Malachi Saar

[lovewardeath]

🌷 Welcome! 🌷

Looking for my name? It will be mentioned in the title of my profile. It is more convenient for me to update it there, as I tend to change my name frequently.

I’m 24. My pronouns are He/Him & She/Her. 🇲🇽

Genderqueer & Biromantic.

Leo Sun ♌️, Aquarius Moon ♒️, Taurus Rising ♉️.

I am a practitioner of Witchcraft/Brujeria with a particular focus on Occult, Weather/Elemental, Technology, Divination, Hearth/House, and Cosmic witchcraft.

I am Mexican and Jewish and identify with the term Jewitch. ✡️

My Witchcraft & Divination sideblog: @lwdcraft

My Aesthetic/Reblog sideblog: @lovewardeathh

My Godspouse sideblog: @loverofthelamb

My Hindu sideblog: @khevanya

I currently practice & syncretize with a diverse range of spiritual and philosophical traditions, including General paganism, Jewish & Christian mysticism, and Sanatana Dharma (Hinduism).

Married/Godspoused to Jesus Christ.

Patron Deities: Satan (Lucifer) & Jesus Christ.

I adhere to the religious beliefs of animism, omnitheism, kathenotheism, and panentheism.

My faith is messy & ever-changing, lol. Always look here to see my updated beliefs & practices.

My Belief System

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Hello! 🤍 I read that your deities are Satan and Jesus Christ. How do you personally view Satan and could you share how he is like in your experience? I have a hard time connecting with him in the way that I usually contact deities. It just feels different and I don’t know what to do.

Hello!

I want to state this is my UPG; others vary with their experiences with Satan.

However, for me, Satan is very fatherly and protective. He is strict but not in an aggressive way, rather a "Alright, let's refocus on the goal at hand" way. I personally view him as Baphomet and retain lots of goat imagery, and in another ask I got, which I will paste below, are other ways I see him.

"Satan appears to me in very animalistic forms, particularly a Western dragon. He also appears as a Goat and sometimes even as a humanoid. In my personal experiences, Lucifer and Satan are one in one being. However, He has different facets of himself. When he takes a more animalistic form, I refer to him as Satan. When he is more humanoid, he is referred to as Lucifer and, very rarely, Satan."

I didn't seek him out; if anything, I was terrified of him. Once I found out that he had been with me ever since I was a child, and simply was there to protect me, my fear faded away. As I previously mentioned, he is very protective, and he does not hold back on telling you or anyone things that no one wants to hear. He is brutal but honest, and that really impacted my views on the world and how I perceive myself. He is a lovebug, but he wants the best for those who work with him. He is very goal-oriented and self-improving with me. He made himself known when I had moved to a new city and started exploring my beliefs again.

My best advice is to start with a goal that you want to accomplish and reach out to him about it, and ask if he can help. He is different compared to other deities because he is one of the most feared, but it all comes down to being misunderstood due to centuries of stories that clearly were misinterpreted.

I hope this answers your question, if not, feel free to send another ask or DM me.

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Update On My Path

After a lot of reflection, I’ve decided to step back from actively following the Hellenic path for now. I still deeply honor and respect the Theoi and the beauty of that tradition.

But I’ve realized that I’ve been spiritually overextending myself. To stay grounded and devotional in a healthy way, I need to focus more on my relationship with Christ and my Hindu devotional practice. This doesn’t mean I’m “anti” anything or closing doors forever.

I'll still speak about the Theoi and interact from time to time, but it is not my main focus at this time. I just want to clarify that to whoever comes across my page and doesn't find anything Hellenic related. I don't want to have anyone confused.

Thank you for walking with me as I figure all of this out.

[lovewardeath]

Today is the beginning of Orthodox Lent

This is my first time participating so here are my goals for this year's Lent.

I will be fasting on Wednesdays and Fridays.

I will not be eating beef and pork anymore. (I used too and I want to go back to make it a permanent decision)

I am giving up my beloved spicy chips; hot fries, hot cheetos, sabritones, all of it.

I will be praying everyday as I tend to not do it very much. I want to strive to be consistent with my religious practice so I hope to be in communion with my husband, Jesus and worship my deities everyday.

I want to practice being kinder and being helpful to those around me.

Sending prayers to those who are already doing Lent on the Catholic sect and will be doing Orthodox Lent. May the Lord be with us all.

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Stepping Back From Devotion of Lord Ares

I would like to share that it's been such a beautiful journey to fully embrace Lord Ares and be a devotee of his. He has taught me so much about strength and raw power. But I would also like to share with everyone that I've decided to step back from being a devotee of the Lord Ares. I know it's nobody's business, but I felt that, starting the spring semester of college and other things in my life, I am unable to give 100 percent of myself to being a devotee of his in this moment of time. He has agreed, and he is so loving and understanding. We may rekindle later down the road, but for now, I just wanted to share with everyone who follows me that I am no longer a devotee of Lord Ares. I will still be worshipping him, but not as a devotee. I hope you all understand, and again, at the end of the day, everybody's practice is different, and what may work for one person may not work for the other. Thank you. Khaire!

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My Belief System

Disclaimer: I will always update this if my beliefs change like my pinned post.

When I say God, I’m talking about the Source, the universe, the big divine “everything” that we all exist inside of. That’s the panentheist part of me: God is in everything, and everything is in God, but God is still bigger than the universe.

When I say The Gods, I mean the actual deities from different pantheons like the Hellenic gods I work with most. Hermes, Aphrodite, Ares, etc. They’re real, individual beings with their own personalities and domains. That’s where my kathenotheism comes in but I am not strict about it. I can focus on one god at a time if that’s what my practice calls for, but I’m also comfortable honoring multiple gods at once. I give each deity my full attention when I’m with them but I don't stop believing in the others.

I’m also an omnitheist, which basically means I believe all gods from all pantheons exist. Not in a “they’re all the same god wearing different outfits” way, but in a “the divine expresses itself in many different beings and cultures” way.

And then there’s the polytheism part. I’m not fully hard polytheist (where every god is totally separate), and I’m not fully soft polytheist (where gods from different cultures are literally the same being). I’m somewhere in the middle. For example: I don’t think Aphrodite is Freyja. They’re not the same goddess. But I do think they might be connected like they share similar roles, energies, or archetypes. Maybe they come from the same deeper divine current, but they developed into their own distinct selves. So they’re related, but not identical.

Finally, I’m also an animist, which means I see the world as alive; spirits in nature, ancestors, land, objects with presence, all of that. The divine isn’t just “up there”; it’s woven into everything around us.

[lovewardeath]

When you work satan what lesson you've learn?

Apologies for the late response.

Satan has taught me a multitude of lessons. However, my most one important lesson would be that balance is essential in everything. To indulge but not over indulge and the certainty of under indulging.

Everything in moderation. Balance is essential in order to be grateful to see all sides.

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Mother Mary

(Pictures are mine)

[lovewardeath]

It is okay to feel lost in your spiritual path. You don't have to know every single thing in your practice. Sometimes just doing it makes it more special than following strict rules.

Do not stress yourself out because you don't have it all together. You may think other practioners on Tumblr or wherever else got it all figured out, but in reality, they don't. We are all learning, exploring and engaging with the divine in all sorts of ways.

Even in struggle, we are not alone. We may think we are distant with the Gods because of our struggles, but in all actuality, that's when they are the closest to us.

I say this because I am struggling with my practice, but I have to remind myself that even in darkness, I still take a step forward and might not even be aware that the Gods are right beside me lighting my path.

It is okay to not know everything. It is okay to feel lost, but remember you are not alone and you will always be found.

May the Gods bless you and hold you close!

[lovewardeath]

Any fellow Witches have any advice on choosing your Witch name?

I know this doesn’t apply to every witch & not every witch has a magical name as it’s not a requirement.

I am having such a hard time trying to find a name, I’ve looked at multiple sources that give advice on names, but I would like to hear some personal stories from Witches on how they chose their name. 🩷

[lovewardeath]

Bringing this back! Feel free to share your stories on how you chose your witchy name or even a pagan name!

[lovewardeath]

Hey, wanted to ask if you're aware that the link on your pinned post doesn't work

Oh! Thank you! Yeah, I deleted instagram, I just forgot to remove the link. 🩵

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Does this depiction of satan look similar or atleast pretty close to how he appear to you https://www.tumblr.com/lady-huron/768637490640896000/this-fucking-guy?source=share

Some see him this way, but he does not appear to me like this at all.

[lovewardeath]

So in your practice you syncretize lucifer, samael, and satan?

Yes, I do. But I do understand and respect others that do not syncretize the three. It’s all down to the individual.

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Is there any deity you want to work or worship?

Hello!

I would love to work with Aphrodite again. I still worship her, I just don’t work with her right now. Thanks for you the ask!

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How does satan appear to you? I want to ask the satan you work is he samael or lucifer or completely different entity

Satan appears to me in very animalistic forms, particularly a Western dragon. He also appears as a Goat and sometimes even humanoid. In my personal experiences, Lucifer and Satan are one in one being. However, He has different facets of himself. When he takes a more animalistic form, I refer to him as Satan. When he is more humanoid, he is referred to as Lucifer and very rarely, Satan. Samael is one of his previous Angel names and I do not use that name for him. I refer to him as Satan majority of the time because that is what he called himself when he came to me.

Again, this is my UPG and this is not the truth for everyone else. Thank you for the ask, I hope this answers your question!

[lovewardeath]

When i read your post i thought you're christo pagan not satanist

I am. I am both. I believe that Satan is a real entity. I also believe in Jesus. My practice is incredibly diverse, and I understand it can be confusing to figure out what I actually believe. I just practice what feels right to me.