the inner thoughts of an introvert

rambling, over-sharing, day-dreaming, ranting

[kestalsblog]

There's a certain kind of sadness when a fanfic author you admire doesn't share a particular fandom with you because you just KNOW they'd write a banging story for that one pairing 😭

[lucica-stuff]

I'll do you one worse: when one of your authors deletes one of your favorite fanfics that they wrote 😭

[lucica-stuff]

happy to report that I survived 15 hours ao3-less without a major existential crisis

[lucica-stuff]

Zootopia 2 gave me way too many heart attacks

[lucica-stuff]

I didn't want to raise my hopes too high cause I was afraid that Mollymauk's personality and mannerism wouldn't translate well in animation but oh my god I love what they've done!

[lucica-stuff]

it's only been an hour since the trailer dropped and already there are over 59k views it's nuts!

[lucica-stuff]

so I think I have fallen in love at first glance with Mollymauk which is bad bc I already know my love is doomed 💔

[lucica-stuff]

they started playing "This Is What It Sounds Like" in the little asian restaurant I'm eating at and I swear I literally whipped my head up from my plate when I recognized the beginning notes

edit: now they are playing 'Golden'

if I stay any longer I'll probably hear the entire playlist

edit again: I stayed until they played 'Your Idol'. And they played 'How It's Done' directly after. What a great day

[chaifootsteps]

"Hope we bring in some new fans who won't criticize my plot for being all over the place, not like the stupid idiot fanbase I have now. <3"

[lucica-stuff]

[elaichichais-blog]

I imagine Lan Sizhui appears very poised, like the perfect Lan disciple but only Jingyi knows how fucking weird he really is, like their conversation sometimes go like this-

Lan Sizhui during a night hunt: Wow, do you smell that? Reminds me of home for some reason.

Lan Jingyi: There’s a fucking corpse behind the tree.

Lan Sizhui: this is the best thing I’ve ever eaten. Truly delicious.

Lan Jingyi: it’s a fucking boiled

radish.

Lan Sizhui: Sometimes I wonder if the moon feels lonely, surrounded by so many distant stars yet always shining alone.

Lan Jingyi: Dude, go to fucking sleep.

[lucica-stuff]

he gets the weirdness from his mother

[lucica-stuff]

What if Baby was Rumi's brother?!

[lucica-stuff]

unlikely friendship in a show you wanted to see more of

[lucica-stuff]

ao3 users are fucking unhinged the second it went down we all collectively descended on tumblr like bees swarming from a kicked hive like omg our hive is gone!

[lucica-stuff]

tumblr save us your fiance is having a meltdown again!!!

[knock-knock-its-a-me-mario]

please please please please please come back please i’m begging 😭😭

[lucica-stuff]

now that tumblr and ao3 are dating/married, I feel like we (the users) are their children who run from one parent to the other whenever we need something 😂

[willemdaflutist]

ok but Pinterest is totally the wedding planner right?

[lucica-stuff]

proud parent can't wait to walk their child down the aisle

[lucica-stuff]

'Run Like A Girl' Moment

So a few years back, (I think in 2021) my little brother asked me if I could go with him to meet some influencer who had arranged a Meet&Greet. For context: we live in Austria, like a 20min train ride away from Vienna, where the M&G was. My brother was like 11 (I was 18), and my mom didn't want my brother to go to the city alone, so he begged me to bring him. And I have realized long ago that there is really nothing my sibling could ask of me that I wouldn't do for them, so naturally I said yes.

The M&G was taking place in front of a mall (quite close to my high school, actually) and my brother told me that I didn't need to stay with him for the whole thing bc a friend and his mom were gonna come as well and he could stay with them. And I was like 'Great. I can take a walk around the block, find some GeoCaches nearby'. So I waited until we met up with his friend and mom and waited an extra few minutes for the influencer to arrive, after which I left for my walk.

As a general rule with both my siblings, whenever I bring them to a friend's house or to a party, I always tell them to call me if anything happens or they wanna leave. I don't care when, I don't care where, just call me. That time, I didn't actually expect a call.

I was on my way back and I had planned to take the bus bc I was feeling lazy and the bus takes a really roundabout way back to the mall and I still had time to kill. For further context: I could see the mall from the bus stop, I was just on the other end of a really long street. While I'm waiting, my brother calls me. And I'm thinking 'Cool, he must already be done'. Haha, nope. He calls me to tell me that the influencer was attacked at the M&G, had eggs and trash and whatnot thrown at him. And I could hear the commotion over the phone. I shit not, I felt my blood freeze. I turned towards the mall and saw the police sirens, I could hear them. I didn't even wait to cancel the phone call, I started running. Mind you, it wasn't a long distance, only like 600m, but it felt like a mile in my panic. Normally, the distance would take a 8min walk, I made it there in two.

When I arrived, things seemed to have cooled down, the police had it under control. I found my brother on the edges of the crowd, I was totally out of breath. I was checking him for signs of distress, touching him all over (which I realize was more to reassure myself than him). That little shit, cool as a fucking cucumber, had the audacity to ask me 'Why did you run? I was fine.' I felt like strangling and smothering him in hugs simultaneously.

[lucica-stuff]

I've never been more devastated about a cliffhanger in my life