Getting the fencing replaced at home at the moment? Bit nerve wracking as it’s realistically one of the biggest home improvements to date, but the fence was nearly ready to collapse under a light breeze, so I’m really overjoyed at how it’s commencing ~ it’s possibly the last of my savings I’m using for this project, I get to share the cost of materials and labour with the adjacent neighbour who I share the fence line with, which is great! However, the other fence line is the pedestrian side and I share that with nobody, and thusly will be independent in those costs. I don’t know if it’ll be as tall as what the current posts sit at, but if it is? Boy freaking howdy ~ privacy! Is really really really hoping to have enough funds after the fencing is done to be able to pay for the guys to pave the backyard out by the decking? It’ll need more bloody bricks, and the labour costs as well, but I’m really really hopeful I’ll be financial enough to afford such an extra, as I’ll be out of work for another month yet. My gran and I are also going to Shepparton to look for tiles? As a part of my birthday Christmas present, I wanted her help to organise and get ready to tile the laundry? Her opinion and guidance as a long time home owner and several times renovator give her unique perspective on how styles change, what a classic sort of timeless style may look like, tile size and design and quality, colour ideas and layout ideas, the whole shebang ~ it’s a task I both want assistance with, but also want her specifically to be apart of? So she’ll be involved and a piece of her will live in my home forever. Had my Kate Reid session today too? Decided that I’m going to try again with Adam, going to give him a phone call and see if maybe we can, try again I guess. But other than that small hiccup, everything else has been going grouse; I go for my second T shot this Thursday, I’m hopefully gonna have a haircut and fill out my script tomorrow, additional to cleaning up and restraining my back deck, and then gran and I are going out this Friday to look at several tile places to see if we can snag any bargains and price compare, and then Jodie is coming around for dinner on Sunday! I’m really excited to show her my home? It’ll be the first time a coworker, aside from tim who’s now my Roomate, to come see my home? I wish it were a bit more put together, and the garden needs oodles of work, and it’s a bit cramped but, I am a devout and proud home owner, and this, she’s my baby this house. Every time I’m able to put lonely and effort towards maintaining, repairing or renovating any of my home? I feel an overwhelming sense of joy and pride, like, I’m doing right by the house and she knows and sees it and appreciates it, and that we kinda grow together in that way. I’m admittedly, ashamedly, nervous that my cat is bonding so well with my Roomate? I couldn’t settle trigger tonight, everything I tried tonight didn’t work and only served to aggravate him, and now he’s gonna to Tim’s room to lay there and I admit, I feel out out and miss him. I hope trigger is happy and safe, and I want to spend more time with him in a positive way? Like, I want to go on our walks again, and spend time in the front yard in the sunshine with him, and I fully intend to, after the fencing is done and secure and trigger can safely come outside. Just, waiting, hopefully, for the rest of this week to pass and for my nerves about being replaced in triggers eyes, to subside, to allow my jealousy to ease, and to come out the other side appreciative for what I do have; a loving family, a beautiful home, and a very very good life
Ps I’m sick of seeing the trumpet party advertising on local television against trans people being under age or allowed to interact with anybody underage, cause we exist in the same space which is society, and trans people are gonna be in crossover paths, they’re gonna be teachers or teachers aides and we’re gonna be therapists or in local sports and we’re allowed to exist in society and engage in society without being a threat to children because we’re not inherently dangerous as a class of people, and every time I see that ad it makes me angry. I didn’t know I was trans until I was an adult, but I think if a child knows and maintains a consistent expression of dysphoria and it’s safest and in their best interest to at least have a puberty blocker, or to have access to medical intervention to allow them the time before puberty hits them, to discover what makes them happiest in their skin? It’s cruel to deny that.
I was able to talk with Kate today about how to safely navigate coming out in my workplace setting? Which is to say, we discussed about social norms and social rules on what it’s likely other people will notice, observe and then remark upon, and how I’m allowed to respond to these things? My surgery won’t be really noticeable to my coworkers cause I have never once come into my workplace without my binder, they’ve known me as effectively flat since I began working three years ago? And my surgery now just means I’m able to maintain that same flatness, just with ease upon myself to achieve it. It’ll be my voice dropping, or subtle face changes to give a more masculine appearance that’ll be most noticeable for them, and I’m still figuring out how I’ll get through that, but yeah. Small steps
Back fence is nearly done ~~ finishing up tomorrow, then they’re taking a break from fences for a week and helping around the garden, then week after that will be the final fencing ~ I’m so happy ✨



















