman in 16th century sicily and her one bright spot is her son who takes after her. but. her son is now getting older and his father is trying to sink his claws in. the idea of her baby turning into someone like her husband fills her with so much dread its hard to breathe and she confesses this to one of her recently widowed friends. said friend is like. lemme put you on-

within the next six months, esme's husband gets "sick" and dies and for the next seven years its just esme and her son and these years are so happy for her.

but then she herself gets sick. it's almost divine retribution, she thinks. she's going to die.

her son, though, he can't bear the thought of losing his mother so soon. he's only seventeen. so he manages to find a "doctor" who promises that he can keep esme from dying in exchange for a small fortune and her son, in his desperation, agrees to the terms. the doctor turns esme into a vampire and vanishes.

the next year is spent with esme learning to manage her "condition" and her son aiding and abetting her as she does. abusive men are going missing in their town and that is completely unrelated to the way that the young nobleman's mother rarely ventures out of the house these days.

one day her son is playing with his friends on a bridge and he doesn't see the ledge. he falls and is dead practically the second he hits the ground. but esme tries and fails to turn him anyway, holding her entire world in her arms as she bites his wrist and tries to seep the venom into his blood as onlookers watch in horror.

she has to flee, of course, and lives with the knowledge she couldn't save her son for the rest of her long and doomed life.

and then one day, there's another dying seventeen year old in front of her. and for a moment, he's not a random teenage boy she's never met who her second husband is trying to save. he's her baby, her sweet little man. and before she knows it, she's turned edward into something like her and carlisle asks her, horrified,

"what have you done?"

[lovesaved]

one day i will re-write twilig.ht bc I have thoughts about esm.e and c.arlisle being an unhinged power couple and a backstory for e.sme that makes me insane,

[mcflymemes]

PROMPTS FROM WICKED *  assorted dialogue from the screenplay, adjust as necessary

it's good to see me, isn't it?

no need to respond. that was rhetorical.

because there has been so much rumor and speculation... innuendo, outuendo... let me set the record straight.

why does wickedness happen?

that's a good question.

like every family, they had their secrets.

one thing led to another, as it so often does.

i'm right here. i always will be.

you want to see something wonderful?

what have you done this time?

now you've made your sister cry.

you see... it couldn't have been easy.

as you can imagine, i have much to attend to.

is it true you were her friend?

you must understand, it was... a long time ago.

remember, it's not goodbye, it's farewell.

they're going to miss me so much.

you know what i believe? strangers are just people i've never met.

what? what are you staring at? do i have something in my teeth?

let's get this over with.

i for one am sorry that you're forced to live with this.

it's my intention to major in sorcery.

perhaps i could help.

offering to help someone you don't know with a skill you don't have. i'm sure everyone's duly impressed.

i could care less what other people think.

i doubt that's true.

i'll miss you.

if anything should happen to her...

you can of course come visit me whenever you want!

how tragically beautiful you are.

i just need to find my room.

this was my chance. my new start.

magic is merely the mind's attempt to wrap itself around the impossible.

i shall tutor you privately.

thank you for covering for me.

how long have you had this talent?

if you can learn to use your powers in the right way...

do you really think this is fair?

i'm just shutting the door.

i saved you some space, by the way.

how did you do it? tell me.

i can keep a secret.

some of us are different.

we cannot escape the past.

the past helps explain our present circumstances.

who is responsible for this?

it's all right. i have no friends.

once you learn to harness your emotions, the sky's the limit.

this is much bigger than just some words on a chalkboard.

is this how you go through life, running amok, nearly trampling anyone in your path?

i guess there's a first time for everything.

were you looking for something? or someone?

i met the rudest person last night.

what do you do for fun around here?

i would do anything for you.

it was nothing. i love helping others.

i'm about to have the happiest night of my life!

i don't follow.

what's in the punch?

i don't feel sorry for you! you're great!

my personal opinion is that you do not have what it takes.

i hope you prove me wrong. i doubt you will.

i can't watch.

it's not like it's your fault.

may i cut in?

that was your very first party?

you tell me a secret.

you really don't have to do that.

i can't wear things like that anyway.

pink goes good with green.

i'm afraid it's out of our hands.

you're not being told the whole story.

somebody's got to do something!

you think i'm really stupid, don't you.

you don't need to be scared of me.

you think i want to be this way?

so i should just keep my mouth shut? is that what you're saying?

you're bleeding.

this is your chance to make good.

i've heard so much about you.

i am changing my name.

don't you cry. you're going to have the wonderfullest time.

something bad is happening to them. they need you.

what did i tell you?

you've known all along... from the moment you met me.

you must trust me.

that's why i need you.

i meant every word about you having a home here.

[sourdough-seal]

most important part of the writing process actually is when you loop a single song on max volume and stare at the word document and imagine the characters doing things for 14 hours. this is known as getting in the zone

[patchedstars]

" uh oh. " muttered to herself when the snowball knocks the other off their feet. hurried steps carry her over, a worried expression on her face. " are you okay ? i didn't mean to throw it that hard, i'm sorry ! "

[lovesaved]

Bella is wheezing slightly from where she's splayed out in the powdery snowbank, one of her legs just visible. She's almost positive she had the wind knocked out of her mostly by the fall, but the snowball to the chest thrown like a winning world series pitch could not have helped matters any.

The teenager manages to groan the words, "It's fine," not fully believing that a little kid had thrown that.

[snowleave]

[lovesaved]

if i ever get the spoons to re-write the tw*light books its over for you

[daigah]

"Nice characters are boring" to YOU. I love characters who no matter what, will always have genuine love for humanity in their heart. Characters who dance and laugh and sing with sincerity. Characters who believe in others, and are willing to extend a helping hand to people when no one gave them the same luxury. Characters who have gone through so much but believe, no matter what, that humanity and life is something beautiful and worth protecting

[gelphienation]

I mean surely we all grew up feeling like there was a wrongness inherently deep inside us that will endure for the rest of our lives

[lovesaved]

also i've finally started on an original livvy story and I might start writing the deuteragonist of said story here...

[hittcr]

@lovesaved // livvy

Eliot set his grocery bag by the door and kicked his boots off with a grunt. "Alright, take this into the kitchen, I'll let you handle the steaks all by yourself this time." He'd be in in a second. With matching aprons for the pair of them.

"That place always makes me hungry." That place being grocery stores and farmer's markets. So many good things just waiting to be made into something special. "What're you thinkin' for sides? Potatoes? I could do a parsnip puree..." But really, it's whatever Livvy wants. This is for her more than anything else. She deserves to show off a little.

[lovesaved]

Livvy's barely waited for his shoes to come off before she's wrapped her arms around his middle in a hug. He's not been gone long, but she can't help it; she misses him whenever he's not within her sight, a lingering sort of anxiety left over from long before she knew him. It's getting better, slowly but surely, but for just a moment she relishes in his presence, the fact he's there.

"Did'ja get me the strawberries?" She asks, bouncing slightly on the balls of her feet. As she tugs Eliot toward the kitchen, she turns her head slightly to inform, "We should do baked potatoes. We can use that fancy sour cream you made,"

[lovesaved]

god brand.i car.lisle really was the perfect person to collab w n.oah k.ahan on y.ou're g.onna go f.ar....

[mcflymemes]

TREASURE PLANET (2002) PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue from the disney film, adjust as necessary

you're gonna rattle the stars.

now you listen to me, [name]. you got the makings of greatness in you, but you got to take the helm and chart your own course.

look at you, glowing like a solar fire.

you're something special, [name].

let me make this as... monosyllabic as possible.

how did i describe them?

i said something rather good this morning before coffee.

there you go. poetry.

i'm an astronomer, not a doctor!

i am a doctor, but i'm not that kind of doctor. i have a doctorate. it's not the same thing. you can't help people with a doctorate.

you just sit there and you're useless.

i won't bore you with my scars.

oh shut up. you know i don't mean a word of it.

i'm starting to see my life pass in front of my eyes.

you have wonderful eyes.

yes, you. i have a question.

is it that your body is too massive for your teeny-tiny head, or is it that your head is too teeny-tiny for your big fat body?

i have one more question.

is this yours?

well, this has been a fun day.

without the map, we're dead.

if we try to leave, we're dead.

what a joke.

at least you taught me something.

that's just what i'm gonna do.

you still don't know how to pick your fights.

are you saying this because it's the right thing, or because you really want to go?

playing games, are we?

thanks for the lift, guys.

don't mention it.

this is the answer to all our problems!

don't you remember? all those stories?

would you please explain how ridiculous this is?

it's totally preposterous! traversing the galaxy alone!

now at last we hear some sense.

you flatter me, [name].

i feel like such a useless weakling.

stay out of trouble!

that was more fun than i ever want to have again.

so... uh. how'd that happen anyway?

i've got two new friends i'd like you to meet.

are your parents around?

i've got some plans to make people see me a little different.

sometimes plans go astray.

you take care now.

this should be a wonderful opportunity for the two of us to get to know one another.

with the greatest possible respect, zip your howling screamer.

we're about to get under way!

i'll follow you.

you know the rules.

maybe your ears don't work so well.

i just don't want to see you throw away your entire future.

i don't know how you manage it.

did you actually aim for that?

what is all this stuff?

wait wait wait! what about the treasure?

i don't want to lose you.

i'll make you proud.

i'm sorry, my memory isn't what it used to be.

i say we kill them all now.

all my life, i've been waiting for an opportunity like this.

[catchymemes]

[lovesaved]

mag.neto: i heard that ch.appel r.oan on the radio the other day, livvy: ... magne.to: you're a very talented people, livvy: thank you?