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hi my name is Colton I'm 19 and fighting a daily battle with heds

[youngchronicpain]

I don’t think people really understand what it is like to be given a life sentence of pain, especially when you are so young. To know that every day, happy or not will be punctuated with pain. Every birthday, wedding day, funeral. What it means to know that the one most reliable part of your life will always be pain. 

[edsperegrine]

“to know that the one most reliable part of your life will always be pain“

Yeah. In some ways that is almost the worst part. Knowing that it will be there, without fail, every minute of every day of every week of every month of every year of the rest of your life.

[desnos]

[introvertunites]

If you relate to being an introvert, follow me @introvertunites​.

[desnos]

[cwote]

Do the things that make you feel like YOU.

Inspired by @transboysunited xoxo

[amortizing]

“I’ve survived a lot of things, and I’ll probably survive this.”

— J.D. Salinger (via naturaekos)

[sickly-tired]

I think sometimes maybe I’ve convinced myself I’m this sick and this tired and if I could only snap myself out of it and pull myself up by the bootstraps I wouldn’t feel like this anymore.

Maybe these things I can do are normal. Maybe this is how everybody feels. Maybe it’s all in my head. Maybe. Maybe not.

[unrependentbisexual]

I felt that

[m0os3]

chronic pain culture is having your ankles, knees, hips and elbows in excruciating pain but celebrating that your wrists and shoulders are fine

[anniespositivity]

For everyone who is currently hitting rock bottom again; for everyone who feels the sadness slowly coming back; for everyone who feels broken inside but there is no one who really cares; for everyone who simply feels unbelievably down, no matter why; this one is for you: You will get through this, darling. You have been there a thousand times and you always made it through. You can do it again. I know, it seems so unfair and I know, it hurts. But you are strong enough to make it through. You didn’t fight this battle over and over again just to stop now. So many good things are on their way to you, please make sure to be here to experience them. This too shall pass, my love. Take care of yourself and hold on just a little longer. You are capable and I am rooting for you.

[dct239394cvvd098dffgggp]

‘are you okay’ by normal people standards? no. by my standards? do you see me crying? no? then yea im good

[putrid-pink]

[funfetti-art]

Chronic Pain and Hypermobility 

[infernallesbian-deactivated2019]

Definitions of “I’m fine” from someone with chronic pain

I’m having a relatively low pain day

I feel normal but don’t want to bum you out

I’m hurting a lot but I don’t want you to think I’m complaining

I’m hurting a lot but you’re only asking to be nice so I won’t tell you that

I’m not doing fine but I’m trying to convince myself I am

I am too tired to tell you how I actually feel

It makes me too upset to tell you how I actually feel

I have forgotten what “fine” is so I use the word and I hope you don’t question it

This list is by no means complete, these are just what I find most often in my life

[memesandlaughs]

[slobbering]

[harmony-is-happiness]

[thoughts-in-me]