[mayarbaby]

“Your eyes are far too pretty to be wet by those who didn’t realize what they had.”

- a.m. {they don’t deserve you}

[mayarbaby]

“i realize now, that loving him was neither beautiful nor poetic; it was knowingly walking through hell every day and losing myself there.”

- a.m. {trying to love someone who is too broken to be fixed}

[mayarbaby]

i tore myself apart, trying to give you the whole world. and when i returned - bloodied, exhausted and proud - somehow, for you it still wasn't enough.

-a.m. {will i ever be?}

[mayarbaby]

sometimes, i wonder if i'd pushed myself just a little harder in the past, i would have held onto something meaningful by now.

- a.m. {they never last}

[mayarbaby]

why do i have to feel if all i've felt is hurt.

- i'm stuck in a mess that i made for myself

[mayarbaby]

“the thing about liking someone, is that anybody else can like them too.

and it kinda sucks when you know you’re only an option.”

A.M. {and even more when it's not you}

[mayarbaby]

“it's happening again.

my eyes are searching the room for you, without even meaning to.

the twinge in my heart when a day passes and i didn't get to hear your voice.

i feel it creeping up my neck, when our eyes lock and neither of us dares to look away.

the ache i get at the end of the day when i regret not having the guts to talk to you.

it's happening again,

but how will it end this time?”

A.M. {it's just a crush, it's just a crush, it's just a crush}

[mayarbaby]

“I have fallen in love too fast for this to be anything but fate.”

A.M. {as always}

[mayarbaby]

“Oh, but you don’t know. You don’t know what your ocean eyes and innocent smile could do to a girl like me; A girl who overthinks every little thing.”

A.M. {hope}

[mayarbaby]

“You aren't even mine, but I still love you like you are.”

A.M. {unrequitedly}

[mayarbaby]

“I will never fall in love with him,” my mind vows.

And then my heart murmured, “My dear, when will you realize you already have?”

A.M. {you can’t fool your own heart}

[mayarbaby]

“i'm growing real tired of pretending i'm not in love with you.”

A.M. {can you see me?}

[mayarbaby]

“it wasn’t until you smiled that my stomach twitched with a feeling i knew all too well, and suddenly all i could think was, “oh crap.””

- A.M. {why did it have to be you?}

[mayarbaby]

“how do you expect me to remember how to breathe when you’re looking at me like that?”

- A.M. {you}

[mayarbaby]

“i have a tendency to fall in love with people i already know will end up breaking my heart,

yet i still hope one of them will prove me wrong.”

- A.M. {just one}

[mayarbaby]

i want to feel the tingles of electricity shoot up my arm when you touch my hand; a simple act, that holds so much meaning. i want to feel the flutter my heart makes in its cage, as my name rolls off your tongue; the way you make it sound as if it’s the most beautiful word. i want my head to spin as the world around us begins to fade away, the moment your lips gently press onto mine; each passionate kiss carved into my memory. i want the love that causes a shiver throughout my body at the mere thought of you; the one that will soon make me fall apart without you. but, here i am, sitting alone in a crowded room, wondering if i’ll ever experience a type of love as ultimately consuming as that.

A.R. {the type you read about in novels}

[mayarbaby]

any trace of you is burned into the back of my mind with the pen i used to write our love story

A.R. {all six hundred and thirty pages}