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she/they | aroace

[withoutaplease]

Day 15 Prompt: Direct WC: 469 Rating: Gen @hollanovmicrofic

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Shane picks up halfway through the first ring. “Hey,” he says, hushed, soft, like you’d speak in a library. Or at a funeral. “That was quick.”

“No line,” Ilya replies, and if Shane sounds a little subdued, he sounds smothered entirely. Still, it’s an improvement over the state of him half an hour ago, when they pulled into the airport loading zone and all his set-jaw stoicism crumbled like the foundation of chalk it was built on. When goodbye abjectly refused to come out from behind his teeth. When ripping off the band-aid seemed like ripping out his lungs.

Then Shane - practical, logical, surgical Shane - said, “You wanna call me when you get through security?” and that was a near enough goalpost to shoot for. And now, here he is, wrung out empty but in motion. One foot in front of the other.

“What are you doing?” Ilya asks, from his back corner retreat at the gate.

“You know what I’m doing,” Shane says.

“I know,” Ilya agrees. “Tell me anyway.” That there’s well and truly nothing to be said is beside the point right now.

Shane, humouring him, says, “I’m driving, Ilya. What are you doing?”

“Watching people go by,” he says. “How’s traffic?”

“Fine, I guess. It’s moving. How’s peoplewatching?”

“Boring,” Ilya says. “Worst airport in North America.”

Shane laughs quietly. “Two weeks ago it was your favourite.”

“Well life moves fast Shane,” Ilya jokes, serious as a heart attack. “Try to keep up.”

“Yeah, okay,” Shane says, and then they lapse into silence. It doesn’t matter, the connection’s open. Ilya recognizes it’s a flimsy line to cling to but he clings to it, fast, by the skin of his fingernails. Hopes it’s strong enough to hold until the next goalpost comes into view.

For a minute or two they just breathe together. Then Shane, delicately, asks, “How are you doing?”

“Great,” Ilya snarks, “Never better.” He rolls his eyes, and then he hates that he did so, and he mentally takes it back again.

“I thought we were being honest about our feelings,” Shane says.

“Yes, that was the deal. For two weeks at the cottage. Contract’s up, Hollander.”

Shane huffs. “So what, we just go back to -“

“No,” Ilya interrupts, and his voice comes back strong again. “No going back.”

At the gate, the PA crackles to life. “Flight 817 direct to Boston is now boarding Zone A.”

Ilya takes a deep breath and says, “That’s me. I guess it’s goodbye for real now.”

“Not for real,” Shane says, and it sounds like I’ll miss you. It sounds like I love you. “It’s just goodbye for now.”

“So corny,” Ilya replies, and slings his bag over his shoulder. I’ll miss you too. I love you too.

[lexicanons]

Luca staying with Shane and Ilya for a few days while his place is being fumigated. He’s lying in bed when Hollanov’s sex sounds fill his room. Luca sends a video to the team group chat (the one without Shane and Ilya). It’s of him staring blankly into the camera. In the background, you can clearly hear Ilya moaning loudly. Luca is like ‘I can’t listen to Shane suck Ilya’s soul out of his body for the next 2 days. Can I stay with one of you?’ and Troy is like ‘You can come over and listen to me suck Harris’s soul out of his body’ and the other players respond with similar stuff like ‘You’re welcomed to listen to me fuck my wife’ and Luca remembers he’s a hockey player with money and checks into a hotel.

[fractally]

Re Ilya being the one obsessing about marriage I loooooove how their post Tampa dynamic is like

Shane: listen I like you and I think you like me too

Ilya: ok SO WHAT. What are we gonna do. Hold hands?? Kiss on the ice?? Get married?? Have three kids and a vacation home in the Dolomites because I know you’d love the skiing there?? Whisper to each other each night how lucky we are to have found each other? Die hand in hand like the end of the Notebook? Don’t be RIDICULOUS Hollander how could you even think about these things

Shane: I was thinking maybe starting with like you could come over?

[ilyapasta]

Anyway scrimmages are enrichment for post-rivalry married on the Cens hollanov. Don’t talk to Shane right now Luca, he’s thinking about slamming Ilya into the boards and saying “Too slow, eh Rozanov?” Before expertly stealing the puck and scoring with reckless aggression on their poor backup goalie. He’s going to suck on Ilya’s bruise later. Wiebe is wondering if this is at all productive but like. Hollander and Rozanov did take a slight pay-cut.

[ilyapasta]

Ilya in a huddle with Bood and Troy and the d-men like “don’t fuck this up for me we have to take him down” and Troy is smirking like “don’t you mean them?” And Ilya is like “NO. Hollander. We take him down like a hoard of ants. Why are you laughing Barrett? This is not funny. This is not haha. He sees through you and knows all your fears. He is relentless. When he can’t play hockey he reads about it. What was the last book you read, Dykstra?”

[jskakanna]

Harris: Here is a compilation video of stupid Hollanov competitions for your enjoyment ♥️🖤

Videos include, but are not limited to:

Who can tie their sneakers faster (Ilya, by 5 seconds),

Who can do the most of that water bottle toss/flip/land straight up challenge in a row (Shane, by 34. It was intense and a crowd gathered to watch. The Centaurs now try to break the record every so often, but no one can get close)

Who can juggle more (unsuccessful, competition suspended when a rogue juggling ball is tossed too poorly by Shane and breaks Weibe's office window)

Who can make it to the Centaur facilities' staff first to apologize for breaking said window (Ilya. He body checked Shane into a wall mid race.)

Who can pick more apples at Drover Family Orchards in 1 hour (To be replayed next harvest. Anya ate a bee and both Shane and Ilya freaked out.)

Who can fit more Veggie Straws in their mouth at once without choking/throwing up. (Shane, undisputed. It was disgusting and honestly a bit freaky to watch.)

[liminalgayhorror]

Stay Down (Chapter 4)

"Just because you and your boyfriend are on break does not mean you want more from me," Lily said. "You will find a man to be with soon enough. It will probably just be him again." "I'm not going to go back to him, and I'm not going to find another man," Shane said firmly. "I'm a lesbian." "That did not stop you before." Shane took a breath. Lily's words sunk into her skin. She'd known on some level, for a while now, that she didn't like men the way she liked women. And she'd still fought kicking and screaming to try to make it work with Hayden. "Lily, I like you." Lily snorted. She didn't look at her. "You like the way I can make you feel." "Yeah, and I like you."

Shane tries to make it work with her boyfriend. It doesn't. She has a conversation with Lily.

3.8k E. 4/5 Jagged

basically this is myhollanova's episode 5 yay yippee and my @hollanovaweek bingo is almost complete!

[sinmonger]

HEATED RIVALRY | SEASON 1 (2025)

[ily-a]

We were both very stupid, and irresponsible. HEATED RIVALRY (2025-)

[yossyislandd]

racism literally bleeds through the cracks of everything and if you dare to even barely point it out everyone will kill you

[yossyislandd]

racism runs so deeply in people that if you call it out you are calling out them, and instead of sitting down and examining their own racism they lash out at you for being sooo meansies to them. you don't even have to be talking about anyone's racist behavior in particular because it makes racists so uncomfortable they will come forward themselves and act like you're targeting them specifically. it's okay when they do it because they're doing it in the correct way, in the nice way! they don't mean it like that. in fact they're actually being progressive. you're the cruel one for acting like their racist behavior is racist. you're the problem if you're bothered by their comfort racism. you're the bitchy colored person who makes eeeverything about racism when it so clearly isn't. i'm fucking sick of this.

[godlessondheimite]

the mark of a real actor is if they did theater before they hit it big and continue doing theater after. if they didn’t do theater before, then they are hacks and if they stop doing theater after, then they are dilettantes who lucked out. obviously this applies to all actors ever and there are no exceptions.

[godlessondheimite]

daniel radcliffe and barbra striesand kind of being like the jesus and satan exceptions to this

[sweatermuppet]

closing statement from an article about being intersex & the possible connection of gender expression and sexuality in intersex individuals, published in The Gay Liberator, 1970s

[wizardarchetypes]

absolutely incomprehensible baby walked ahead of its parents into my job. babbling babbling babbling at me and I couldn't understand a word. and you must know i speak fluent baby babble so i was like what is up little baby. i can't understand a word you're saying. then its parents walked in fully speaking Swedish. I speak fluent baby but not Swedish you see.

[jewelcoatfish]

hollanov pr friendship is so special to me i need it played out more. i need them to have an absolute blast with confusing people whether they actually like each other. i want them to chirp at each other left and right but then also stand next to each other at the practice rink gossiping with their mouths covered. i want ilya to drop random shane lore he acquired that has everyone confused as to how close they are. i want shane to correct other people on their ilya opinions. i want everyone to wonder why these fuckers decide to sit eat hang out with each other all the time if they always piss the other off and then see them being the absolute safe space for the other and wonder when they got that close. i just want them to have a little fun with being close friends in public yk

[fernsnailz]

my seal drawing

[fidget-sinner]

En Anglais, on ne dit pas “quatre vingt dix neuf”, on dit “ninety nine” qu'on pourrait traduire comme “Hurr durr, regardez mois, j'ai un système de numérotation fonctionnel” et je crois que c'est magnifique.

[thundergrace]

WOW I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS MY FAVORITE TELEVISION SERIES OF ALL TIME (it's not out yet)

[s-leary]

Update: it’s out and it’s exactly as silly and fun as it looks.

[s-leary]

I absolutely love it when an art thief has Storm on the Sea of Galilee in his secret lair. Top tier joke, never gets old.

Also a Judith beheading Holofernes? Show, you had me at hello, you didn’t need to go this hard.

[asherrr3r]

sorry for being(remembers this is my blog and i don’t have to apologize for talking about anything) Extrememly Sexy. And Cool.

[reverendrowdy]

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