Titles Are Hard

Indie writer working on a debut fantasy novel. Using this space to share my writing journey & random thoughts, & making friends! (pfp @sunnysonasis)

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Here's the blurb for my WIP novel, Out of Torment!

It is a dark fantasy story that was inspired by an NPC in a D&D game I played with my best friend. Dax needed to have his story shared, and I'm having a blast writing it.

I'm even more excited to share this story with other people! If you like what you see so far, stick around. I'll be sharing info about characters soon.

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Guess what I did guys! Forgot about tumblr again! It's a habit to forget apparently.

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I started a blog!

Even though this is a blog?

Yes!

That's because I forgot Tumblr existed again! But also because Wordpress isn't half bad.

If you haven't seen it yet, you have a few posts you can read to catch up! New posts every Monday ✌️

https://oleiqath.wordpress.com/

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Yo! I totally forgot tumblr existed again! Guess what that means — I have bunches of stuff to spam on here while you guys get caught up on everything that happened over on Instagram, Threads, and my new blog!

(But if you wanna stay up to date, maybe follow along on one of those platforms, since I regularly forget about tumblr 😅)

Lots coming, stay tuned!

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STILL HERE JUST FORGOT TUMBLR EXISTED OOPS

I'm way more active on Threads and Instagram 😅

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Still here. Still kicking. Still creating.

The WIP novel has been on hold as life has been super busy and chaotic. But busy with good thing.

Today will be the third and fourth performances of The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe in which I play Jadis, Queen of Narnia.

Yesterday I started drawing a phoenix for a Discord server of creatives.

Two days ago, my baby turned 5 🥺💖

It's been crazy, but good crazy.

And I'm excited for the coming month when it all settles down a bit and I can finally, hopefully turn some attention back to Dax and his friends.

They are not forgotten.

They've been in my thoughts all along.

Just patiently waiting for my time and energy to be for them again.

🤎

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Meet Sylver 🤍

Sylver is a drifter, traveling around the Kingdom of Spades in search of coin and companionship. With his pure white hair and his bold, charming personality, he always stands out in the crowd and revels in the attention. Those that know him might warn you of the masks he wears, however. What can be seen on the outside may not be all there is to see, and a man with secrets can be dangerous.

Sylver is a character from my WIP dark fantasy novel, Out of Torment!

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Meet the Characters: Sybil 🩷

Sybil is the daughter of a skilled baker and is as sweet as his pastries, and just as pretty. She's not afraid to speak her mind, and she always has an opinion. Though she quite enjoys the finer, more lovely things in life, she has a strength hidden inside her petite figure, and will be sure to right any wrong assumptions that she can't hold her own just because she's a woman.

Sybil is a character from my WIP fantasy novel, Out of Torment.

If you want to participate in a character Q&A, send me an ask and I'll let Sybil answer! I also have a Q&A currently active on my Instagram @mavracax

More about my novel to come!

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Meet Teven 🐺

Teven serves the Nulbere house as an estate guard. A man far from where he once called home, he serves dutifully but often stands alone. He is known to be arrogant and abrasive toward his peers, keeping to himself and staying task-driven. Though he's a loner, he can't avoid becoming entangled in some relationships, and once he's involved, despite his better judgement he will stay, all or nothing.

Teven is a character from my WIP fantasy novel, Out of Torment.

I'm working on my first draft at the moment, and will keep sharing things as I go through every stage of writing. You can also follow along on Instagram (@mavracaxwrites) and Threads (@mavracax) if you'd like to see more!

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Meet the Characters:

Wheynn💛

Wheynn is a skilled warrior who trained under the holy clergy to the Gauntlet of Justice in the Kingdom of Clubs. Following the call of justice into Spades, he now seeks out the weak and vulnerable as a vigilante, offering protection and service in the name of his god. A stalwart leader and steadfast friend, he will fight for those in need, no matter the cost.

Wheynn is a character in my WIP fantasy novel, Out of Torment. More characters are on the way, and I'm cooking up some world info to share as well. Stay tuned!

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♠️ The Kingdom of Spades ♠️

This is the kingdom that my WIP dark fantasy story, Out Of Torment, is set in. I hope to share more details about this world building in the near future!

A tremendous thank you to @annethewisoblivious for helping bring the royal crest of Spades from an idea to beautiful existence! I'm very pleased with how it turned out, and I couldn't have done it without her 🖤

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Oops Tumblr kinda became a place I dump my brain and apparently become a sorta poet? My bad. I promise this blog will be about my WIP novel again. I'm working on stuff all the time. Hopefully I'll have some world building to show off soon 👏

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Miss You

Between each playdate we shared

I nurtured the bond, I cared

And so did you, together we

Grew up, grew creatively

From children young to women fair

All my life, you were always there

Until we stepped to separate sides

Of a crag, a gap that opened wide

Between us, distance took my friend

It broke my heart, to have it end

Years went by, we grew up more

Jobs, marriage, and life before

Fell away, exchanged for new

We moved on, but I still missed you

As time went on and we both learned

Our Father rebuilt bridges burned

And brought us back to the canyon

That separated life-long companions

Wounds healed and new bonds tied

I could once more in my friend confide

Children came and formed their own

Relationships, like ours long grown

Two generations, hand in hand

It was exciting, sweet, more than I planned

Troubles come along with life

Conflicts, deaths, discourse and strife

At times the gap between us came

Again and friendship did reframe

But not so wide as once before

I could still reach out and see your

Path in parallel with mine

And though I did sometimes decline

Falling away, you waited, friend

And we repaired the gap in the end

We grew together like not before

And I had such hope for what's in store

Our sisterhood had only grown

Until suddenly I was alone

Creativity laced with pride

Had always caused weakness inside

Such beauty should never split

A friendship, but somehow it

Has broken what it had before

And art became a settled score

Suddenly, part of me dies

And I wonder how much were lies

Some days I'm angry, most I'm sad

About the loss of what we had

All the time my heart does cry

For healing, peace from Adonai

To help me let go what I once knew

But even now, I still miss you

The days ahead, weeks, years

I never know what will appear

For grief is a rocky rollercoaster

and sometimes it is the most

I can do to sit and pray

That it won't hurt so much someday

Should you come back, one day, again

I don't know if I can call you friend

Now I think, for both our sakes

The final choice is mine to make

Don't lose your spark, rejoice in life

You're a good sister, daughter, wife

When we are old, whatever we do

I'll always still be missing you

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Gracious Father

You catch me every time I fall.

You're there every time my heart breaks again.

Your mercies and grace are endless.

Without you I would be a ruin

Hopeless

Broken.

The waves of grief are relentless

Crashing over my head

Threatening to drown me

Fill my lungs and drag me down.

You are my Anchor

Air in my lungs

The beacon of the lighthouse on shore.

You always provide

Always comfort

Always save.

Take this burden of grief and anger and sorrow from my shoulders

Lest I drown.

Thank you, gracious Father.

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Grief is a storm on the ocean.

The Lord is my anchor, who makes survival possible.

Even with Him, I still take on water and suffer damages from the storm.

It still hurts. He just makes it bearable and gives me hope that it isn't forever.

It still hurts.

It isn't forever.

Carry me, Father. I rest in you while it hurts.

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It's repeatedly open each social media app to mindlessly scroll through stuff you don't care about just to try and make the feel-bad feel different but it doesn't actually help so you try the next app wash rinse repeat time.

Grief is a shitty non-linear slow af bitch and I'm tired.

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Meet the Characters:

Wheynn💛

Wheynn is a skilled warrior who trained under the holy clergy to the Gauntlet of Justice in the Kingdom of Clubs. Following the call of justice into Spades, he now seeks out the weak and vulnerable as a vigilante, offering protection and service in the name of his god. A stalwart leader and steadfast friend, he will fight for those in need, no matter the cost.

Wheynn is a character in my WIP fantasy novel, Out of Torment. More characters are on the way, and I'm cooking up some world info to share as well. Stay tuned!