[suffer-louder]

[darkestbrook]

I hope they pirated Minecraft on those computers. I think Rocky would like it

[soymoss]

disco starling

[lady-of-vitreous-sight]

everyone loves me because of the gifts of hair I leave all over the furniture

[leggywormy]

It's end of May, yall know what that means

[cheglok-art]

Kākāpō believes in you ☀

[lvmimis]

tbh i love hear me outs but i also love the opposite of hear me outs where it’s like nearly everyone thinks they’re fuckable except you

[malecarrier]

systems. its fascinating to me that I've built my whole basis of reality on a whole load of shitty scaffolding. growing up in (what im now realizing was) an incredibly abusive situation and being an AuDHD kid to a mom who did not like autistic or ADHD traits (despite me really thinking she might be one or both as well), was in a word: hell.

I developed so many maladaptive ways to keep myself safe, so many intricate systems in order to keep myself so repressed so i could function as her emotional regulator.

Now i have that coveted late in life diagnosis and i only feel... grief. I have no inclination life would have been easier for me to cope with had she been a better, less neglectful, less hostile person. that almost makes it all the harder to cope with. even if my primary caregivers did primary caregiving, the world et al would have still been against me. and is against so many still.

Theres something to be said about going through this process and trying to find new ways, especially seeing that i have a partner who loves & supports me- despite me feeling wholly undeserving of it. how affirming and just kinda cool it can feel to tackle something scary and come out the other side with a hug and laughter.

being autistic you can already struggle with trusting your inner dialogue. having cptsd, i literally did not develop that strong sense of self and what my wants and desires are before learning to prioritize my abuser above all. Its still really hard for me to justify (and even there feeling like i need to justify) doing anything exclusively for myself. Its hard to unfuck all the ways i repress myself because it just was not safe for me to have emotions.

And do i sure have big emotions..... :(

life teaches us we arent supposed to have or need these things; and people who went through a similar experience to me and are on a journey to healing. we are neurodiverse and deeply traumatized and yet- somewhere, somehow we want better still. I think thats very revolutionary.

[nylarac]

[anasabdin]

Dispersion

[chelseaaasmileee]

-Goblin/Cryptid Core stimboard-

Requested by: @highclasshomosexual

[stimday]

~ ~ Cool Toned Shine/Glitter Stimboard ~ ~

🌌/💙/🌌/💜/🌌/💜/🌌/💙/🌌

request for @ducky-lee ! i honestly love these types of stim gifs and was very excited when I saw this request, thank you for requesting!

[cupids-stimboards]

day 6: board based off fave aesthetic

event link

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[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

Watching any movie before 2000 reminds you that people in movies used to be hot but like in a normal way

[kiefbowl]

thank god I got whatever's wrong with me that isn't the kind of wrong with me that would have me falling in love with an ai chatbot or whatever the fuck

[tysonfurybattlepass]

“theres nothing wrong with him hes just annoying” is such a powerful grounding affirmation thank you toby fox. like you know what actually i don’t need to be mean to this person bc the thing that irritates me about them is perfectly harmless and subjective. it’s literally fine

[tysonfurybattlepass]

*through gritted teeth* being annoying is not a moral failure

[soup-mother]

The purpose of life is to touch your partner's tummy. everything else is just bourgeois moralism.