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marble. 30. too old for this shit they/them if u gotta

[gayally]

In the webseries Matt and Jay are fucking like crazy but don’t acknowledge it or show intimacy

Viceland Matt and Jay acknowledge their relationship and show a lot of intimacy but don’t fuck

Mega 64/Cineplex promo’s Matt and Jay are openly married and fuck like crazy

Movie Matt and Jay are like the Pina Colada song where they both aren’t satisfied with each other only to actually find they just needed to talk and fuck each other

[mattys-marbles]

i'm okay. i'm here

[kingofallgirls]

matt johnson // i was not wrong to want it

[mattys-marbles]

Promo for NTBTS on Hulu!!

[marblenarwhal]

hello does anyone have a google drive link they can share to viceland NTBTS?

i successfully got my friends interested after showing them the first ep but i know they wont keep watching it unless it's very accessible 😭

[mj-bird]

i'm so sick about how jay goes from trying very hard to be a macho straight man in the webseries to what i can only describe as the halfway point to an old gay man doing crossword puzzles in fluffy pink slippers in viceland. young jay tries so hard to fit into the male role in heterosexual relationships but, as he becomes comfortable as matt's lifelong monogamous best friend, he's content to just be whatever he happens to be with him. and what he happens to be is a diva and a housewife.

[mattys-marbles]

In case we need a striptease, we're just rehearsing it!

[vampybirdy]

hey! hey! marry me archie!

[okjaybird]

the one thing about matt is that he's a networker and he is SKILLED at it. like that word has such a dirty association in my mind as a young person where it seems like you can get nowhere without knowing a guy but i truly look up to matt in the fact that he really cares about talking to other people, attentively listening to what other people have to say. i do think in part it comes naturally to him to thrive off of that conversation bouncing energy and that ability to know so many people that you're then able to connect a friend of a friend or go oh my pal who worked on this a couple years ago sounds like he'd be a really great fit for this actually do you know him? etc etc he's just very skilled at throwing himself into opportunity, he's always the conversationalist and of course he likes talking about film and his own creative endeavors and the industry like this is HIS thing and idk where i was quite going with this but basically like it's just very cool to see that his networking abilities come from a place of passion and love of what he does

[ntbsideblog]

came across this comment and it made me think of this post cuz i think this is the key, he doesn’t even think of it as networking. he approaches it from a completely genuine place of wanting to connect with people so that way it fuels him rather than drains him

[mattsheadband]

the BEST advice i got in school was stop “networking” and literally just make friends. treat people like people, and not as someone who can do something for you! in the end you always want to help friends and they want to help you. i think matt is really good at this way of life

[its-kinda-snowy]

On top of the world

[garflendo]

so uh, i couldn't stop thinking about the end of ntbtstm as well as james murphy and his work, and how i feel 'new york i love you, but you're bringing me down' correlates so perfectly with matt and jay and their seperate ideals. and a few nights ago and i created this

[weltenwellen]

Joy Sullivan, “If I Had a Hundred Lives to Live”, Instructions for Traveling West

[okjaybird]

“we were walking down queen street. it was raining, it was pouring rain, everyone had umbrellas except you and i, and i was so like caught up in the adolescent joy of being on queen street that i was like why do people even have umbrellas? don’t they realize this is just beautiful...” - matt johnson cineplex interview x

“the rain was fat and sticky and almost sweet. It was the kind of rain that feels more warm than wet. The kind that requires no umbrella whatsoever. Bird remembered feeling this way once before, but from a childhood long ago. Or was it a dream? Could life even be this wonderful? Bird was only certain of one thing: he wanted it to rain forever.” - matt and bird break loose episode 2 x

somedays you just gotta accept that they are insane about each other and shake your head and move on. today is not one of those days

[been-thinking-a-lot-today]

As Katie and I explore deeper into Matt Johnson's filmography and all, it's been really interesting to see the surprisingly good portraits of like... the uglier sides of the possible psychology of being attracted to the same sex. There's this everpresent 'I'm attracted to you, my straight best friend, and I'll neuter myself for you but I want to be in our intense incredibly close male friendship forever in return.' I do kind of think Matt himself is like, genuinely bisexual, he just doesn't particularly care to be since he doesn't want to be /gay/ or lose this incredibly homosocial male environment he's cultivated for himself with his friends.

But like other things, film is an opportunity for him to freely explore things about himself taken to excess or in hypothetical. What if I was only attracted to the same sex? What if I couldn't get an acceptable level of heterosexual cred when everyone started building theirs, and my straight best friend started rejecting me because of how strange and obsessive I was being? What if I fed that classic dysphoric gay impulse that wonders if I could have my straight best friend if only I mimicked what he desired? What if, in a different scenario, I managed to get us suspended forever as the most important relationship in each others' lives, for the small price of desexing myself and him still always trying to leave me? Do I resent and mock when he shows his own desire? What if my best friend was complacent enough to consider all my overtures jokes without me needing to be with a woman to give me deniability?

He's got this thing going on where like many men, he's blatantly homosocial and kinda misogynistic and these things wrap in on themselves plenty of times, sure. And honestly, it's /possible/ he's not attracted to the same sex and instead he's got this deep deep tendency towards caring about his male besties to such a degree that the closest possible comparison is literally repressing love for them — and that's possible but I do tend to consider the occam's razor that plenty of people are bisexual, and plenty of bisexuals kind of decide to just ignore it because they like the access to the heterosexual world, they don't want to lose the things they have there — especially their place of standing with their straight besties, and they CAN be attracted to the opposite sex, so if they can have the occasional outlet for their intensity regarding the same sex, then why even bother if they don't care about engaging with being Gay?

The tragedy of being bi, I think, is that you can sublimate your issues all you want because you don't have to face them. It's literally optional. Being homosexual, like, you do have to face it eventually, even ten steps into delusion and trying to imagine a world where you can slot into heterosexuality somehow, you know something has to be fundamentally different to allow it. Whereas it's not true if you're bi.

Plenty of people make a whole host of different decisions as a result, but a lot do the Matt Johnson thing where they reject the conundrum in favor of the status quo, especially men who benefit from a world that encourages them to value their relationships with other men most of all. It creates an environment where the capitulator can have his cake and eat it too, as long as he gives up sex. But nevertheless, unless one is very very good at denial, you end up wondering. Maybe kind of resentful.

And it's that complicated homosexual push and pull between jealousy, resentment, dysphoria, etc, that are kind of well painted and explored in his work. What if I'm attracted to the same sex but I want the sliver of what I can get from my specific straight best friends more than some promise at random gay depth. What if I could just wish myself into their dating pool. What if I could jokingly be the smoking dragon keeping all suitors away, and they just accept it. What if one of them finally catches on and drops me?

Anyway, he gets to explore all that because of his engagement with the heterosexual world irl. His friends think he's all crazy and intense and a wild ride and all the gay jokes are par for the course because he's just like that, and we all go home to our heterosexually modeled lives at the end of the day, where the man spends his day emotionally invested in his fellow man, but returns home and fucks his wife. So no matter how close we joke and get it's fine. Even he doesn't know why he keeps putting gay songs on it all, he swears.

[wokedogschenkopf]

hitting him

[marblenarwhal]

finally got my roommate to watch NTBTS w me and after a few episodes they are laughing and getting into it.......... start talking about how endearing they find matt and jay...... that they weren't sure about matt at first but now they feel tender feelings for him.... like he is their friend.. "these are our friends now" they tell me......... absolute best case scenario can't believe this is my life

[ntbsideblog]

i’m gonna kill myself