THE LEECH KING

one time i drank ant infested cola [ robin / jonathan / seth ] [ he / it ] [ 20s ] icon by neon-ufo

[mgvpachinko]

blogs going to be purely operating off a queue for a while. recent shit is getting me down and i realize i just kind of come here to feel bad and then spiral more n more

[pitbolshevik]

one day i will make a masterpost of all the shit T does to your junk of only to spare the dozens of young trans guys i see panicking about it the embarassment of having to ask a bunch of strangers if their dick is okay

[pitbolshevik]

fuck it im doing a cliffnotes version now:

-bottom growth varies widely. I've known guys who get barely any growth and I've known guys who end up with huge t-dicks (lucky bastards 🙄) it really just depends

-it feels weird at first, but it's not particularly painful. i would get mild pain occasionally when mine first started to grow but I've known a lot of guys who haven't had any pain whatsoever. it's really nothing worth panicking over, relax.

-it is extremely fucking sensitive when it first starts to grow. like EXTREMELY sensitive. i had to switch from boxer briefs to boxer shorts because the chafing was too annoying

-you are going to end up with a foreskin if you get any growth at all and you will have to learn to clean it. thankfully it's very easy to do.

-to put it bluntly, your junk will start to smell like balls. I've seen a lot of guys panic over this. it's normal, i promise you're fine

-atrophy is a bitch but there are things you can do to fix it. I've never tried any of them because i wasn't really big on bottoming to begin with, but I've talked to guys who have had success with it. just ask your doctor.

-while I've known a lot of people who have gotten dried out by T, i haven't really noticed any change myself so ymmv

-you will probably at some point have to compare notes with other transmascs because most doctors dont know shit from fuck about medical transition. it can feel awkward at first, but you'll be surprised how quickly it dissipates. it helps to have a handful of transmasc friends you're already comfortable with vs a bunch of random strangers.

[pitbolshevik]

-the "you will never be able to orgasm again" myth I've seen terfs spread is laughably untrue. don't worry. there was a bit of a learning curve for me figuring out how to jerk off since i was used to working with smaller equipment, but it's fairly easy to get the hang of

-you aren't going to be unable to find any sexual partners because of your bottom growth. that is a myth and a particularly cruel one at that. i have met people of every gender and sexuality, cis and trans, who have been very very into t-dick. you'll be fine, bottom growth is hot.

[pitbolshevik]

over a year later i actually want to say that you should get your atrophy looked at even if you aren't bottoming. i would recommend getting it checked out as soon as you notice it

I put it off because i wasnt using that hole anyway so yayyy who cares and now i suspect that it is the cause of some of the urinary issues I've been having (an incredibly stubborn uti and some retention) because it can effect your urethra and bladder, not just your front hole.

don't be dumb like me. get that shit taken care of.

[maotism]

i also put off getting my atrophy checked out because i wasn't bottoming at the time, and ended up with chronic pain issues as a result which i was able to fix through pelvic health therapy and a prescription from my doctor for estrogen cream

i was trying to figure out the atrophy and chronic pain for awhile, and wasn't able to make much progress because my doctor didn't know that much about atrophy and didn't give me any instruction beyond using the estrogen cream weekly before bed

what does chronic pain from atrophy look like? everyone is different, but for me it was chronic pelvic pain and cramping (it feels like bad menstrual cramping), especially after sex/orgasm

a few tips

you'll likely get prescribed estrogen cream with a plastic applicator to use 1-2x a week before bed — the applicator can be really uncomfortable, just using your finger or putting it on the tip of an (insertable) toy is fine, as long as you get it in there

if you're like me and really put off seeking treatment for atrophy until it was really bad — you can use it more often. my pelvic health therapist had me use it daily for two weeks when i started treatment

atrophy isn't just internal, it also affects some of the external tissues as well, making the tissues more sensitive, dry, and sometimes even painful. if this is the case for you, make sure you also use some of the e cream externally! my pelvic health therapist told me to do 1g internally, 1g externally, focusing on the areas that are more sensitive (for me that was around my urethra)

dilators! they make them in super small sizes that gradually go up in size. you kind of just put them inside you for like 20 min a day — you could use them like a sex toy, you could also just play on your phone and do smth else while they're inside you. practice breathing and relaxing around it. super helpful and i highly recommend if you feel comfortable using them, even if you're not into bottoming because the weakened muscles and tissues down there need blood flow in order to heal, and dilators help stretch those muscles and stimulate blood flow

[nlog-sama]

i dont know what love island is but from what ive heard its like danganronpa for people that use snapchat

[pocket-deer-belly]

sometimes i get a glimpse of the scale of the fucking. ISFF hateposting cottage industry and it's all deeply connected to a bunch of kiwifarmers and none of them seem to notice how deranged it is to do all of this. just post about a trans woman 24/7 set up multiple blogs to screenshot and track down everything on her. i wish you all a very happy crack your head on the pavement

[pocket-deer-belly]

no i don't think this random internet trans woman has ties to fucking jeffrey epstein are you all fucking shitting yourselves

[pocket-deer-belly]

it's like people nominally understand that minorities are subject to a lot of additional scrutiny, and like, if you pressed them on it they'd understand it's a lot harder to grow into a healthy well-rounded person under all that extra scrutiny, but if you point out that they're part of that process they're like. well she's a pedophile groomer menace to society [citation needed] we can't just like, NOT stalk her continuously

[maidslime]

remember how for a month or two someone kept saying isff ran an entire child trafficking business and was trafficking children to a bunch of other tumblr trans women and screamed about having proof, but whenever anyone pressed for proof, they'd never post any? And, tons of people just. Believed it? That a super poor trans woman somehow ran this Epstein level trafficking campaign to other trans women that lived in completely different continents?? it was so. obviously bullshit and transmisogyny. like, it's so obviously fake and transmisogynistic but all these "we're all faggots in the eyes of the state" people refused to see it that way.

you gotta remember, this all started cuz isff said misandry didn't exist. they called her a pedophile for months just because she said transandrophobia doesn't exist. all these posts people post as reasons to hate her were from december, she had been being called a pedophile throughout the summer and fall! she only made those posts in december, the transmisogynists already calling her a pedophile!

if you are "anti-isff" you are a transmisogynist. You hate trans women.

[reptile-ruler]

Sometimes a guy in a fanfiction has the ability to read someone's gaze with the same level of detail a wine taster can taste the wine

[reptile-ruler]

"He glared at him with anger in his eyes, but behind that longing and sorrow over things left unsaid, a subtle but desperate yearning for things to be different, and with just a hint of roasted nuts right at the end."

[harpieisthecarpie]

we've all heard about the male gaze in media, but we've yet to explore the equally important sommelier gaze

[reptile-ruler]

the only fun addition to this post

[msmimundo]

Girl that's literally Perry the platypus and Heinz Doofenshmirtz

[makeupafgplayer]

fighting game player who hates their game yet participates in it. curious!

[ecstasemen]

im developing cataracts in my right eye and ill be getting surgery for it on sunday so art might be paused for a bit next week ...

[butch-witches-deactivated202412]

to help OP out for each day it is healing I will invent a new minion hybrid.

day 1: if a minion and shrek had sex that produced viable offspring

[ecstasemen]

that's okay. you dont need to do that actually

[violasses]

"incel on estrogen" "amab socialization" "transwomen have male privilege" some of y'all really want to be nazis and it shows

[tankie-transfeminist]

Some of yall are Nazis and it shows.

[quitblamingnarcissism]

Your parents are not "narcissists". They're typical authoritarian assholes who treat you like their property because society allows them to.

Your ex boyfriend is not a "narcissist". He's a typical misogynistic douchebag who treats women like shit because society allows him to.

Your boss is not a "narcissist". They're a typical classist dipshit who thinks workers' entire purpose in life is to generate profit because society allows them to.

And even if they happen to be a "narcissist", that's not what gave them the power to get away with abuse.

So stop blaming mental illness and start blaming society's normalization of abuse. Stop acting like someone has to have a mental illness in order to do something cruel when ordinary people have been doing atrocious things since forever.

[gayleafpool]

you can always give that character psychosis and a personality disorder

[wetorturedsomefolks]

love island should introduce a "scheming eunuch" islander who is like a smart and completely asexual islander exempt from being kicked off or being made to participate in any challenges and they're just there to provide advice and be a sort of sounding board for the other islanders when they need a disinterested party to talk things through with. but the scheming eunuch has secret goals unbeknownst to anyone e.g. a cash prize for talking a certain couple into breaking up etc.

[zmpl]

before we start posting that july is gay wrath month let’s consider that july is disability pride month first and foremost. the “be gay do crimes” memes can wait

[zmpl]

before this post breaches containment and people start going “why not both hehehe” i want you to seriously consider the very long history of disabled people’s existence being pushed aside and/or seen as secondary. i promise you it’s not going to hurt to hold onto the memes and give disabled people space for visibility and celebration.

i say this as a disabled trans person whose trans identity is made front-and-center to the (mainly cis) people who know i’m trans but my identity as a disabled person is brushed off by the very same people.

[frankendykes-monster]

In terms of miscommunication regarding transmisogyny both on and off site, TME people are under the assumption that the modus operandi we operate on is one of "trans women have done nothing wrong ever" rather than identifying that the reaction to said wrong doing on a trans woman's part is extremely disproportionate to why TME people get. It's less "are you *sure* you want to say that?/here's why you're wrong: " and more "Let hellfire rain down on the enemy, let the rivers run red with their blood". Peep how crypto-fascists like Trilllizard and Cybersmith in the past on here have the "dignity" of being regarded as running gags for ongoing behavior versus ISFF fucking up once and getting treated as if she is emblematic of the end of us all.

[barbarajreadytoplay]

Listening to the radio while they report on the SCOTUS ruling yesterday that states can ban specifically trans girls and women from girls/womens sports programs. The people they interview: a trans boy with his cis mother and a trans man. The trans man says one of the things that hampers progress is "no one talks to us." Idk man the radio station didn't talk to any trans women, they talked to you, a trans man. Seems like they are pretty willing to talk to you and not the people this ruling actually directly affects.

[autismking]

feel the need to add: trans men, if you are given these types of opportunities, to speak on trans rights (or losses thereof) over a trans woman who is more affected by them than you, it is your *responsibility* to decline and, if you’re able, suggest a trans woman instead. if you are asked to be in a leadership position in a queer/trans/progressive organization and there are no trans women in leadership positions there, it is your *responsibility* to either decline in favor of a trans woman or decline until they bring in a trans woman.

if yall want trans women to stop accusing you of transmisogyny, stop speaking over them, stop shoving them out of the way, stop accusing them of being predators, stop complaining that you’re more oppressed than they are, stop being fucking transmisogynistic!!!!

[ispyspookymansion]

being a horror fan will have you saying sentences such as “i liked it a lot, super gross and sad”

[nothing-an-iratze-cant-fix]

Also true crime

[ispyspookymansion]

no thats a different and worse thing i am not associated with you

[filthburger]

people debate about whether wojaks carry fascism within them inherently or not, and yknow, maybe there's something to be said about how symbols work etc, and then you see a communist make a meme that features the one that's drooling with a dent in his head to represent someone who is incorrect, and you just kind of take a pause and ask yourself what the fuck is wrong with everybody

[hesperocyon-lesbian]

I’m certainly not the first transfem to bring this up but there really is something to be said about how tmes arguing with trans women will suddenly and irrelevantly bring up their own personal trauma as a way to shut down any disagreement. I.e. once the trauma has been laid out any further disagreement with their initial argument can be framed as diminishing or even celebrating their trauma. I’ve seen this happen too many times not to notice a pattern

[hesperocyon-lesbian]

Pretty funny that the friends of the person I made this post about spent the next several days doing literally exactly what I described re people not dropping everything to say “oh my god you’re so right, your trauma is so important that this calm explanation of transmisogyny you were loudly trying to shut down doesn’t matter at all to me”. And this of course gets framed as “abusing women”