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hhhhh siri i'm going on a date monday and i'm scared snd don't want to go bc i want to self sabotage BUT ITS PROBABLY GOOD FOR MY DEVELOPMENT HHHHHHHHH😞😞😞😞😞😞i'm nervous i've never been on a first date. if anyone eho sees this has been on one and has any afvice or. words of wisdom. please share with me because i don't know what i'm doing😞😞
sypnosis: a night out with your best friend caleb ends how it usually does, rubbing your pussies together all night!
content: fem!caleb don’t like don’t read, if you don’t like fem!lads then this isn’t the blog for you. big boob caleb, caleb in a miniskirt, reader wears mini shorts, wlw, best friends caleb and reader, best friends who fuck, best friends who are also possessive of each other, touchy in an uber, oral (r and c receiving), reader likes it messy tbh, big clit fat pussy caleb, they both can’t stfu, scissoring!!, mating press scissoring?, squirting (r and c), lots of fluids, they’re playful w each other, reader loves caleb’s boobs and wants to be suffocated in them (me projecting), mention of round 3 (i had to stop at some point), too many mentions of caleb’s pussy, not proof read, one mention of abuse but no actual abuse just a reference to being marked up
wc: 3.4k
yap: whew… blacked out when i wrote this i’m not even joking, i let the voices take over and i think it turned out okay! i fear i’m gonna be posting fem!lads bc they’re hot? i actually kinda love this one heh.. @luvinbloom @xinghuisknight my pookie biscuits who listened to me speak on this
the music pounded deep in your chest, flashing colored lights occasionally showing glimpses of peoples faces. your pregame shots had dwindled down to a comfortable buzz, warming your insides and curling on the edge of your mind. your small circle was on the edges of the dance floor, loud voices and flushed cheeks making a smile stay permanently on your face.
"c'mon, let's dance!"
caleb called out as she held your hand, purple eyes shining bright as her head tilted toward the crowd. nodding in agreement you let yourself be dragged away, hand tight in your best friends as she pushed past sweaty bodies for you. your eyes trailed down her body, teeth digging into your lip at the way her mini skirt shifted with her movement, flashing you her thin panties that were in your favorite color.
you were also wearing her favorite color against your cunt right now.
caleb came to a stop and spun around, an easy smile on her face as she started dancing, body swaying to the beat. your own body began moving, hips swaying and ass shaking as you let the atmosphere take over, mind emptying in the hot club. you were locked in eye contact with caleb, her tall frame blocking out anything that wasn't her.
"you havin fun honey?" she yelled over the music, body inching close so she could hear you. unsure if you were warm from the bodies around you or if it was the proximity to her, you laughed softly, hands coming to rest on her hips. tugging her closer, you were chest to chest, the plush of her breasts pushing up as you squished together.
"'course i am, i always have fun when you're around." you tease, guiding her hips in time with yours. you both followed into what was comfortable, many nights grinding against each other in clubs or at parties making you move like clockwork. your eyes flickered around before a smirk curled on your lips, "i think someone else is enjoying the view."
caleb didn't even follow your gaze, simply laughing at your words, breath fanning across your face. "maaaybe they're lookin at you and your sexy thighs in your tiny little shorts." to make her point her hand moves down the curve of your ass to your thighs, copping a squeeze on the way there.
laughing, your gaze drops to her chest. she wore a dark patterned mesh long sleeve, showing off her entire upper body except for her boobs held by a simple dark purple bra— and even then her boobs were definitely making an appearance tonight. "maaaybe they're lookin at your fat tits."
a pinch to your ass made you yelp and glare at her, she didn't look apologetic at all. "you like these fat tits." caleb teased, voice dropping as her lips brushed against the cusp of your ear. you couldn't even refute her statement because it was true, you spent half your time buried in her chest with a smile on your face.
"yeah and you like that i like 'em."
caleb shrugs, standing back to her full height and spinning around. her ass presses against you, hips pushing back to grind against your front. pushing your hips against her ass your hand comes to rest on her stomach, palm warm against the scratchy material.
getting lost in the music the world outside your bubble disappears, the only thing you can feel and see is your best friend. time passes, minutes or an hour you don't know, all you do know is that your buzz is wearing off and your feet are getting tired.
"m'ready to head out baby." you speak into caleb's ear, meeting her soft gaze. she nods and leads you back toward your friends, hugs and squeals of goodbye filling the circle before you're feeling the cool breeze of the night.
the music still thumps behind you as you wipe at your chest, a light sheen of sweat covering the skin. "this way honey." caleb helps you into an uber, saying brief greetings before the car is on the way. music filters loud enough through the speakers that you have to stay close to caleb.
"i need a shower so baaad."
"take one with me? i wanna lay down and you take forever."
you pout up at her, nose scrunching when she pinches your warm cheek. "i don't take forever." you grumble, pushing your head into her damp neck. her hand feels up your thigh, big palm squeezing the fat and kneading it like a cat.
"sure you don't." she sighs out when your lips start planting wet kisses against her neck. crossing her legs she tilts her head to give you more space, hand wandering to the inside of your thigh and caressing the sensitive skin.
this was your normal, kissing your best friend —drunk or sober— and feeling each other up like you were a couple. not wanting to get freaky with someone else near, she keeps her hand there, simply letting you mouth at her neck as much as you wanted.
your head started to dip lower when the car came to a stop, a lazy smirk on your lips when you get out and head up to caleb's apartment. you cling to each other the whole way there, teasing touches and soft words that make tingles go down your spine.
after kicking your shoes off you beeline straight for her room, fingers already working to take off your accessories. caleb comes in a minute later, bare feet padding on the floor and hands full of snacks and water.
your stomach growls at the sight earning you a laugh from caleb. she's sat on the bed, skirt spread open and showing off her panties. climbing on the bed, your knees come on either side of her, straddling her lap and wrapping your arms around her neck. her hands come to your ass, grabbing handfuls as she smirks up at you.
"thought you wanted to shower?"
kissing up her neck, you catch her shiny lips in a deep kiss, feeling her moan vibrate into your mouth. her tongue slips into your mouth, the warm muscle massaging against yours. the kiss turns messy, spit dribbling from your lips and the sound of your tongue against hers fills the room.
her hands guide you to move, rocking your clothed cunt against her lap making you moan into her. using your weight you lean forward, forcing her to lay flat on the bed. she looked beautiful like this, eyes dazed and her hair fanned out around her.
"these are pissing me off." she said as she tugged at your clothes— quite literally your top and shorts. smacking a kiss on her lips you sit up, pulling your thin top over your head, boobs falling once they're free as her fingers worked at your shorts.
"i shouldn't be the only one."
caleb laughed softly at your pout, clumsily taking her shirt off as you adjusted to shimmy out of your shorts. her fingers played with the edge of your panties, snapping the band against you softly.
"fuck, i love when you wear my color against this cute pussy."
clenching around nothing, you grind softly against her abdomen, more of a mindless movement to ease the tension in your clit. her eyes darkened as she watched, hands tugging you up her body to hover over her face.
"c'mere honey, sit on my face."
not even hesitating you lowered, head titled down to watch as she kissed up your cunt. caleb's tongue licked fat stripes up the flimsy material, suckling softly to get a taste of your arousal. her fingers wrapped around the edge before you heard a loud riiiip, the cool air she blew against your cunt making you shiver.
"caleb! you have got to stop ripping my fucking panties!" you whined out, glaring at her when you felt her smile against you. she placed kisses against your clit before bringing it into her mouth and sucking it like one of her lemon candies.
"sorry honey," she mumbled against your wet folds, dipping her tongue through them. "i'll make it up to you." she pushed her face up, tongue slipping into your hole and nose pushing against your clit.
moaning softly, your hips rocked gently against her, clenching around her tongue as she thrusted it in and out. reaching a hand back, you pushed her bra down, mouth watering as her boobs spilled out and jiggled lightly with her movements.
you grabbed onto the fat, rolling her pretty nipple between your fingers. caleb moaned against you, a wet smack resounding between you as she pulled away, head dropping against the bed as you continued to play with her nipples.
"m'sensitive honey- shit."
smirking down at her you lifted yourself off of her face, moving down her body and licking at her wet face. "wanna play with you too~" you said, lips pressing kisses against her skin as you made your way down her body.
your lips brushed against her nipple, lips catching onto the perked bud before you sucked it into your mouth. caleb whimpered, fingers lacing into your hair as you mouthed at her tits. pulling off with a loud pop you continued your descent, sucking dark marks along her skin.
her skirt was flipped up, panties in your favorite color darkened by her arousal. "mmm~ i love when you make a mess for me cay." you said as you slipped her out of her bottoms, spreading her legs wide to stare at her twitching pussy.
you dove in, tongue slipping out and jaw hung open to greedily gulp at her wetness. her fingers tightened around your hair, back arching as you sloppily made out with her cunt, wads of spit dripping from your mouth and down her ass.
"fuckin love this fat pussy even more." spitting against her cunt, you sucked her big clit harshly, head shaking side to side. caleb moaned loudly, hips bucking up making you follow the movement before letting go.
you could feel your arousal dripping down your pussy as you watched her clit fall back into place, fat hood twitching. burying your face in her puffy folds one last time, for fun of it, tongue gathering up the fresh slick dribbling out.
her hand fell from your hair as you pulled away, moving to lean over her panting body. "ride this pussy, wanna feel you against me." she said as you got into position, one leg over hers in the classic scissoring pose. she hooked a leg around your ass, holding you up as you lowered down.
both of you moaned out at the contact, the heat of your pussies making your mind hazy. all you could think about was her, how wet she felt against you, how her fat clit rubbed against yours in that delicious way that had your toes curling.
holding the leg in front of you, your hips rocked a steady pace against hers, whimpering at the loud smacks resonating from your cunts. "fuck this pussy— yeah, juust like that, you love f-feeling my—shit—fat pussy on you honey?"
you moan through a laugh at her words, hand coming to rest against her toned stomach. "fuuuck, you know i do baby. love how loud she gets for me- fuels my ego." you bat your eyes at your best friend, leaking more at her smirk.
caleb grabs her tits, holding the bouncing fat as her fingers tweak her darkened nipples. "that's my job." you tease, circling your hips just right to get her to whine out for you.
"y'seem busy, just helping you out~"
caleb's hips start bucking up, helping grind her pussy against yours. sweat drips down your bodies, thighs tensing and ass jiggling from your thrusts. "well then, keep playing with 'em for me yeah?" you smile sweetly at her, watching as she does what you said.
the bed creaks softly with your thrusts, not that you notice. your thoughts are only about you and caleb, how close you both were to cumming. you loved when nights out ended up like this, both of you playing with each others cunt until you were so overstimulated it almost hurt to breathe.
that familiar coil twisted up in your gut, hips pushing harder against her cunt. fuck she felt so good, how her clit caught juust right against yours, wet smacks ringing in your ears from how wet you both were. "g'nna cum baby, want my cum all over you?" you panted out.
caleb's head nodded frantically, hips working harder to bring you both closer. "yeah, yeah, wanna feel you stick to me- w'nna feel you twitch against me." her words have you moaning out, a few more grinds of your hips and your head is thrown back, a moan of her name leaving your mouth.
caleb moans with you, fingers pinching hard at her nipples as she feels your clit twitch violenty against hers, sending her into her own orgasm. "honey, please- fuck." she can't even form a sentence as you keep moving against her, working you both through your highs.
panting, your hips slow their rocking as you take a look at your best friend. her face was flushed red, lips red from her teeth and her nipples so hard from her pulling.
bracing against her and the bed you slowly lift off of her, your moans mixing at the thick, creamy strands that stick your pussies together. her pussy was painted in your mixed release, white smeared allll around her fat clit and dripping down her puffy folds.
"my turn~" caleb says as she sits up, holding you close and flipping your positions. you tilt your head up to kiss her, hand resting against her neck as you spread your legs. caleb settles between them before she pushes them back, folding them to your chest and exposing your pretty cunt to her greedy stare.
she resists taking a lick and mounts you, slotting her fat pussy against yours like a missing puzzle piece. your clit twitches against hers at her heat and she begins grinding, your pussies spreading wide in this position.
caleb leans over you, big boobs swinging right in your face as she stimulates you. hands gripping her ass, your lips catch onto a nipple, cheeks hollowing as you suck it deep into your warm mouth.
she moans loudly, pressing your thighs further down with her weight. the angle makes your pussies smack against each other louder, holes leaking and trying to grab onto each other. the feeling of her puffy lips spread apart has you whining against her nipple, eyes looking up at her.
"fuck- can't look at me like that honey, makes me wanna fuck you until you can't walk, until all you know is my name and how my pussy makes you feel."
releasing her nipple, you pant against the other one. "do it. w'nna mould our pussies together forever~ never wanna leave here." your weird words makes her laugh hotly, teeth coming to bite at your calf.
"you have such a way with words." she teases, watching your tongue flick around her swinging nipple like a kitten with a toy. you have that glint in your eyes, the one that tells her she's going to spend all night right here and wake up later with stiff muscles.
"y'love it!"
your lips finally wrap around her nipple and your head bobs as you suck, heavy lidded eyes boring into hers. she feels you move, feels your hips tilt until your cunts are matched up perfectly, the obnoxious smacking of your folds against hers sending shivers down her spine.
your hands find purchase on her back, nails digging into the shifting muscles and dragging down the expanse of it. "shit! g'nna walk outta here bruised up and people are g'nna think something bad."
her words have you giggling around the bud before you let go, nails digging into her back again. "nooo~ they're gonna know how good you fuck me." your smile has her clenching around nothing, cursing under her breath.
"you like that— like when people know it was you who fucked me so good i can't walk, you who makes my throat sore from screaming your name alll night long."
your words were true. caleb loved when your legs trembled slightly as you walked around the mall, when peoples eyebrows furrowed at her possessive grip on your waist and her smug smirk when you rasped out your words.
"buuuut i'm the same. i like when people see the marks i left on you, the bites you show off so proudly for everyone to see, how you let me boss you around."
you loved when caleb walked around with your marks on display for the whole world to see. loved the way men's gazes averted once they saw the hickeys littering her chest, loved when that flash of recognition crossed their face as she did exactly what you told her to.
caleb was moaning loudly, hips canting hard and fast, so fast you could feel your mixed arousal smearing around your thighs and dripping down your ass.
white hot pleasure twisted tight inside of you, bubbling up and causing your stomach to tighten. "fuck baby, you're gonna make me cum. pleaseplease make me cum?" your begging has her cooing, hand coming to push away sweaty strands of hair stuck to your face.
"g'ahead honey, soak me, make me a fucking mess."
your nails dig into her neck as you pull her closer, leaning up so you can capture her lips in a messy kiss. the band in your stomach snaps, a guttural moan tearing through your throat as your pussy gushes against her.
the feeling of your wetness shooting against her has caleb moaning into your mouth, tongue licking away the strand of spit from your lips and she looks down. your squirt splashes against her, wet droplets reaching your mound from her thrusts.
"fucking- god honey-"
your fingers play with her sore nipple sends her over the edge, the sound of her own cunt gushing out has you meaning along with her. hips still rocking, your clit twitches in overstimulation, small spurts of squirt pushing out as her forehead drops onto yours.
you can hear the drip, drip of your squirts leak down your bodies and onto the bed. caleb whimpers into your mouth and you cup her face, pulling back to wipe at the sweat beading down her face. legs trembling, you go boneless once she moves off of you, her own thighs quivering.
caleb flops onto the bed next to you and you cling to her, propped onto your side and fingers pushing her hair away from her neck. "fuck." is all she says as her gaze sluggishly makes its way to you, pupils blown wide and eyes glazed over. you doubt you look any better.
"yeah, fuck. my pussy is so sticky."
caleb laughs, glancing down at your mound so you spread your legs for her. your cunt was painted in white and slicked wet, clit twitching uncontrollably and folds so puffy.
"thought you wanted that?" she questions and quirks an eyebrow at you. you giggle and roll onto her body, legs straddling her thigh and head coming to her chest.
"m'not complaining! though she's starting to miss you~"
"you insatiable freak."
caleb props her head against the pillows and looks down at you. you had your head squished —literally squished— between her tits, hands holding the fat around your head. little happy, content noises vibrated into her skin makes her shake her head as she reached for her phone.
"m'gonna order some food, you want anything in particular?"
your head started to pull away when she spoke again, "and don't say my pussy."
it was silent before you pushed your head back between her tits. caleb brought a hand to your hip as they began to rock against her thigh. she clicked through the delivery app and moved on autopilot to order, clicking the phone off once it went through.
"round three in the shower?"
for someone who couldn't feel their legs a minute ago you shot up, hand pulling caleb to follow you into the bathroom. "wanna ride your face!" you quipped and she felt wetness drip down her leg. it was going to be a long night.
did u make it to the end?? the way i wanted to keep this going but i literally had to stop at some point since there’s no plot…
You repeat Zayne's words like a mantra in your head, doing everything you can to hold off your orgasm as he fucks you. Every muscle in your body is tense, the pleasure crawling up your spine. You want it so bad, so bad that tears sting your eyes.
Fuck it. You'll beg forgiveness later.
But the second you stop holding back, ready to let your orgasm hit you, he pulls out.
"Zayne!" You gasp in shock. He's panting above you, chiseled body covered in a sheen of sweat that makes your mouth water.
"I told you to hold it." He reprimands quietly. You pout, orgasm ebbing away. Great. Now you'll get a punishment and you didn't even get to cum.
"But Zayne I-I didn't cum! Please p-put it back in, I'll be good I promise!" Your pleas fall on deaf ears, though he takes a moment to tenderly wipe the tears from your face, kissing you softly before sitting back up.
"You enjoy your punishments too much." Zayne notes, maneuvering your legs so they're pressed together, setting both of your ankles on one of his shoulders.
His cock, still slick, slowly pushes in between your thighs, just above your aching pussy. He gasps in pleasure at the sensation, while your jaw drops in shock.
It doesn't take long for him to cum, already so worked up from earlier. Most of it lands on your stomach, the sensation making you whimper once more.
"Zayne..." You whisper, nearly trembling with how bad you need it. He hums, leaning down to kiss you as he parts your legs, deft fingers finding your clit.
໒꒰՞ ܸ. .ܸ՞𑁬｡ 沈星回 : you're not allowed to be insecure in front of xavier.
synopsis.⠀you're struggling with low self-esteem and you're too shy to talk to xavier about it. he won't let you dwell in those feelings any longer.
tags.⠀sfw, hurt/comfort, implied king of darknight!xavier (couldn't help myself sorry), gn!reader, descriptions of reader being insecure, self-doubt, all that stuff.
Don’t you just walk around endlessly! Come on, you have things to do!
You nag yourself. Over and over, till the drops of sweat slowly forming on your forehead seemingly teleport to your cheeks. You don’t like that feeling. Hell, sweating because of this doesn’t help your … current situation, either!
That elegant mirror right in front of you looks as if it’s looping your reflection around yourself, and it only amplifies that dreadful feeling. You don’t like looking at yourself—nor do you like the feeling of knowing someone is looking at you. Especially someone you admire and hold on a high pedestal.
It makes you feel small, in a way.
Some eyes see beyond the sweat clinging to your skin, beyond how poorly you believe your face synergy to be. Those eyes always hide themselves, and you can’t tell what they actually see just by simply staring into their depths. So, in other words, you’re just drowning in confusion and self-doubt.
And you’re sure as hell you can’t tell what Xavier is thinking when he lets those wide orbs of his land on you. He always keeps that stoic look on his profile. Which is why, usually, you’re better off waiting for his actions to speak for him rather than his glances.
Or… er, words.
Forget your face. Not even your gown would stay still. Those elegant robes that he specifically acquired, just for you, feel like grisly rags when they glue themselves to your skin. You huff, trying to adjust it to the best of your abilities. But, yet again, it just doesn’t even sit as it should.
“…Fuck,” you gruff to yourself, refusing to make eye contact with your reflection in the mirror. It’s just that humiliating. You don’t want to hold him up, knowing he’s waiting for you on the other side of the door. Regardless, you keep the nasty words you have to yourself.
But you do have a feeling he’ll somehow hear. He’s unpredictable. Whatever, you think to yourself that worrying about him is useless—it'll be more of a disgrace to show up looking how you are right now.
It’s not a matter of whether he will be disappointed in you or not. It does play a small part in it all, but it’s not the entire reason. You’re the one who doesn’t feel comfortable in your own skin. Explaining it to him would be rather difficult, and you’re not even sure you want to in the first place.
“Starlight, is everything okay?”
This is how you lose track of time.
A simple knock at the door, your boyfriend’s voice cuts through, and it feels like he just stabbed your heart. You remain silent for a while, trying to decide on what to say, before another knock follows right after.
You can only hear his muffled voice from then on, disconnecting yourself from reality as much as you can. This is a disaster, and you don’t have time to panic.
But he never pushes too much. He never enters without your permission. However, your unresponsive state is worrying him. He calls out your name one last time before you manage to snap back to reality, fists clenched, awkwardly tapping the wooden floorboard with your foot.
You manage to call out. “Sorry! Sorry, I’m… I’m fine, Xavier.” But you’re not. You’re not at all. You can’t bear looking at yourself; you can’t handle staring at your own reflection or even seeing a single strand of hair in your field of vision. It’s disgusting.
What are you supposed to do?
“You’re not.” His flat tone makes your heart sink. You do notice his worries, and you know you can’t lie to him. It’s sweet, but you’re still drowning in that pessimistic feeling. “May I come in? Please.”
The way he says it somehow reorders your brain. You haven’t even noticed the small drops gathering on your waterline before they start to gracefully fall—you tremble slightly.
Regardless, you decide to open the door. Slowly. It creaks under your carefulness, but so do you. You refuse to look Xavier in the eyes.
He doesn’t like that.
In response, his soft fingers brush against your shoulder, rubbing it faintly, comforting you as he sees fit. Once he hears your frail little sobs, he falters for a moment, letting out a soft breath himself.
In a swift motion, he steps in front of you and kneels down a little to look at you. You still move your face away from his.
That won’t do.
“What’s wrong?” Xavier asks, practically mewling before you. His voice is so soft, so comforting, that you can’t help the tears at all.
You still don’t respond. You’re afraid, frail, and vulnerable in front of him. It’s even worse. Now he has to deal with all your snot.
He notices that. Of course he does. Hiding something from him is quite literally impossible when he’s solely focusing his attention only on you—which is, at this point, all the time. That makes you even more insecure. If he’s staring so much, there’s no doubt he’d find all of your imperfections on—
“Talk to me, please.” His voice breaks your trail of thought again.
You sniffle, finally looking at him. You just can’t help it. Likewise, you’re unable to resist him.
“I just—” a broken sob leaves your throat, scoffing at yourself shortly after. “I just don’t think I’m… I think I’m disgusting. I can't—I can’t look at myself in the mirror without… getting this gut-wrenching feeling. I’m sorry,”
Xavier, in response, gently grabs your cheeks with both hands. He runs his thumb over your soaked skin, caressing you, quietly anchoring you to him. His thin eyebrows furrow, tilting his head to the side in utter confusion. How could you even think of that?
“Who said this to you?”
“…Me?”
Silence breaks in right between you two. Xavier stands up, your face still resting in his hands, before he starts taking off his gloves. You’re confused as to why he’s doing such a … small thing, but you’re too unstable to actually bring it up.
He then plasters his bare hands back to your skin, his forehead following shortly after to connect to yours. He stays there for a moment, rocking you left and right gently. You don’t understand anything. Why’s he doing this to you right now? Can he even look at you without gagging?
But you notice that even as he’s doing this motion, his eyes are fixated on you. His eyes are glued to yours. Still, for some reason, he’s looking at you and he won’t break that contact for even a mere moment.
“Xav–Xavier, what…”
“Don’t say such treacherous things about yourself again.” He cuts you off. “To what end would you utter such a thing? Did the Revenants render you sightless?”
You open your mouth briefly, then close it, looking away as if you’re stuck again. You can’t reply to him. You can’t explain it.
Still, though, you try. “N–No. Just… look.” You break contact with his forehead, taking a few steps back so he’d be able to see the full picture of you.
“I don’t understand.”
You scoff. “Don’t you see? Look, the gown isn’t even sitting on me properly. And, and, my… face is so uneven.” You begin pointing at yourself as you explain, but Xavier just stands there, wide-eyed and confused.
“I don’t.”
You want to protest, but he cuts you off again.
“I’m not letting you go anywhere looking like that. This is only for my eyes to see. I assure you, you are far from the labels you bestow upon yourself.”
Xavier takes a step forward to close off the distance you created. His steps are as royal as ever, as eloquent as you remember. How could you ever challenge that? How are you able to step on equal footing with him like this?
“I… I,”
“Not a word. Please.” He cuts right through you, kneeling back down before getting a hold of your hand—planting a soft, lingering kiss on it. “If you still don’t believe me,”
“Shall I demonstrate my full devotion to you?”
a/n.⠀hehe i'm back ... who gaf. requested by 🔭 anon, tysm! i didn't proofread this one properly so it might be choppy. i'm sorry about that,, next few posts will be on @hrmits cause papa needs to experiment with smut. thank you sm for reading ><
“I almost got it,” Xavier grits out, wiping his damp forehead with the back of his hand.
You hum in faint acknowledgement, not truly registering what he said. Not as you track the beads of water dripping down his hairline to the side of his neck. Not with the way his damp t-shirt clings to his pecs and abs. Not after hearing him groan and a stray thought considers what other sounds he’s capable of.
Lost in thought, it catches you off guard when Xavier steps away from the shower head and turns fully towards you.
“All done,” he says breathlessly before picking up his water bottle and downing the entire thing in a matter of seconds.
Instead of responding, you continue to ogle at him, at first fixated on his adam's apple that bobs up-and-down with each gulp, and then the slow drag of his thumb along his bottom lip when a stray droplet spills out.
He chuckles lowly, still unaware of your intense gaze. “Guess I was thirsty.”
“Yeah, me too,” you mumble, still staring at his lips.
Xavier furrows his brows. “Are you okay? Is there something on my face?”
You snap your eyes up to meet his slightly confused ones.
“What? Oh, I'm, erm,” you clear your throat, “fine. So are you.”
Your eyes widen and his brows raise.
“N-no, not like that! I meant there’s nothing on your face. I wasn't calling you fine. Not that you’re ugly. You're quite the opposite, actually—”
Your mouth snaps shut when he takes a step forward. There's a slight flush dusting his cheeks, one you don't recall seeing earlier. As you continue staring, completely entranced, he lets his eyes drift as well. They graze across your face, landing on your lips for a long moment, before looking down.
“Is that for me?”
You follow his line of sight to the tightly clenched towel in your hand and nod, not trusting yourself to respond out loud again.
Xavier takes another step and grabs the towel from you, fingertips brushing yours.
You watch him slowly drag the cloth down his arms and around his neck. You startle when he leans in to gently wipe your forehead, his breath tickling your cheek.
“Looks like you got wet, too.”
ginny's note (5/29/26): debating whether to expand on this or not
who would read this fic: sylus and mc are in fortnite. after rhey jump out of the battle bus, mc's hanglider doesnt work so shes climging to sylus! he gets HARD and so what happens? they fuck mid air as they hang glide down to the ground
cw: slight mention of reader thinking about dying, mention of twin flame (no. not that kind of twin.)
a/n: hehe thank you for this request peachieee!! this one isn't the best and i'm sorry, i struggled with him hhhh😵💫😵💫
to have caleb xia’s attention on you was only comparable to having a god elevate you to dietyhood, his love showing you that you were the only person that mattered, only for him to strip you of your newfound godhood and toss you back where you came from- below him.
you’d always been slow to open up to people, especially in a romantic context. it took a lot of trust for you to feel comfortable enough showing vulnerability.
caleb managed to weasel his way through your strongest barriers, settling against your skin like sunshine on the first warm day after a long winter.
you connected with him on past traumas, learning about how he lost his childhood friend and grandmother in an accident. it sounded like he lost a part of himself that day as well.
you could relate, in a way, to feeling like you lost a sense of yourself. naively, you thought maybe you and caleb could help each other find yourselves again.
you’d dated briefly, but long enough for feelings of love to make themselves known in your chest. they made you panic at first, your insticts telling you to run before caleb decided you weren’t the one for him, but you stayed. you stayed and loved him, despite your fears of vulnerability and abandonment, because you knew caleb was better than that.
you were wrong. caleb was not better than that.
he ghosted you. you didn’t even know it was possible to ghost someone you were in a relationship with, but caleb sure managed to do it.
you’d thought something happened to him at first, but calls to hospitals and local jails told you he wasn’t in danger, just… ignoring you.
shame and embarrassment clawed at your skin for days, how could you be so stupid? of course you weren’t good enough for someone like caleb. he was perfect and you were… incapable of love and showing the raw emotions that caleb loved.
but were you truly incapable of love? for once in your life, you had pushed through your fears and worries and truly, deeply loved someone, only to be abandoned by them.
abandoned by your person, your twin flame- something you’d never believed in before meeting him.
everything you did for the days after he ghosted you was tragic. you cried. you never used to cry before caleb.
you cried in the shower, on your walk to work, even in the gym. maybe if you lay on the floor somewhere he would come back to you. isn’t that what they tell young kids to do when they get lost? ‘stand still, it’s easier for someone to find you if you’re not moving’.
your town seemed hollower now, somehow, than it had when you were with caleb. maybe it was because he wasn’t there laughing loudly in your favorite shop with you, or holding your hand while jaywalking across a busy street.
it was strange, because you’d had an entire life before caleb and it never felt empty before. maybe it wasn’t the lack of caleb, but the lack of dignity and hope you had left. caleb had taken it when he left.
you didn’t wonder much about why he left, just that he did leave. your friends told you that they’d spotted caleb out and kissing the same girl he told you he lost when his house exploded. had that been a lie after all?
caleb knew how hard it had been for you to open up to him and show him your heart, bloody and scarred as it was, and yet he left you stranded without so much as a goodbye note.
you’d seen him with her yourself a week later. you made eye contact and everything, walking towards him with questions burning your tongue, only for him to use his evol on you, pinning your feet to the pavement while he walked her in the opposite direction.
he forced you to stay away from him. in that moment you realized that it didn’t matter what you did.
you texted and called caleb, sent him multiple letters, even saw him in person, and yet none of it effected him. he no longer cared about you because she was in the picture.
it made you wonder what would get his attention. if you were in the hospital, would he come visit you? if you died, would he come to your funeral? would he visit your grave or would he let the flowers on your headstone wither and your corpse decompose before he even remembered your name?
the look in caleb’s eyes made you sure of one thing- you could die and it would make absolutely no difference in his life.
it was only when you realized this that you were able to transition from feeling miserable and embarrassed to anger and acceptance.
fuck caleb xia, you didn't need him. you got through your entire life without him, and you could get through the rest of it just fine with him in the rear view.
you've been keeping up with the absolute shit that dj has been spinning?? twitches eye
i speak as if i'm going but if they touch look here before arlington d1 (the one girlfie is going to) there will be a hate crime against a certain group of seven korean men (for legal reasons this is a JOKE i am not hate criming anyone)
WAIT. IS THIS ABOUT YHE VEGAS THING I REBLOGGED???
DUDE LMFAO??😭😭😭😭out of all fics omfg this is killing me. yeah i deleted all my smut fics but i've been slowly reuploading them, that one hasn't crossed my desk yet LMFFAO u can still read it here though
this is actually fryinf me like out of ALL my fics it's the thong one?😭😭😭
Jacks just showed up in the flying carriage! I missed him. "Careful pet." Not sure what it says about me that a Fate who has a kiss worth dying for makes me weak in the knees haha
omfggg i hated him in that scene but lowkey..... 🤤HE WAS HOT ICL! and the pet line kinda did smth to me and i aint even into that stuff😹
no fr like it's suicide to be attracted to someone who can kill you with a kiss buuuut... if its jacks..😵💫😵💫☺️
