Hey besties!! Just a few friendly notes for anyone planning to commission me!!! The previous pinned commission post will no longer be effective, starting today.
A./ For spicy / +18 art requests: please remember that I ONLY take those from people who are 18 or older. I won’t be making any exceptions, no matter how cool your idea is! Please be respectful about that, safety and boundaries first!
B./ If you need your piece done extra fast, please TELL ME beforehand! I’m a student with ADHD and a pretty full schedule, so I have to plan things carefully. Rush work is totally possible, I just need to know in advance so I can make it happen without burning out-
C./ References are your best friend. The more you can give me (especially if your character is from a fandom I don’t know), the easier it’ll be for me to capture them right! Moodboards, poses, outfit ideas, color palettes—everything helps!!
I promise to always communicate about timelines, progress, and any delays that might come up. Life happens, but I’ll always keep you in the loop!
And of course, thank you so much for your support and trust 🥹💛 commissions keep me going (and help me afford soup, coffee, and art supplies).
Let’s make cool things together!!!!
[EDIT: November 26th of 2025.]
🚫Quick Update on My Art Usage:🚫
(aka: I cannot believe I have to say this in the Year of Our Chaotic Lord 2025)
Tiny housekeeping moment 💖
Just a reminder that reposting my artworks (patreon's work included) anywhere—Discord, Pinterest, Tumblr, Instagram, your cousin’s paranormal cryptid forum etc—WITHOUT my permission is a big fat no. Nope. Non. Nein. Nuh-uh. Don’t do it.
Now, why am I writing this? Because apparently some people have the shameless confidence of a raccoon who broke into a bakery and are out here reposting works like it’s free samples at Costco (derogatory).
I don't care what's your bullshit excuse, it does not work on me.
Just because you can right-click something doesn’t mean you suddenly own it. This is not a medieval RPG where you loot everything not nailed down.
If you want to share my art:
Ask. Literally just ask.
I promise I don’t bite unless you repost without permission, then I absolutely will bite.
Moral of the story: Don’t steal from artists. Don’t repost without consent. Don’t make me turn into an Elden Ring boss because you couldn’t resist the ✨shiny picture✨.
"Spring After the Flare", Artwork from Someone living with an Overreactive Immune System
TW // body horror themes, skin conditions, scarring, skin picking mentions (censored because I don't want tumblr to boot me-)
For those who missed it or wondered where I disappeared to for a while, since January this year, I’ve been dealing with some really severe skin issues. What started as “weird irritation” turned into months of allergic reactions, inflammation, overactive histamine responses, pain, sleepless nights, impossibility of walking, swollen feet and hands, panic, dermatology appointments, and honestly… a very difficult relationship with my own reflection for a while.
Turns out my skin/system absolutely despises primrose oil. Also alcohol. And by “dislikes alcohol” I mean I cannot even let a drop touch my skin without my body trying to start a small war against itself apparently.
Add stress, studies, work, compulsive skin picking/overgrooming tendencies, and the cycle became brutal for a bit.
This piece started at the very beginning of all of it.
Back then, my skin felt foreign to me. Like it was splitting open into roots and nerves and rot and something overgrown. I felt trapped inside my own body in a way that’s very hard to explain unless you’ve experienced chronic skin issues yourself. Every flare-up felt monstrous. Every mirror became forensic analysis because I do still love anayzing body and I think I just dissociated from the fact said-body was in fact mine. Every texture, every spot, every mark suddenly became impossible not to see, I took pictures, made a timeline, compared each pic to see if some marks had changed, if the swelling had gone down... I thought, and I know this sounds so freaking dramatic, I was growing out stuff like in The Last Of Us, and I was becoming a sort of Clicker thingy. Not even exagerating, I was feeling like something was growing inside my skin and coming out of me through my pores.
So I poured it into art instead because I could not let this stay in my head. It needed to get out.
Weirdly enough… I finished this piece after my latest dermatologist appointment, at a point where things are finally calming down. Healing. The scars and marks are fading little by little. My skin still isn’t perfect, and maybe it never will be, but it no longer feels like I’m actively losing a battle against myself every day. (Shoutout to violet oil for genuinely carrying me through this entire ordeal like a holy relic.)
This isn’t the usual spooky memes, shitposts, fandom screaming, or creature content I normally post here. But this piece became very personal to me in a way I didn’t expect when I first sketched it months ago. It ended up documenting a period of exhaustion, shame, frustration, and recovery all at once.
I think sometimes the body becomes a haunted house for a while. And sometimes healing is just… learning how to live inside it again gently.
[Breaking News: Local Art Gremlin Has Too Many Projects! Art/Acc Update!]
Hello my lovely people!!!🌿
If you’ve noticed I’ve been a little quieter lately, first of all thank you for still being here, and second of all: updates! Because a lot has been happening on my end!!!! GOOD STUFF!!!!
Health update first, because that one has been a whole SAGA. My skin and health issues are finally settling down!!! They’re not completely gone (my skin still decides to throw the occasional dramatic flare-up because apparently it enjoys chaos), but the big win is that I can actually sleep again!!! Which honestly feels revolutionary! Sleeping? In this economy? Groundbreaking!
So that’s the major good news!
The other news is that life suddenly decided to become very busy!
Right now I have driving lessons and appointments about five times a week for a few hours/day, which means I spend a lot of time either learning to operate a vehicle like a responsible adult… or recovering from the stress of learning to operate a vehicle like a responsible adult. I am sorry but I'd rather go to a medieval joust than drive a car. And that says a lot cause I'm scared of horses-
On top of that, as you may know I’m in my second year of university, which apparently means more classes, more homeworks, and more moments of wondering why I signed up for this, AGAIN (spring is HELL exam-wise).
But there are also some exciting things happening behind the scenes!!!
For now I’m putting my art Patreon on a small pause. I’m not abandoning it at all, but my time and energy are currently focused on a few big projects and I do not want to do "low energy" content for you peeps!
One of those projects is editing two books. Yes. My books. The ones I’m planning to publish. Which still feels a little surreal to even write.
The writing account I started has also been going really well, which makes my little writer heart very happy!!! You can find me at @melhyan-writes, especially if you like dark academia and writers memes!!!
I’m also currently the lead moderator for a Star Wars Jedi: Fallen Order / Jedi: Survivor free digital fan zine that I’m hosting (my first ever!!!!), which has been another really exciting (and slightly chaotic) project behind the scenes!!! The zine will be released November 2026, Mod applications are open during this month of March, so I’ve been busy setting everything up!!! Aka preparing the Discord server, organizing things, preparing promotions, and generally making sure the project gets off the ground smoothly! You can find all the zine news on this account @thehiddenpatharchive and its bluesky!!!
And, because apparently I do not know how to rest, I’m also working on finalizing stuff for my Etsy shop where I’ll be selling things like social media templates, writers’ workbooks, writing resources, and creative tools for other writers and creators!
On top of all that AGAIN, nature decided to get involved. We had two tempests back to back as I said in previous posts, which did quite a bit of damage to the garden and outdoor spaces here. Now that spring is arriving, I’ve been outside a lot helping repair things, clean up, replant, and generally bring everything back to life!
So yes… I am currently a very busy little bee??????🐝
But, and this is important, I have been creating! I do have a few finished pieces, and I’ve queued some posts, so you’ll still see art appearing here. I’m just not producing at my usual chaotic gremlin speed for a little while!
Spring started and life basically said, 'Here, have everything at once' LMAO. Soooooo if I’m a little slower around here for a bit, that’s why!
Thank you all for being patient with me and for continuing to support my art and my projects while I juggle approximately twelve creative lives at once. I appreciate it more than you know!
Now I’m going back to the chaos.
— your local overworked artist, writer, and gardening goblin!
[BG3 Unpaid Watercolor Commissions Last Update: The Three Commissions have been paid!]
Hey everyone!!! Quick update so this can be put to rest properly on my end! (Sorry I just got out of my batcave, I had health issues flare-ups recently + exam week + we had electricity and internet issues cause of tempest Nils and also tempest Pedro in my region!!! A tree fell on a house and I had to go help clean up for a few days, spent more time than usual on the road cause the main ones were flooded as well so I was BUSY-)
I’ve been contacted by the client a bit ago and the payment for the portraits has been sent and settled. So from a practical standpoint: this situation is closed. The work was paid for, the files are being handled privately, and that’s that.
As I said before, I still won’t be sharing hate asks, callouts, usernames, or encouraging any kind of dogpiling toward the person involved. I meant that then and I still mean it now.
Please don’t send them hate on my behalf if you know who this is about or if you think you know who this is about.
I’ll be updating the original posts accordingly so people know it’s been resolved!
I do want to say thank you though! Thanks to everyone who boosted the posts, left kind words, checked in on me in DMs, or just… showed up with support: I saw you!!! It meant more than I can put into words, especially given the timing in my personal life right now! (aka big health issues and exams/homeworks kicking me in the teeth X'))))))
Some of you even (+10 peeps!!! WHICH IS CRAZY (in a wholesome sense)) offered to pay out of your own pocket to fix a situation that wasn’t yours to fix + proposing x3 times what was owed by them, which honestly had me staring at my screen like 🧍♀️???!!!!! in the most touched, emotional way possible. I didn’t accept (and couldn’t), but the gesture alone meant a lot to me!
To the person/people who stepped in behind the scenes to nudge things toward being resolved, thank you. You didn’t have to involve yourself/ves at all, and I want you to know I really mean it when I say it made a difference. I truly believe that without that push, this wouldn’t have been solved at all, or at the very least not anytime soon. So… yeah. I see you, I appreciate you, and I’m very grateful you chose to step in the way you did! Thank you again!🤍
Also I have to laugh a little because… the timing???? To the 40+ new peeps who followed me right in the middle of this mess: hi ???😭 I promise my blog is usually art, unhinged tags, and nonsense! Not commission saga episodes! You all really pulled up like it was Season Finale week LMAO- But jokes aside, welcome. I hope you stick around for better, calmer, more fun reasons!
If there’s any “lesson” to squeeze out of this whole thing, I guess it’s just: Be careful mixing friendship, community, 'tight-knit supportive groups' and commissions. Even when vibes feel safe. And especially then.
Protect your time, your work, and your boundaries early, because good intentions don’t always prevent messy outcomes. Consider this your friendly neighborhood cautionary tale… sponsored by emotional damage and BG3 watercolor portraits X'D
Anyway!!! Thank you again for the support, the kindness, and the patience while this got sorted! We can now return to our regularly scheduled programming: art, characters, chaos, and soup-level comfort posting!
All is settled on my end! thanks once again peeps for the support!🤍
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Signups for Baldur's Gate Gift Exchange are open! Enjoy.
Signups open: 9 am Monday 9 February
Signups close: 12 midnight Sunday 8 March
Assignments given: Monday 9 March (after hand matching by the mods)
Default deadline: 12 midnight Friday 29 May
Assignments due: 12 midnight Friday 12 June (end of day)
Work Reveals: Monday 15 June. Since reveals won't happen until every participant has at least one complete gift, reveals may be delayed until this happens.
Author Reveals: Monday 22 June (one week after work reveals).
If you would like to, please share the exchange link with other fans. Both Baldur's Gate I/II and Baldur's Gate III are welcome.
This year, we'll try leaving the works anonymous for a week after the work reveals, so there can be some guessing fun.
[Health update (and a small sorry for going MIA… again, I know 😭)]
So yeah hi hello, I kinda vanished for a bit those past days and I wanted to explain why instead of just reappearing like a cryptid in the fog (again).
TMI note: This post contains mentions of allergic reactions, skin conditions, medications, hormonal/PMS issues, and general health stuff — just a heads up for anyone sensitive to that!!!
The past weeks/months have been… a Lot™️ health-wise. I had two months of cadmium poisoning, from mid-november to mid-january. That got cleared. Then, after the massive allergic reaction I had (the primrose oil incident from hell), my body basically kept spiraling instead of calming down for the past weeks. My skin freaked out, I had rashes, eczema flare-ups, cramps, feverish waves, exhaustion, the whole haunted package. I still have those.
It got intense enough that doctors wanted to run deeper tests these past few days, including autoimmune screenings. Lupus was even mentioned as a possibility at one point because of how invasive/systemic and BAD the reaction looked. So that was… mentally terrifying, not gonna lie.
Good news though: it’s NOT autoimmune, and not lupus either. Huge relief! But the overall inflammatory response + pain + fatigue + skin reactions were still serious enough that they wanted to rule everything out.
Just to reassure everyone: this is literally just a huge, horrifying allergic reaction, nothing “deeper” or chronic beyond that. I’m staying under treatment with antihistamines, painkillers, muscle relaxants, creams, the whole squad, and trying to rest as much as I can. It'll take a few weeks for my body to get back to normal but I’m finally starting to get back into things now that my skin is calming down and I’m functional enough to work from home again, still slow, but human-shaped at least 😭
Add work, school, commissions, being in and out of doctor appointments… and yeah. Time and energy have been a bit shredded lately!
And to put the cherry on top of the cursed cake: PMS this month is being brutal. The allergic reaction basically drop-kicked my hormones off a cliff. I am passing out, can't eat properly sometimes, cannot really sleepsleep, everything hurt, emotions on max volume. Love that for me X'D
Skin-wise it is getting better (slowly but surely 🙏). Flares are less intense, healing is happening, it’s just taking time, especially on my legs.
Sleep, however? Absolutely haunted. I sleep like 3–4 hours max, wake up 5 times a night, itching or cramping or just existing in goblin mode staring at the ceiling. Fully nocturnal ghoul energy.
So if replies, comms, posts, or messages have been slower, that’s why. I’m doing my best while my body runs a horror DLC I did not consent to installing. I'm genuinely sorry I'm taking this much time. I usually am never sick and this is the first time I've been sick like this in a WHILE (last time was when I got 5 rounds of Covid).
Thank you for being patient with me, genuinely!!!🖤
TW: Exposure to enchanted Fey tittage. Nudity (tasteful, but she WILL bite you).
Happy Valentine’s Day to all who celebrate and a very merry, slightly threatening, moss-covered Happy Capitalist Bloodletting Day to those who don't!!!💘🫀🌸
Valentine’s this, Valentine’s that - whatever. In the Feywild, we call it “The Vernal Devouring”: the day you gift your beloved bones, teeth, and the still-beating metaphysical concept of your heart wrapped in moss and silk (honestly that's a VIBE).
Whether you’re spending today kissing your beloved, pining dramatically, third-wheeling your friends, or being emotionally adopted by a fictional character (no judgment, I live there), I hope your day is soft, sweet, and just a little unhinged!! I made this piece of my Fey-touched menace Ar’lane to celebrate, because nothing says romance like soft pink devotion, ritual markings, and the looming implication that love is a binding contract witnessed by things that live under roots.
May your heart be full. May your standards be high. And may anyone who wastes your time be gently escorted into the woods and never heard from again (don't worry, I'll take care of it)!🌸
XOXO from me & my pink Fey disaster daughter
Happy Capitalist Romance Ritual Day 💘🌸🫀
hey! you shared your writing account a while ago and i totally forgot to bookmark/follow it 😅 could you send it again? i really wanna check it out and support you, i read your fics recently and i love your works!
Hey!! I’m so so sorry I’m only answering now Anon!!! Thank you so much for being patient and for reading my fics, it genuinely means the world!!!!
It’s totally fine you forgot, I actually changed my account recently because I’m planning to publish properly in the next few weeks/months, like actual books! HELLO LIKE PROPER ONES I AM UNWELL- I also spent way too long struggling to pick pen names that felt “right,” so honestly I get it completely????
Right now, I’m juggling three big projects and they’re all very chaotic but I love them:
The cyber vamps: you’ve probably seen some snippets, it’s messy, glitchy, radioactive chaos, all the things I love.
The mortician guy and the sunshine baker: awkward, funny, painfully sweet. The mortician is socially awkward, a little dead-pan (pun very much intended, thank you-), the baker is pure sunshine, and somehow between baby showers, burials and wedding cakes, they just… fall for each other in the most ridiculous ways. Honestly, writing them makes me laugh and cry at the same time.
The taxidermy girlie and the farmer: she’s OBSESSED with critters (like dangerously obsessed), he has a 'pest' problem on his farm, and she just barges in like, “I CAN HELP DON’T KILL THEM!” It’s chaotic, adorable, and their slow little romance is everything I didn’t know I needed.
It’s all a little messy, a little weird, a little rotten BUT I love these stories so much and I’m really excited to share them with people who get it!!💀🥐🦝
The updated account for my writings, other than fics aka real, to-be-published books is: @melhyan-writes !!
[Life Update???? This Post Is Sponsored By Sedation And Violent Winds, aka The Nils Tempest]
Hey y’all!! Quick life update because I’ve been a bit of a cryptid lately and my inbox is staring at me like I owe it money 😭
I’m currently catching up on DMs, messages, tags, and everything in between, so if you’re waiting on me I promise I’m getting there!! I’m really sorry I’ve been so quiet / inactive — the new meds I got put on for my health absolutely knocked me OUT. Like… sleeping most of the day (which RARELY happens otherwise), forgetting to eat, wandering around like a sentient blanket ghost levels of out????🧟♂️🧟♂️🧟♂️🧟♂️🧟♂️
I’m doing better now though!! Slowly re-entering the land of the living, drinking water, touching grass (begrudgingly), all that good stuff!
ALSO , Mother Nature decided to add a boss fight on top of that 💀 We’ve had a full-on tempest/storm situation in my region in France for the past few days. The winds have been going up to 160 km/h+ and my garden got absolutely BODIED by it!
House wifi went down in the chaos, so right now I’m running on my phone’s hotspot which is… let’s say temperamental, to stay polite????On top of that Tumblr's app just decided I don’t deserve notifications anymore for some reason??? Love that for me 😭
So if you need me / want a faster reply, feel free to poke me on Discord instead: the_wacky_soldier_
On the bright side, we still have electricity and heating, which I’m super grateful for, especially with this weather going feral outside and the fact the cities close to mine don't have electricity AT ALL and are flooded ;-;
Thank you all for the patience, the kindness, and for sticking around while I’ve been in hibernation mode 🫶 I’m crawling back slowly but surely!!
[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]
Quick little PSA about the situation with the client because I’ve seen the asks, the DMs, the tags, the vibes™️and I FINALLY have some time in my schedule to answer DMs and all between exams!💚
First: I get the anger.
I’m hurt, I’m disappointed, I’m frustrated, and yeah, I’m fricking angry too. This situation blindsided me, I thought this was a friend, and it sucks in a very specific “this didn’t have to happen” kind of way. So I understand why people are upset on my behalf, why it feels unfair, why it hits a nerve, especially in an art community where trust and mutual respect are supposed to matter.
That said, I won’t be sharing asks, anonymous or not, that literally insult, mock, or dogpile the person involved.
Not because I think people are wrong for feeling upset. Not because I’m trying to protect someone from consequences. And definitely not because I’m suddenly okay with what happened.
It’s because while I can’t speak for what’s going on in their head (obviously), I do know they see my posts. This person wasn’t a random stranger to me. They were someone I considered a friend. That’s part of why this hurts, and it’s also why I’m not interested in turning this into a public dogpile. I can be angry and disappointed and still care about someone’s wellbeing.
I don’t want to be the source of targeted distress, harassment, or vitriol for them, even when I’m hurt. I’m not interested in turning this into a spectacle or a public execution. That’s never been the point of me speaking up.
I spoke up for clarity. I spoke up because silence around unpaid work protects the wrong people and I spoke up because artists shouldn’t be quietly expected to eat the loss and move on. I’ve also seen people naming or speculating about usernames, groups, or “who’s involved.” Please stop. That’s not what this blog is for, and I won’t participate in that. There’s a line between accountability and cruelty, and I’m not crossing it.
So please, genuinely: Do not send hate. Do not harass. Do not go looking for someone to attack. Being angry on my behalf doesn’t require being an asshole to someone else.
You can support me without hurting someone. You can believe in supporting artists without dogpiling. You can be upset and still have basic decency.
I’m allowed to be upset. I’m allowed to set boundaries. I’m allowed to say “this wasn’t okay.” And I’m also allowed to decide how far this goes on my own blog.
I appreciate everyone who reached out with kindness, concern, support, or even just a “hey, I see you.” That means more than you probably realize. But please trust me when I say: I don’t want this to turn into a hate campaign. That’s not who I am, and it’s not what I want attached to my work or my space.
I also want to say this, because it genuinely made me tear up: the amount of support, kind words, and even people offering to cover the unpaid amount completely caught me off guard. I’ve never had that happen before, and it honestly meant more to me than I can put into words!! That said- as touched as I am, I can’t accept payment from anyone other than the original client. I know the intention is pure kindness, but I don’t want someone else to have to fix a mistake that isn’t theirs to fix. I don’t feel right letting my community carry the weight of someone else’s responsibility, no matter how generous or well-meaning the offer is. Please know that your support already helped more than you realize. The messages, the encouragement, the anger on my behalf, all that mattered. A lot. I didn’t expect it, and it genuinely carried me through a rough few days!!💚💚💚
That’s all. Take care of each other and of the artists you support!!
girl I am actually beyond PISSED OFF on your behalf because I checked your commission sheet following your post. HELLO????? that means this BG3 scammer person owes you 60 EUROS???? SIXTY???? for the THREE BG3 watercolors??????
that is not a 'whoopsie forgot' amount, that is a conscious choice to not pay an artist amount!! this is NOT normal behavior, this is NOT okay????
especially knowing who this is, someone who’s constantly loud about mental health, boundaries, 'credit artists', community care, all that good buzzword soup, and yet SOMEHOW had no issue fully fucking you over, in their own circle while you had MASSIVE stuff on the side and then choosing silence????? I’m sorry but I genuinely don’t give a shit about 'enough spoons' shit when we’re talking about taking money-free labor from artists!
being tired does not magically turn unpaid commissions into an oopsie! struggling does not mean you get to scam artists like that!
anyway, just wanted you to know you’re absolutely not crazy for being upset, and this is 100% on them! you deserved better, full stop and i hope karma gets to them for abusing your kindness, work and time like that.
[BG3 Unpaid Watercolor Commissions Part 3: Update!]
[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]
Ooookay first of all, I feel the protective rage and I appreciate it so much 😭💛! It means a lot to know people are seeing this clearly and going “no actually this isn’t okay”, so thanks Anon!!!
That said, small correction so the facts stay clean (because I’m trying very hard not to turn this into a telephone game): it would have been 60€ outside of a sale, but these were done during a promo where a portrait was 5€/portrait, instead of 20€/portrait.
So what’s owed is 15€, not 60€. For the three comms in total.
And like… yes, 15€ is “smaller,” but it’s still unpaid work. It’s still three watercolors. It’s still time, energy, materials, and trust. Unpaid doesn’t magically become fine because the number is lower...
I also want to be really clear about where I stand emotionally, because I don’t want my calm tone to be mistaken for indifference: I am hurt. I’m disappointed. It sucks, especially given the values they’re publicly loud about in their VP community/BG3 community. But I’m not wishing them harm, I’m not trying to sic anyone on them, and I’m not interested in a public stoning.
The door is genuinely still open. If they want to reach out and fix this, they can. This could still end in a normal, adult way. I’m choosing to believe (or maybe trying to believe) this wasn’t rooted in ill intentions, even if the ghosting and scamming hurt like hell. They are not blocked from my side and if they chose to reply, the door is open.
What I do hope, sincerely, is that they don’t treat other artists or people in their circle the way they treated me. If anything, I hope this is a moment they learn from and grow from, because that’s the only “karma” I’m interested in here, right now. Even if I do not end up being paid. As long as this type of behavior does not affect artists they reach out to in the future, I will be okay.
Just to be transparent: if there’s no reply or resolution, the Abdirak and He Who Was pieces (with some tweaks, don’t worry) will go up for sale on my websites.
The OC won’t, obviously. It’s theirs, and I’m not interested in profiting off someone’s character, even in a situation that hurt me. Boundaries still exist, even when I’m frustrated. I'm annoyed and hurt, not an asshole X')
Thank you Anon!!! Thank you for being angry on my behalf, for validating that I’m not overreacting, and for caring this much!!!!🫂💛 I see you, even if I’m trying to keep my own fangs politely tucked away right now!!!
I don't think there are words strong enough to express how heartbreaking it is to realize that the client who owes you three BG3 watercolor commissions is a BG3 VP mutual of mine, and someone who's inspired me for months....😭
Also I admire the grace you've shown in how you handled this. You gave the full context without ever dropping names or turning it into unnecessary drama, even though you would have been completely justified in doing so. Especially when it came to calling out people sharing Patreon work for free, which you were absolutely right about. I also really appreciated how clearly and repeatedly you asked people not to harass the client, even if they recognized them, and despite the hurt they did to you.
The way you chose clarity and honesty over spectacle says a lot about you, and I’m really sorry you were put in this position at all... I hope you'll find better moots in the future.<3
[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]
This honestly made me tear up a bit, not gonna lie 😭🫂 thank you so much for taking the time to write this Anon!!!!
I’ve been really overwhelmed (in a good way) by how kind people have been about this. So many of you reached out with support, reassurance, and even offers to cover the cost, which… I genuinely didn’t expect at all???? I can’t accept that kind of help, this is still work that was commissioned and the responsibility isn’t anyone else’s but the client's, but just knowing people cared enough to offer means the world to me!!!💛
I tried really hard to handle this in a way that didn’t turn into a dogpile or a spectacle, because that’s never been what I want. I don’t want harassment, I don’t want bullying, and I don’t want innocent people getting caught in the crossfire. I just wanted to be honest about my own work and my own boundaries, without throwing names around or making it uglier than it already is. So hearing that that came across… yeah. That matters a lot!!!
At this point, my message is out there. They know. The situation is clear. Their OC is up with the full context. If they want to reach out and resolve it, they absolutely can, the door isn’t locked, I haven’t blocked them, and I’ve never said I wasn’t open to a conversation. I’ve tried to leave space for communication, for explanations, for literally anything that isn’t silence.
I’ll be honest though… I’m not holding my breath anymore. I’ve kind of had to make my peace with that, even if it sucks and I did not get paid for work. I’m doing my best to believe this isn’t coming from malice or bad intent, because I don’t actually think it is. I don’t think they woke up one day and decided to hurt me on purpose. I think this is more about avoidance, discomfort, not knowing how to deal with the situation, and choosing silence because it feels easier than facing it.
But even when it’s not malicious, it still has an impact. Silence doesn’t make the problem go away, it just leaves it hanging, and that weight ends up falling on me. That part is out of my hands. I can’t force someone to communicate, and I can’t resolve something alone.
But messages like yours really remind me that this community isn’t just that!! There are good, supportive, thoughtful people here, and I’m really grateful for that!!!!🖤✨ Here’s hoping for better moots, better energy, and fewer unpaid watercolor horrors in my future 😭💀 The last and third unpaid artwork is He Who Was so I cannot wait to post him, despite the fact it is an unpaid watercolor comm... T-T
[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]
Sketch from a full watercolor portrait - this is the second piece in a set of three (all unpaid to this day, February 2nd of 2026.).
PSA: If you happen to recognize the character or know who they belong to, please don’t reach out to them or send any messages or hate. If they want to contact me, they know how to do so.
For the folks who asked about this, here’s the context down below (tw: kinda long????).
Small note before all of this: since a few people have reached out (some asking for context, some just worried) & I want to briefly explain what happened. This honestly isn’t something I wanted to have to talk about at all, and I really hoped it could’ve been resolved quietly and privately before it ever got to this point… but here we are sadly. ^^'
It has been weeks, months at this point, and nothing has changed.
I also want to be very clear about one thing before I go into the context: I’m not going to drop their @ or publicly name all the people involved. Even though what happened and how I was treated wasn’t okay at all, I still don’t want anyone getting bullied or dogpiled because of this. That’s not something I’m interested in doing, and it’s not the kind of behavior I want attached to my work or my space.
I want to add a bit of context to this, because none of this came out of nowhere.
A while back, there was a situation in a group chat that both me and the client were part of. I calmly spoke up when someone shared NSFW, paywalled Patreon content from an artist I know from here, for free, in that space. I said it wasn’t okay, because it isn’t, and I still stand by that. I will not apologize for that.
What followed was uncomfortable, at best. I received backlash, a lash-out from that person’s partner, with a lot of negativity directed at me in the public chat, including in private DMs later. (They later acknowledged that they shouldn’t have acted that way, for what it’s worth.) What bothers me wasn’t that I couldn’t “handle myself”, I can and I will, but that this happened in a group that is very vocal about supporting artists, caring about mental health, and condemning bullying… and yet, when it actually happened, no one intervened or said anything.
The client was present in that space. Later on, we talked privately, and they told me that the situation shouldn’t have happened, that the negativity toward me wasn’t okay, and that I was right to have spoken up. We also did discuss the group, their conflicted feelings about said-group and the situation at length. After that… contact stopped. Despite them being active elsewhere, I received no replies about stuff to modify, no payment, no timeline, not even a “I’ll get back to you by X date” or a cancellation. Just silence.
I’m sharing this also as a reminder/warning to be careful with tight-knit groups and “inner circles,” especially in creative spaces. A lot of people are very vocal about values like accountability, artist support, and kindness... until those values are tested within their own circles. Sometimes it’s not out of hate (hopefully), sometimes it’s avoidance, discomfort, or choosing not to rock the boat. But it can still hurt, and it can still have consequences.
If you recognize the character, the situation, or think you know who this might be about, please don’t reach out to them, do not send messages or direct any hate their way. That’s not what I want, and I don’t want anyone harassed. They’re all adults, they know the situation, and they have the option to reach out privately if they choose to.
This whole explanation? It wouldn’t exist if the commission had been paid or even if there had been a real conversation about it. I love my community, my followers, and making art for people, and drama is literally the last thing I want to deal with... but months of silence over this amount of unpaid work left me no choice but to share some context. Accountability starts with the person who owes, and that’s where it belongs.
I’m genuinely sorry this has to be aired in this way, but I also won’t apologize for being honest about the reality of the situation. The person who owes knows what’s going on and chose to remain silent still to this day, and I can’t fix that or make it disappear by keeping quiet. You can’t call yourselves ‘pro artists’ or ‘supportive of creators’ if this kind of thing happens in your circle and nobody steps up, that’s just the truth, and I do not have to soften it to make people feel comfortable.
I’m sharing this because my work, my time, and my energy matter too, especially since I have been dealing with heavy health issues this whole time and exams, + caregiving and hanging on by a thread. I’ve tried giving space, reaching out, and waiting patiently for weeks, I have given options and solutions, all of which were ignored. And now the context is out there. I just want to be transparent, protect my own work, and hopefully help remind people to actually live up to the ‘supportive’ values they claim, especially in their own circles.
I also want to acknowledge my own part in this. I should have asked for half of the payment upfront, and I didn’t. That was my decision, and I take responsibility for it. I’ve been fortunate in the past and never had someone walk away without paying me, so I genuinely didn’t anticipate this happening, especially with someone I considered a friend.
And to the client, because I know you will read this: if this is about money, please just talk to me. I can work with you, we can split the price into smaller payments over time, I can apply percentages off, or we can figure out something that actually works for you. I just… need a response. If this is about health, life stuff, or anything else going on, that’s okay too, I get it. Life happens. I’m not trying to be harsh or rigid, I just need clarity and answers.
The reason I’m asking isn’t just because of the commissions themselves or just a money issue. I’m caring for an elderly person who has health issues all on my own as I told you, and on top of that I’ve been dealing with my own medical stuff (two months of cadmium poisoning, a recent anaphylactic shock, still sorting out the fallout from meds). I’m also a student with exams, homework, and ADHD, so I really need to know what’s happening so I can schedule, plan, and make sure I’m not falling behind on literally everything else while trying to manage this situation.
I’m not some heartless hag, I really do care and I want this to be resolved calmly. I just need communication. Even a simple message like “here’s a timeline” or “here’s what’s going on” is enough. I can adjust, I can compromise, I can figure things out with you, that’s not the issue. The issue is that I don’t have the information I need to plan my life, my health, and my work around this. Nor the clarity about what is going on or if I will get paid.
So, if you see this: please just tell me. Tell me what’s going on, what’s realistic, and what works for you. I promise I’m willing to be flexible and understanding, I’m asking for honesty and clarity. That’s literally all. I’m not mad, I’m not trying to punish you, I’m just asking for answers so I can breathe a little easier and get my life in order and get this resolved. Even though this has been awkward, this is still art I made for you, with time and effort I put in thoughtfully. Please do find the energy to give clarity and help solve this situation.
THEDAS CLEARANCE SALE OPEN!! DRAGON AGE THEMED COMMISSIONS WITH 20% OFF!!!
IT IS FEBRUARY 1ST!!!!!
The Chantry bells are ringing, Skyhold is understaffed, and I am officially opening the gates!
To celebrate my first (unhinged, emotional, life-altering) playthroughs of Dragon Age II and Dragon Age: Inquisition, I am running a 20% OFF Dragon Age commission event for the entire month of February!! Yes. The whole month. Feb 1st to Feb 28th. Both days included. No loopholes, no Fade trickery.
Your wallet may protest. Your conscience may whisper “is this wise?” But your favorite canon characters (and your OCs) are ready to live their best, messiest, most questionable lives in art form!
✨ What’s included in the sale:
Dragon Age Origins, DA2, DAI, and Veilguard
Canon characters, OCs, or canon/OC combinations
Soft, dramatic, silly, feral, emotional, or Iron Bull-level chaos
Sketches, lineart, flat color, full color—check the commission sheet here to see how the 20% applies!!
✨ Yes, +18 commissions are included.
However (and this is me putting on my Seeker voice for five seconds):
You must actually be 18+
No, I will not explain to your parents why they’re paying for “nsfw artistic studies”
(this has happened once. it was enough.)
If you are seeking:
Blorbos behaving badly (nsfw or not)
Canon characters in deeply questionable situations
OC hijinks in Skyhold, Kirkwall, or the actual mud of the Hinterlands
Dramatic poses, over-the-top expressions, yearning, sweat, regret, or chaos
…I am here. Stylus ready. Judgment minimal.
🗝 How it works:
DM me with your idea, characters, screenshots, and vibes
(+18 verification required for nsfw!)
You can also contact me on Discord: The_wacky_soldier_ (notifications behave better there)
I quote your commission with the 20% Dragon Age discount!
You pay half of it → I draw → chaos is safely contained within art
This is Day One of the event, besties. Take your time, browse the commission sheet, let the brainworms cook. Skyhold is open, Kirkwall is on fire (as usual), and I am the worst saleswoman Thedas has ever known but I will draw your blorbos with love!!
Buy now, regret slightly later & laugh forever!!!!🗡️✨
Hi there! I'm sorry if this is a weird thing to do or ask, but I saw your (stunning!!) Abdirak portrait sketch and was deeply saddened to see that the commissioner had stiffed you on the bill.
As an Abdirak mega fan myself, I would be happy to cover the cost of this commission to at least help you make up for some of the labour lost. If I understand your commission sheet right for a colour portrait, this would be in the range of €20? Please do send me a DM with details if you'd be okay with that. I hate seeing artists scammed, but scammed into drawing my favourite guy really grinds my goat.
[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]
I honestly didn’t expect this at all, so I’m a little emotional while typing this 🥹🫶💜💜💜
I’ve had a few people reach out the past few days after seeing the unpaid sketch post, some with really kind messages, some checking in, and even a couple offering to help cover the cost of the unpaid commission.
That genuinely caught me off guard. I’m just a random little ghoul on the internet making spooky art and terrible jokes half the time, so the fact that people cared enough to reach out like this… yeah, I’m a bit 🥲💔💖 about it????
I want to say thank you to you peeps, and to you @ankhegs-in-my-salad!! T-T🫶💜💜💜 The support, the empathy, the “hey this isn’t okay” energy, it all means more to me than I can properly explain right now. Seeing people value artists’ time and labor like this is incredibly comforting, especially on days where it feels… a bit rough.
That said, I don’t feel comfortable accepting payment from anyone who isn’t the original commissioner. As generous and kind as those offers are, it wouldn’t feel right to put that on people who weren’t involved. This isn’t something I want others to fix for me, even if the instinct comes from a really good place!🖤
Please know that the kindness itself already helps. A lot!!!! The messages, the concern, the solidarity, all of that counts more than you probably realize. You don’t need to do anything more than that.
Thank you for being so gentle peeps, for caring about artists, and for making this weird spooky corner of the internet feel a little safer and warmer than I expected today 😭🫶🦴
Respectfully, you should expose the client refusing to pay you the THREE bg3 commissions. I don't care who they think they are, what their position is in the fandom but this is absolutely horrible they're treating you like garbage and like you're disposable.
You have every right to say who this. And the fact they're being like this while you're really sick, they deserve to be exposed. If they don't want you to say their name, they should act and pay you for the services you did for them. They're dishonest and I hope they get exposed for their bad behavior.
[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]
Thank you for caring Anon🫂I really do appreciate the support and the anger on my behalf! it means a lot to know people see that this situation isn’t okay and aren’t brushing it off.
That said, I want to be clear: I don’t want anyone bullied, dogpiled, or harassed in my name. Even if what’s happening is dishonest and hurtful (because yes, it is), I don’t want the outcome to be people getting attacked or dragged publicly. Even though what they are doing to me is absolutely not okay.
I’m also going to close anon asks about this after this message, because some people have started sending names or guessing who they think the client is... and that’s exactly what I want to avoid. I don’t have the energy (or the health tbh) to manage that kind of fallout, and I really don’t want innocent people caught in the crossfire.
I shared this to be transparent and to set a boundary, not to start a callout campaign. Right now, the focus for me is protecting my work and my peace.
I reached out to the client recently to let them know I’ll be posting the rest of the artworks. I assured them I won’t tag or name them, but their OC is part of the set and is recognizable (especially in the bg3 fandom and its VP community, since it's an OC they post them often), which means people may make the connection regardless. I still want to post my work, because it is my work and I spent time on it. At this point, the client is aware of the situation and they have the opportunity to handle this privately, if they want to.
Please know I see the support, and I’m grateful for it!!🖤 I just need to handle this in a way that doesn’t make things worse for me or turn into harassment for someone else. Thank you for understanding and respecting that.🦴✨
So!! I'm gonna take a small break on here since I'm not opening requests until the month of march + I'm gonna have the Dragon age sale over my art acc!! But before I go, here are some news!
Good news first: I got officially cleared from cadmium poisoning a few days ago as you peeps know!!🎉✨ and let me tell you… it has been amazing to exist without constant stomach cramps and the full “body is betraying me hourly” experience????? 10/10, would recommend being un-poisoned??????? So far I have no damage caused by said-poisoning and to me that's a miracle cause two months of hell is CRIMINAL-
HOWEVER. Because balance is a lie and 2026 has beef with me personally—
I got recommended primrose oil capsules (skin stuff, eczema, body-focused skin chaos, I’ve talked about it on my art acc) and I was like “sure! why not! let’s heal!”
My body said ABSOLUTELY NOT and I ended up in the ER with ✨anaphylactic shock✨ because the fatty/linoleic acid in them caps decided to throw hands with my hypersensitive/reactive skin system. When I say anaphylactic shock, I mean the full package: red all over, throat swelling, bloodshot eyes, eczema flaring violently over my hands and feet (and under them 😭), the whole allergic bingo card. My immune system saw primrose oil and chose violence.
I love that I was cleared from literal heavy metal poisoning just in time to get taken out by a FLOWER OIL during my exams weeks. Incredible character arc. Defeated cadmium? Easy. Taken down by primrose oil during exam season? Humiliating.
I’m okay now, just wiped out and a little loopy, and once I’m no longer in KO mode I’ll get back to everyone on AO3 + respond properly to all the fic love and messages!!!💛 Thank you SO much for the patience, the kindness, and the general “please survive” vibes, I promise I’m crawling back to fandom as soon as my body stops trying new assassination methods X'D
Anyway if anyone needs me I’ll be drinking water, side-eyeing supplements, and telling 2026 to calm down 😌✨
[Reblogging this from my SW acc but with ART STUFF context™ because I know people will ask:]
✨ The Dragon Age sale IS still happening!!!!✨
Nothing has been cancelled, delayed into the void, or sacrificed to the gods (unlike me). The February 1st DA sale is alive and well, I promise. I may be fragile, but my commitment to Dragon Age blorbos (and the bit-) is eternal!
That said, yes, I am still dealing with the aftermath of the anaphylactic shock, which means I’m currently operating on low battery / Windows 98 mode! I’m okay!! Just wiped out, mildly haunted, and trying not to look at supplements like they personally wronged me (they did, primrose oil count your DAYS)-
If you’re waiting on a DM / reply about commissions: I’m so sorry for the silence!! Between exam season and the very unexpected weekend side quest of “go to the hospital actually because you cannot breathe”, my timing was… not ideal. I genuinely did not plan on adding “ER visit” to my to-do list 😭
I’ll be DMing people directly as soon as my brain is fully back online and I'm done with today's exam!! Thank you so much for the patience!!!. You’ve all been incredibly kind while my body keeps trying experimental assassination methods!
Short version:
• Dragon Age sale = ✅ still happening
• Me = alive, recovering, slightly feral
• Replies/DMs = coming soon
• 2026 = on thin ice 😌✨
Thank you for sticking around, I’ll be back to drawing elves and bad life choices very soon!!!💛
