Build with Words

Stringing words together correctly matters.

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Adulthood

I may still have some growing up to do. I realized this the other day inside my fort.

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Under 30

I literally don’t understand what anyone under 30 is saying anymore. 😐

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Creation Said...

~ Creation said: “I want to hide something from the humans until they are ready for it. It is the realization that they create their own reality.” The eagle said, “Give it to me. I will take it to the moon.” The Creator said, “No. One day they will go there and find it.” The salmon said, “I will bury it on the bottom of the ocean.” The Creator said, “No. They will go there, too.” The…

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Relapse - What It IS.

If you drink after a prolonged period of intended sobriety – that’s called a relapse. It’s not a wee slip. It’s not a stumble. It is what it is. If you’re someone who can do that and still maintain a healthy lifestyle – or not – that’s another story, but let’s call drinking what it is. A person either drinks or not. The amount or frequency is beside the point. Some people learn how to drink…

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Realize

What – besides a choice – can we possibly realize that we haven’t experienced directly?

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FOCUS

Makes perfect sense. What else – besides ourselves – can we control?

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Phone Call

For those of you trying to quit or trying to STAY sober – imagine being bowled over by a strong craving. You’re on the fence about what to do – resist or cave. Before you can decide, the phone rings and it’s someone important who needs you immediately. No time for a drink. What do you think happens to your craving? It certainly doesn’t follow you. So where the fuck does it go? If external…

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Alcohol Didn't Kill Me

Because I chose to quit abusing myself with that shit.

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You

“You have everything you need. Use what I gave you.” ~Universe

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Intake Takes Time

The following is an excerpt from my book, Saturation: A Memoir. The image above is a photo of the adult correctional facility where I spent a week after my ex-husband had me arrested. I don’t remember pulling into the station. The drive downtown seemed to take forever and I eventually fell asleep in the back seat of the cop car. I woke up in a blackout. I don’t remember walking into the…

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Oxford Houses

Oxford Houses are sober living homes located primarily in the Pacific Northwest (PNW). They are regular houses (no sign outside) resting in regular neighborhoods. Nothing about them stands out as a sober living home. They range in niceness from utter crap to extremely nice. I highly recommend checking them out after a stint in treatment to consider it as a stepping stone toward moving back into…

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The 3rd Hermetic Principle

The principle of vibration. “Nothing rests; everything moves; everything vibrates.” —The Kybalion “Yes, believe it or not, the idea of “vibes” has been around a long, long time. The principle of vibration states that all things, both physical matter and spiritual energy, hold a certain vibration. Basic science tells us atoms are in constant motion, as is the universe itself. Even our hearts, as…

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2. The principle of Correspondence.

“As above, so below; as below, so above.” —The Kybalion “We’ve all heard this quote before, but maybe you never knew it was Hermes who first coined it. It’s closely related to the first principle of mentalism and states that what we hold in our thoughts and mind will become our reality. It explains the many planes of existence, including those of lower and higher vibrational frequencies and how…

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The First Hermetic Principle

The principle of mentalism. “The All is Mind; the Universe is Mental.” —The Kybalion “The principle of mentalism states that the universe is akin to a mental projection. The is like manifestation 101, which is all about using your thoughts to shape your reality. For anything to be, a thought must precede it. Through this principle, it’s believed that God is consciousness, or thought, and the…

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SATURATION: A MEMOIR

Now available on Amazon. (Continued from excerpt 12) “Do not talk to me.” I said to Dick as I watched the small slice of freedom I’d just experienced fade behind us. He didn’t stop talking, but he did change the subject. An enormous blanket of heavy wet misery covered me and it was all I could do to stay silent and look out the window while he squawked on and on about his activities over the…

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Yes, I Heard You.

What is the difference between listening and hearing? When others speak, are you patiently (or maybe not so patiently) listening so that you can jump in when it’s your turn or are you actively hearing them? Which one of these do you practice with yourself when your body is trying to communicate to you?

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Prove It.

Do things need to be PROVEN to be true? Think about what it means to PROVE something. It means to offer undeniable evidence. Prove love. How do we prove we love someone? If we can’t does that mean we don’t? If people disagree with something we say or believe in – just because they can (some folks love to pick fights) – does this automatically make them right and us wrong? Why does it matter…

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