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An Inconvenient Truther part 1

When does a hunch, an inner knowingness or a mere possibility become the truth? Relatively speaking, of course—there are no absolutes in these parts. What do you need to do to prove it is so? At what point does a belief transform into the “truth”? With the analysis of factual evidence that leads to an inevitable conclusion. This exercise is not fantasy. It’s not the inability to differentiate fact from fiction. Discerning the truth takes the unwillingness to be snowed or succumb to peer pressure, the inclination to question everything, and the ability to apply intellectual rigor when those questions arise. Here is my personal guide to truthing.

First, you need to have a thesis—a clear statement of what it is you are trying to prove. Nothing complex, but something that could be answered with a yes or no. Most of these inquiries have to do with sex and relationships so the answers can be inherently murky and nuanced—life is rarely straightforward. However, try to clarify what it is you are asking, and you’ll find some answers become crystal clear.

You need to present the following things:

1) The preponderance of evidence. The body of evidence can include photos, videos, interviews, verbal and written comments to each other and about each other, and eyewitnesses to their behavior and words.

2) Logical deduction. Logic is essentially a process of elimination—once other explanations are ruled out, what’s left?

3) Something I am going to call the bell in the bell tower, which is THE declarative statement or THE photographic evidence that can’t be explained away. That one thing that is exactly as it appears to be, ringing out clear as day, but for one reason or another needs to be raised on high to be heard and believed.

4) Context. The timeline is paramount here. Is the evidence before fame or after fame? Is it cryptic or unguarded? Is it straight from the horse’s mouth or second hand? Is it a recollection or recorded in real time? Were there other people in the room? Who are the observers? Are there incentives for it to be untruthful, exaggerated or hidden?

5) Buttresses. You cannot build a cathedral with spires alone. Even the most glorious bell tower needs support. Is it an anomaly? The evidence leading up to it and the evidence following should lend validity. It has to make sense within the big picture. The buttresses are the supporting structure surrounding the bell tower. The bell will make everything else make sense, once properly heard.

6) Weights and Measures. Everything goes on the scales: evidence for and evidence against. But not everything has equal weight. Everything directly from the boys—to one another, unguarded, before fame, and with the smallest and most intimate audience gets weighted the heaviest. The further away from themselves, firsthand trusted parties, and the more reason to obfuscate, the less the weight. Everything is measured, like for like. Is it part of a pattern? Does it flow as a natural progression? Or is there a stark difference to be noted?

7) Cross references. If the bell in the bell tower is a verbal or written declaration, it then should be corroborated with photographic evidence. The same rule applies in reverse. Do the words match the actions?

8) Counter weights. All alternative explanations have to have their due. “Nope” isn’t good enough. If they can’t be eliminated, they have to be weighted and tossed on the other side of the scale.

9) The missing element. Is there something you would expect to see but don’t? The missing element can be used as an argument or counter argument depending on what it is. Is the missing element crucial or merely additive (or subtractive)? Is there a good reason that it is missing, or no reason?

10) Circumstantial evidence. To be used only if necessitated by the other evidence, and only to add context. Primary evidence is never circumstantial.

11) Analysis. A logical review of the evidence, and the preponderance of that evidence that all points in the same direction. Intellectual honesty required. Expertise, experience, empathy and insight can be applied as context to the analysis of the evidence, but can never serve as evidence alone. A basic interpretation of the evidence requires no special knowledge. Once revealed, the truth is always self-evident.

12) The final mile. Unless we are in the bedroom with them, or are their personal confidant, we can never know, know—but, how big of a leap is it to get there? Is it a leap across the Grand Canyon or a step across the threshold? Would we arrive if we simply believed their own words and actions?

What is NOT evidence and never goes on the scales:

(From the truth seeker — Note: this is not a judgement, just a clarification of what should be considered factual evidence.)

Head cannons

Tarot readings

Astrology

Personal kinks and sexual or romantic fantasies

Energy reads

Dreams

Emotional states and moods

Personal morals

Personal expectations of relationships and boundaries

RPF and RPF posing as truth

“Trust me”

Blind faith

Hearsay

Unevidenced beliefs

Common wisdom derived from assumptions, stereotypes or lack of reasoning

Assumptions about belief systems, attitudes and feelings that the boys have never voiced

Anything unseen, unarticulated or undocumented

None of these things are real from Hudson and Connor’s side of the curtain. We, as individual observers, are never part of the equation in their reality. The things above are only real for the person who is generating them. At best they serve as guidance for where to begin looking for evidence, but are not themselves factual, observable reality. At worst they are delusional, self-serving and manipulative. Almost always they are pure projection if depicted as the “truth”. Be mindful what is “yours” and what is “theirs”.

Okay, let’s see how this is applied to a real world example:

THESIS:

Hudson and Connor have been lovers from the beginning, meaning before filming.

PERSONAL GUIDANCE/PROMPT:

“Well, duh.” — Good enough for me but not for thee. Not yet the “truth”.

EVIDENCE

THE BELL IN THE BELL TOWER/CLARIFYING STATEMENT:

August 14, 2025 [Hudson makes an IG post of himself sticking out his blue stained tongue]

Connor — My love

Hudson — I love you

These words are translated from the original Russian.

BUTTRESSES:

All IG communication between Hudson and Connor from April through September, 2025, with some additions through the remainder of the year. (See @fuzzydoomsong archive for reference)

April 20, 2025 [Connor posts sexy gritty photos of himself]

Hudson — MY LOVER BOY 🥵

June 11, 2025 [Connor posts photos of the wrap party and the two of them]

Connor — That's a wrap - gonna miss you Huddy ❤️ (Shane + Ilya 4 ever)

Hudson — I love you forever Connor ❤️

The same day, Hudson reposts Connor’s wrap party post

Hudson— Thank you for being the best in every single way ❤️❤️❤️ I’ll see u soon

June 12, 2025 [Hudson posts bts photo of them posing as a couple]

Hudson — See u next season? (Connor Storrie you are an exceptional soul)

Connor — You’re mine

June 22, 2025 [Hudson posts sexy headshot photo of himself]

Connor — Stud

Hudson — ly

June 22, 2025 [Connor posts sexy photos of himself smoking]

Hudson — HOTHOTHOT

July 8, 2025 [Hudson posts sexy photos from casual photo shoot]

Connor — Dats ma baby

Hudson — 😚

Ralph Acino — @ Connor that’s your papiiii

July 9, 2025 [Connor posts burnt shoulder video]

Connor — summer shoulders

Hudson — Aloe aloe aloe burnt baby, aloe.

July 19, 2025 [Connor posts his film trailer]

Connor — Trailer for my short film ‘Jerry the Ginger Eater’

Hudson — My talented Dogme 95 boy

July 27, 2025 [Connor posts cool video of his undulating back]

Hudson — I love this

August 14, 2025 [Hudson makes an IG post of himself sticking out his blue stained tongue]

Connor — my love

Hudson — I love you

(This is our bell in the bell tower, contextually)

August 15, 2025 [hru posted an interview with Connor from the Aprilx premiere]

Hudson — great job on the interview lover ❤️ you too @ hru

hru — get a room 🙄 (thank u ily)

August 29, 2025 [Connor posts photos from another gritty sexy photo shoot]

Hudson — where was my invite to the photoshoot you whore

August 31, 2025

Hudson — We came up with the Shower Buddy

Connor — You’re my favorite

September 11, 2025 [Hudson and Connor make a joint post posing for a selfie like a couple, without commentary. Song: Whole Wide World]

Hudson posts one photo of Connor sitting on his bed looking down, cap obscuring his face.

Connor posts one photo of Hudson sitting at a restaurant, table number obscuring his face.

September 14, 2025 [Hudson and Connor make a joint post from a car in Vancouver. The boys are goofing and laughing]

The four dots in Rüfüs Du Sol

On this same day Christina posts a picture of each of them showing half their faces. On Connor’s is the word “peek”, on Hudson’s “a boo”

Sep 16, 2025 [Hudson posts a softly smiling couple selfie with an accompanying carousel of the two of them. Song: It’s Okay to Care]

Hudson — HOTTTTT!!!

September 17, 2025 [Connor posts a couple selfie, Hudson appears to have both arms around Connor’s waist. Song: My Heart Goes Bang]

Connor — My heart goes…

Both of the above posts include a video of Hudson walking in the forest, taken by Connor.

October 12, 2025 [Hudson posts photo of himself]

Connor — Stud and a half

Hudson — 😛😛

October 27, 2025 [Hudson posts selfie from a car]

Hudson — went to a nice wedding and thought I looked quite nice as well

Connor — Sex on a stick

November 3, 2025 [Connor posts sunburnt photo of himself]

Hudson — Flaming Sex Dorito

Dec 22, 2025 [Hudson posts a teaser for his Timid shoot]

Connor — Just getting handsomer and handsomer

CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE:

I contend that Connor went to Vancouver three times over the course of the summer. Early July, early August and Early September. And approximately once a month thereafter through the New Year. This is counter to the September alone narrative.

My reasoning is thus:

Hudson’s “See you soon” on June 11. “Soon” is measured in weeks, not months.

Connor’s (paraphrasing) “I went there once and found it’s cheap and fast to get there, and now I go up there all the time.” By necessity, that would have to be more than just September. “All the time” would most likely be more than twice. Connor has also offered, “He takes me to try new food all the time” and “we can just walk and talk for hours” This speaks to frequency and time spent together and a pattern of behavior established over multiple visits. The reason for his visit(s) was corroborated in the Quinn interview where he admitted he went up there for the sole purpose of visiting Hudson, after giving Hudson the opportunity to assert a different narrative, which he declined to do.

The couch cuddle pic in shorts, tank top and sunburn. That doesn’t correlate to September-in-Vancouver weather.

Hudson and Connor were working on The Stranger. One visit would not be enough time to do that and all the other things they say and showed they did.

There is a step-change in their communication after each proposed visit, therefore I submit my circumstantial evidence of multiple visits for the purpose of my larger analysis.

CROSS REFERENCES:

The two photos on May 10, 2025 taken by Christina when the boys took her out for Mother’s Day.

The summer photo taken by Sunny of the boys sleeping on the couch.

The three couple selfies taken by and posted by the boys in September.

The two photos of the boys taken by Christina in September, and the photo of the three of them together.

CONTEXT:

My primary analysis looks at the communication over the summer, and the photographic evidence. This is primary because it contains the bell in the bell tower; consists of direct communication between the boys; the photos are taken by themselves or close intimates; the time period is at the farthest remove from HR when they are just living for themselves and had no other pressure; they are still unknown and unconcerned about public opinion. It gets a perfect score and full weight for an honest depiction of the their true feelings and the nature of their relationship.

My secondary analysis consists of the period between the zoom call and the wrap party. There is only one realtime direct communication between the boys on record. There are some selfies but most photos are taken by less intimate parties. Most communication and events are recollections of the boys and multiple eyewitnesses as told to the press in retrospect. The photos are unguarded yet public. The time period of events was before fame, but not the telling of them. I give this evidence a medium weight and consider it to be an understatement as to the truth. The sheer volume and strength of corroborating evidence overwhelms any misgivings.

THE MISSING ELEMENT:

A kiss on the lips.

COUNTER WEIGHTS:

The possibility that this is friendship or unconsummated love.

ANALYSIS:

Our bell in the bell tower, The IG post of August 14 where the boys declare their mutual love is actually the end of the beginning and not the start of the beginning. You have to take off the roof before you can disassemble the house to the foundation, however. So I am going to prove my thesis in reverse.

There is an assumption being made that I would like to upgrade to a given. Namely, that for men in particular (and also many women), sex comes before love. This is pretty much a truism, but is it true for our particular men? Neither one of them was raised in an environment where there was a prohibition about sex. According to Hudson he and his mom are both very sex-positive; she talks about her boyfriends and he talks about his “stuff”. According to Connor, his whole family is very sexual. Connor told Seth Meyers he “does those things.” Hudson told Gail King a good first date consisted of “good talking, good laughing and good fucking.” These guys have no moral qualms about having sex without love or before love. They are not Amish and they weren’t courting. Additionally, they are actors who by nature are exhibitionists, who chose a project that required nudity and intimate touch. They took that basic requirement and pushed its outer bounds, actually having to be held back from all they wanted to do. Hudson’s first impression of Connor was his pin-me-down-and-fuck-me energy which he was instantly drawn to. And also, in a word, “freak”. Their first attraction was sexual. I think it’s a given they weren’t waiting for a public declaration of love to have sex. They are sex before love kind of guys and the sex preceded the love that became undeniable on August 14. I think the sex and the love bloomed simultaneously but let’s start with “l love you” and work back in time.

Why did I choose that particular post for my bell in the bell tower example? Because it simply cannot be explained as anything other than what it is. It was Hudson and Connor’s equivalent of Shane and Ilya finally saying “I love you” after nine years of being in love and making love. I maintain that our boys were in love and making love from the start, and they may or may not have told one another in person, but this day gave it new voice, and the public nature of it gave it extra significance.

Let’s break it down. The post itself was innocuous. Not sexy, not romantic. Just Hudson acting like a ten year old sticking out his tongue after eating a blue popsicle. There was a happiness and, literal, dizziness to his post. It was Connor who posted the video of the two of them waddling around at the cottage doing their loon dance. He captioned it “The Real Us ❤️”. It’s so vulnerable to be real. To be innocent and goofy and to feel totally safe in the presence of the other, and to not only be accepted, but joined. Hudson said that the first day he met Connor he fell in love with him because of the weirdness, “Oh, I’ve got that in me. I can be myself.” Connor felt the same and said that Hudson was one of the only people who could match his enthusiasm. They were both always “yes-and”ing the other. Connor said, “I don’t think people could have the sort of onscreen chemistry that Hudson and I have without genuinely embracing each other in real life and really feeling seen and heard and safe.” Their connection wasn’t only based on lust. But it did allow for a sexual vulnerability that fosters both intimacy and desire.

A welling of emotion was triggered in Connor when he saw Hudson and that blue tongue. The realness of it. The fun of it. He knew he loved him, and he claimed him as his own. Not possessively, but romantically, in the most romantic way he could think to do it—in Russian. Spoken like it was their own private language, even though neither of them knew how to speak it. Not really. They knew the words of love, though. They were the words whispered into the neck as they both allowed themselves to let go of their tears and kiss, all puffy and stuffy, before finally, finally saying “I love you.” Crying together in one another’s arms is the most intimate act Hudson knows. To that blue tongued boy, Connor called out, “my love” And Hudson answered him: “I love you”. Also in Russian. Matching Connor and coming to him, meeting him where he was. As if Russian were a secret code for just the two of them, and not the most bare, most translatable thing they would ever say. Hudson said it as a full sentence. No hearts. No kissy faces. Nothing to diminish the seriousness of it. Nothing to help pass it off as anything but what it is: Connor calling Hudson his love. Hudson telling him he loves him in return, claiming the title. In that moment Hudson knew who he was to Connor. His love. His swooningly romantically in love, love. And Connor finally believed him when Hudson told him he loved him. The bell in the tower was ringing.

What about the buttresses? What led to this moment? Does it make sense or did this come out of the blue? Did they accidentally down a handful of ecstasy or is this a foreseeable progression of an ongoing intimacy? Let’s go back to June and work through their posts.

June 11 Connor made his wrap party post. “That’s a wrap - gonna miss you Huddy ❤️ (Shane + Ilya 4 ever)” Hudson liked it and responded, “I love you forever Connor ❤️” Connor didn’t like or respond in return. It seems like Connor was really ready to say goodbye, despite having had the “best two months of [his] life”, despite having found a soulmate. Lovers come and go, and maybe he was just living in the character, maybe it was just a moment in time. Hudson’s response was, essentially, “No, no not Shane and Ilya forever, you and me forever. I love YOU forever, Connor. Not goodbye.” But he got no response.

Hudson immediately reposted Connor’s post and said, “Thank you for being the best in every single way ❤️❤️❤️ I’ll see u soon” Again, he’s saying, “Not goodbye, remember everything? I meant it. I meant everything in every way. No one compares to you. I”ll see you soon. I’ll make it happen. Not goodbye.” No response from Connor.

The next day Hudson tries again. He posts a bts photo of them as a proud couple. “See u next season? (Connor Storrie you are an exceptional soul)” He’s obviously recalling the rooftop scene. Like Shane and Ilya, they had had their experiences. They were good. They had meant to have plans for more. What was happening? Why was Connor disappearing? He called him by his full name this time. As if to say, “It was always about YOU. It was always about YOUR exceptional soul.” ~Try to love souls, you will find them again~ Hudson is holding out his hand for Connor to shake. It was then that Connor remembered the moment his soul recognized Hudson’s. He’d always remember it; he’s recounted it. “Oh, you’re mine” he thought. So instead of shaking Hudson’s hand, he pushes him to the wall and kisses him. “You’re mine” he says. Hudson likes his comment.

There is a formality to these posts, as love drenched and grateful as they are. Full names. Uncertainty. Angst. Mournful endings. No endearments. No flirting. And yet, promise. Acknowledgement. It seems they are not entirely sure what to do with themselves after the intensity of filming and their whirlwind love affair. How do they go back to the real world, a country apart? What do they do now?

Ten days later, Hudson posts his sexy headshot. Connor comments. “Stud.” Oh boy. They’re still on. The attraction persists. This is real life now. Hudson replies but tries to dial it back. No desperate chasing. He likes Connor’s comment and replies “ly” It was the smallest “I love you” possible, but he still said it. Boy can’t help himself. Connor lets that go without liking it. However, he volleys with a couple of sexy photos of his own. Shirtless, summer sultry and literally smoking hot—he’s home in LA. Connor is wearing Ilya’s necklace. Was it a gift or did he nick it? “Remember this???” he seems to be asking Hudson. Of course he does. Hudson likes his post and comments “HOTHOTHOT” It was shortly after these exchanges ofJune 22, 2025 that I believe Connor visited Vancouver for the first time.

The boys reconnected and established their relationship outside of HR. They were civilians now, and still complete unknowns. They knew nothing of what was ahead of them. It was decided though, that whatever it was that they had between them they were going to keep it alive. The next exchange on IG displayed a slight change in tone. On July 8, 2025 Hudson posted his sexy photos. Connor commented “Dats ma baby” This is the first endearment. Connor claims him in a way “You’re mine” didn’t. There is an understanding there—they’re ~together~. It’s sweet and familiar with implied reciprocity. Hudson liked his comment and threw him a kissy face as a reply. Reciprocity confirmed. The feeing of safety has returned. Interestingly, Ralph chimes in and says “@ Connor that’s your papiiii” Perhaps he was witness to a different dynamic than most people assume. It seems, at the very least, he was witness to *a* dynamic and seems entirely unsurprised by this public display of ~togetherness~. He has no qualms offering public confirmation of their relationship. This is a rare moment: someone who knew about their relationship on set, sees that it is continuing in real life, is unsurprised, and is completely unaware that it may someday be considered a secret. The press and the public are a world away, as is a professional set and the world of fiction. If he were referring to their characters, he wouldn’t have reminded Connor that Hudson was his papi not his baby. Let this stand as a 10/10 eyewitness submittal to a relationship already established on set. One that could not be mistaken for Shane and Ilya bleed. (Cross referenced by the photo of Connor sitting on Hudson’s lap) Hudson liked Ralph’s comment. He approves the confirmation.

On July 19, 2025 Connor posts the trailer for ‘Jerry the Ginger Eater’. Hudson comments, “My talented Dogme 95 boy” Hudson is claiming in return now, and showing his pride. So proud of his boy. On July 27 Connor posts the undulating back video. Hudson says, “I love this” This is a very rare instance of Connor liking a comment. He seems to appreciate being appreciated for his art the most—it is important to him that their connection is more than sex and romance.

What followed is what, I believe, was another visit in the first half of August, further deepening their bond. It culminated in the full throated declarations of love on the 14th. Our ringing bell.

What did their communication look like *after* such a huge declaration? The next day, August 15, hru posted the interview with Connor. After the romance of the Russian sweet nothings. Hudson is emboldened to call Connor what they are to each other out loud (for the second time). “Great job on the interview lover ❤️ you too hru” This is also his first foray into playing right in front of our salads. He learned from that that he could get away with playing quite a bit. It really doesn’t get any more straightforward than this. He said “I love you” to Connor, and called him “lover” in public the next day. Those words mean what they mean.

The next comments show him getting more comfortable being a little bratty and establishing claiming rights “where was my invite to the photoshoot you whore” and on another post of Hudson’s short film he seems to be talking to Connor when he says “We came up with the Shower Buddy.” THE Shower Buddies, I imagine. Connor responds by saying, “You’re my favorite” They have their feet underneath themselves now and know where they stand.

By the time they reunite in mid September they are ready to go official and do their hard launch, matching tattoos included. One of the joint posts is them goofing on Rüfüs du Sol. Showing that their laughter and joy with one another is as much of their love affair as anything, and what stirred Connor to call him his love the month before. The photos of them together are as soft as we’ve ever seen them. Through song choice, Hudson is declaring it’s okay to care (they have found their safety in that), and Connor has fallen all the way. “My heart goes…” Said in his own words so as not to be cryptic.

The posts following their launch confirmed their sexual attraction with Connor calling Hudson “stud and half” and “sex on a stick” and saying that he is “Just getting handsomer and handsomer”. Hudson calling Connor a “Flaming Sex Dorito”. Hudson never let a comment go unliked. By the end of September HR promo was really gearing up, but those referenced posts were personal, and Connor, in particular this time, seemed determined to give Hudson affirmations and assurances that his feelings for him were for him, and not related to the HR buzz that was beginning to swirl around them. All was blooming with their relationship as one might expect.

So, what do these buttresses, the months of posts on either side of our bell in the bell tower show us? A developing romantic relationship. A natural progression of intimacy and self assurance within the relationship. They are confirmation of the validity of “my love” and “I love you” being a pure and honest expression of their feelings for one another. There is no indication, whatsoever, that they could be interpreted in any other way.

In fact, they explained in one of their earlier interviews the very dynamic we saw play out. When asked who is more romantic, Connor responded, “Hudson’s more of a romantic than I am.” Hudson added, “He’ll be like they don’t like me and I’ll be like they said I love you Connor” We can hear in our mind Hudson saying, “I said that I love you Connor” He said it often, as we can see for ourselves. Hudson, they both agreed, will shoot his shot. That is exactly what we saw over the course of the summer. The boys are telling on themselves in this interview, because who possibly could they have witnessed these dynamics with besides each other? Hudson told Connor three times, “I love you forever Connor❤️”, “ly” and “I love you” before Connor fully believed.

What now of our cross references, our photographic evidence that their physical interactions match their verbal interactions? We have a lovely set of bookends with the Mother’s Day photos on one end and the Christina photos coinciding with the hard launch on the other. The former being a little bit more giddy and bright-eyed and new, and the latter being more relaxed and settled, both sets show unmistakable boyfriends very happy with one another. Sandwiched in the center is the photo of them sleeping on the couch, taken by Hudson’s mother, the closest person to him in the world. The boys are as unguarded as humanly possible, literally unconscious. Leaning on each other, holding hands, in the safety of Hudson’s home after a day of adventuring. The fact that Hudson chose that particular photo to share—one he didn’t even know was taken (a situation that normally would make him feel very vulnerable)—is telling. Hudson wants to show the world his heart. He has vowed, “I will never stop showing my love for Connor.” This photo was taken on the first visit, I believe, and marked the time when they became real in real life after HR was over. Along with that photo are the multiple couple photos looking soft and sincere. No face giving, or tongue wagging. Nothing was played up at all. I have spoken about the Mother’s Day photos in another post, but if September 11 was their hard launch, May 10th was their soft launch. Unmistakably, openly boyfriends at that time and place. The photos from Christina in September were them stepping into the bigger world. “Peek a boo” is a game you play with babies, hiding behind your hands and then revealing your face in surprise. It happily shocks the babies, but by revealing what was always there, only hidden, it teaches them object permanence. Boo is also a term of endearment, for boyfriend or sweetheart. By showing half of their faces, she is giving us a peek at the boos. Christina was well aware of the launch she was in the midst of and this was her clever contribution to the boyfriend reveal. The boys were proud to show they were with her in the post showing the three of them together. It felt like a family portrait. The professional relationship has become personal. The moms have it. Again, trustworthy, intimate sources—10/10 in the honest depiction of true feelings.

Bring in the counterweights. Is this just unconsummated love? No. Why would they fail to consummate it? Connor got on a plane for no other reason than to see Hudson several times. He stayed in his home, in his bed. I would say this is the final release of a lovemaking session that had gone on for the previous four months. Is this just friendship? Is this how platonic friends communicate over silly stupid posts on line? Again, no. Particularly men. They weren’t making a joke of it. Men don’t call other men their “love” completely unprompted unless they mean it. Men don’t respond in full sentence “l love you” unless they mean it. They don’t further muddy troubled water if there is uncertainty or angst. They don’t lead one another along if there isn’t reciprocity. They aren’t “girl besties.” This isn’t joking. This isn’t unrequited love. This isn’t cruelty. It is exactly what it appears to be: mutual romantic, sexual, soul to soul LOVE.

Hudson himself, gives a beautiful example of male platonic friendship with his friend Zack: “Very proud to have you as a friend and collaborator Zack ❤️” Zack responded: “my brother 🙏❤️”

THAT is how male platonic friends communicate. Hudson and Connor communicate like lovers. This is the measure. Like for like. ALL exchanges between Connor and Hudson are consistent with a sexual intimate relationship, albeit varying in intensity. The exchange between Hudson and Zack is consistent with a friendship. There is an unmistakable difference between the two, and Hudson is the common factor. It’s not about *him*, it’s about him and the person he is relating to. Connor is treated uniquely, and with a love, admiration and desire shown no one else.

As for the missing element, why isn’t this sealed with a kiss? It doesn’t have to be, for starters—it’s not the nail in the coffin. With how transparent these two have been, it’s easy to forget that they are actually trying to maintain their privacy and a sheen of secrecy. We have seen them kiss 81 times on our screens. When they were clinging to each other in Montreal, the fans called for them to kiss and they said, no, we would see that in the show. This is where “Shane and Ilya are for the public, Hudson and Connor are for themselves” comes into play. Their kisses are for them, so the missing element is in keeping with the whole.

The conclusion of my primary analysis is that the boys were lovers throughout the summer and extending back into filming as evidenced by the Mother’s Day photos of May 10, and Hudson saying, “I love you forever Connor ❤️” on June 11. As I said earlier, they didn’t become boyfriends on Mother’s Day without already being lovers. Hudson wouldn’t declare his undying love without already being lovers—not that kind of love. They had to have had already been lovers for them to feel this strongly at those junctures. But when was the beginning? At the beginning, I posit.

I now present the second bell in the bell tower: Connor’s post of April 20 on which Hudson comments “MY LOVER BOY 🥵” Was he really his lover boy on April 20?

Context: That comment got four likes in four days. Absolutely no one was paying attention. That comment was written to and for Connor and no one else, yet at the same time it was on record, in all caps. The post went up the day before filming was to commence on April 21, 2025.

Counterweight: This comment was about Ilya, not Connor. He was just getting in the mood and gearing up for filming to begin. It was a pep talk for everything that was to follow.

Analysis: It WAS a pep talk, not unlike the “let’s go baby boy” said back stage at the Golden Globes. His lover boy was Connor and it was soon to be Ilya too. In Hudson’s mind, Shane is almost always erased when he recalls the sex scenes. It’s always “me, me, me”. We have seen so many examples of this. But why was he calling Connor (the photos being commented on were 100% Connor, no Ilya in sight) his lover boy before filming even started? Because he was.

The strongest evidence of this comes straight from Hudson’s and Connor’s mouths. They both have said THEIR chemistry was established before they even started acting. Hudson said that their chemistry was *different* than Shane and Ilya’s and that they had to find their way to Shane and Ilya, that they had to wait for Shane and Ilya to catch up to them so they “could envelop one another in what we wanted to do.” Their instinct was always to be more loving, more tender, more open and they had to be reminded their characters weren’t there yet. Before filming they weren’t just practicing, living in the characters, channeling their energy. They were DIFFERENT; they had gone off trail and had to find their way back.

Much has been said about their chemistry and the zoom call, the instant connection and attraction. So, so many witnesses said it was absolute fire. It was real, they felt it, but that was an example of them channeling Ilya and Shane. Hudson remarked on how hard Connor was to read—hard and closed off like Ilya. Yet he always points out how different Connor is from that. He’s open and sensitive in a way that makes Hudson want to defend him with his life. This is the difference he was pointing to when he said their chemistry was different than their characters’. Hudson and Connor were open and sensitive. It’s very hard to argue that the chemistry they were always talking about wasn’t sexual in nature when they said they finally got in alignment with their characters when they started the love making. When they could at last express themselves fully.

Hudson called Connor his lover boy on April 20, the day before filming, because he was. They had had two weeks or more to find each other, before they had to find someone else. They’ve told us, so many times, in so many ways. Don’t believe them? Refer to the eye witnesses who all say what they had was real, that they truly adored one another. Refer to the backstage photos of them hugging and holding, caressing and nuzzling. Refer to them always touching, even when asleep. Believe Hudson when he says that when he’s in love he has to always be touching. That includes having his fingers entwined in Connor’s hair even as he himself is slumped over, out cold on a bench.

I keep reiterating that these men would have had to have initiated a sexual relationship long before their feelings of love became as intense as they did. It would be almost impossible to imagine that they didn’t. Unless, of course, they fell in love at first sight. Unless Hudson fell in love with Connor the day he met him. Isn’t that exactly what they’ve told us happened? In that case, they did wait for sex. They waited for the first door between them and the outside world to close.

It didn’t take a great leap to get here. In fact, any other alternative explanation requires far more acrobatics and Evel Knievel levels of jumping skills. The truth is self-evident. But what stands out the loudest is that they are the ones telling us themselves what they are to each other—every single time, in every single way. We simply have to believe them.

Hudson is the real romantic here, so I’ll let him be the final authority:

“We clicked immediately, and quickly knew what our relationship would bloom into, and it’s been really lovely.”

They say close only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades. I would add the “truth” to that. There is only so close you can get, and this is close enough for me.

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