the reason i enjoy characters calling cas slurs so much is that as much as cas hates himself, it's never in an internalized bigotry way. like he's entirely fine with like... What He Is. what he hates about himself is What He's Done. like, the closest he comes to disliking himself for What He Is is being scared that no one likes him? but in general he's pretty fine with everything about himself except his choices.
anyway you guys might think that this post was inspired by cas' relationship to being gay but actually it's inspired by the fic i have in my head where cas is called into jack's school to talk to the counselor on like. an unrelated matter, and the counselor refers to jack's "difficulties" and cas is like "jack's what? jack, are you having difficulties at school?" and jack is like "no i love it here" and the counselor is like "no i meant his... you know..." and cas tilts his head like "his what?" and then the counselor spends ten minutes using increasingly rude euphemisms for intellectual/developmental disabilities before giving up and asking if she can speak to cas' wife, at which point cas is like i don't have a wife, and the counselor is like but your wedding ring... and cas is like i do have a husband. and the counselor is like thank god. my discomfort with this weird man's obvious disabledness overrides even my passive straight person homophobia. and then the husband is, you know. dean.
i want to make it clear that once dean shows up one of two things happens.
first possibility: dean gets extremely mad that these self-satisfied, pansy-ass “counselor” dicks think something is wrong with his husband and son and tries to start a fistfight right there.
second possibility: dean is like yeah, my husband and son are ambiguous disordered, but i don’t love them any less <3 but the term he uses for ambiguous disordered is like, touched in the head or something. whatever it is, it’s so flabbergastingly not-the-polite-term-for-that-thing that the counselor’s jaw literally drops.
#spnwatch#dean goes yeah they're kinda [twirls his finger next to his ear and whistles]. smart as hell though. jack how are your grades#jack: i got a 100 on my math test!#dean: he got a 100 on his math test.
hey so. uh. i wrote the fic if anyone is interested :)
