Sei (SeiKaze on AO3 and SquidgeWorld); queer, â , NB, neurodivers, german; my writing and me; Any pronouns; creativity, reading&writing, stories in all media, fansquealing, queer stuff; Original works can be found over at @pencilcoreandgreenleafheart
It's time for a masterpost of my stories, so I can pin it on my blog! XD
(All of my posted stories on AO3 + SqW)
Original stories will now be posted over on @pencilcoreandgreenleafheart !
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The little things
(Teenwolf, Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Soulmates, Pocket Soulmates, I call them Lysal, Stiles has a pocket werewolf, Not Beta Read, Also I have no idea where this will go, its just a little playground for me)
Part 1 AO3 (12/14)
Teen Wolf Bingo 2024
(25 short stories, some of them related, currently done 25/25)
AO3
The Fox And The Wolf
Part One: Dead On Time (Steter Bang 2023)
(Teenwolf, Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, (parts of) the Hale family, Time Travel Fix-it, magical!Stiles, two times Stiles is double the fun!, younger Stiles is called Mischief)
AO3 (6/6)
Part Two: The Wolf, The Bitch And The Oak Tree (Steter Bang 2024)
(Teenwolf, Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, (parts of) the Hale family, Time Travel Fix-it, magical!Stiles, two times Stiles is double the fun!, younger Stiles is called Mischief, Pack Alpha Peter Hale, Peter gets an Alpha spark)
AO3 (3/3)
Steter Week 2024
(7 short stories about magical!Stiles and Peter meeting again)
AO3
Battered, Bloody, Beaten - A MÄhrgent Meet Cute
(Teen Wolf, Chris Argent/Danny MÄhealani, pre-Chris Argent/Danny MÄhealani, Chris Argent & Danny MÄhealani, MÄhrgent, meet cute, ish, Not Beta Read)
AO3
Inn of the Multiverse (TW AU-fest 2023, WIP)
Part one: Inn of the Multiverse
(Teen Wolf, Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Derek Hale & Peter Hale, Cora Hale & Peter Hale, Cora Hale & Derek Hale, Cora Hale & Stiles Stilinski, Derek Hale & Stiles Stilinski, Alternate Universe, Multiverse Inn jumping through dimensions, magical!Stiles, Inn proprietor Stiles, Found Family, Not Beta Read)
AO3 (5/5)
I Can See What Could Be And I Want It
(Teen Wolf (TV), Peter Hale & Stiles Stilinski, Chris Argent & Peter Hale, Chris Argent/Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Chris Argent/Peter Hale, Chris Argent/Stiles Stilinski, Chris Argent & Stiles Stilinski, Peter Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Chris Argent, Talia Hale, Sheriff Stilinski (Teen Wolf), Claudia Stilinski, Derek Hale, Time Travel, Time Travel Fix-It, Kinda, Pre-Chris Argent/Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, You see their relationship at different times, future stetopher have a little daughter, Peter just sees and wants to have it all, Mostly Fluff, Happy Ending, multiple mentions of Peter burning and assorted tastes and smells, Steter Secret Santa 2023 (Teen Wolf), Steter Secret Santa 2023)
AO3 (5/5)
Train Ride
(Assassinâs Creed, The Old Guard, Gen, Desmond running from the Immortals, and meeting them in a train, It's Raett's fault!, bc her story is living rent free in my head, Desmond's POV)
AO3 (1/1)
Hello World (WIP)
(Teen Wolf, Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Stiles Stilinski, Peter Hale, Murderbot-AU, AI!Stiles, Ex-DatingSim-Character!Stiles, Programmer!Peter, Construct!Stiles, Might become a Crossover. I have actually no idea yet x"D, Rating Might Change, Not Beta Read, POV First Person, Of course the one kind of POV I normally don't like and don't use :D)
Tumblr + AO3 (1/?)
Tumblr prompts and other shenanigans
AO3
Not Afraid (+AO3)
(Teenwolf, Steter, Peter Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Derek Hale, The Pack (Teen Wolf), Not Beta Read, Not edited, Just a little something I'm writing for a friend as part of an advents calendar, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence)
(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11 of 11)
Steter Mini Bang 2022
AO3 (+ Tumblr announcement post)
Steter Week 2022
Tumblr + AO3
P&S P.I. - Potter and Snape, Paranormal Investigators
Case 1: Come Back with me (+AO3)
(Harry Potter, Teen Wolf, AU - Canon Divergence, AU - Crossover, Snarry, Steter, Slow Burn, for both of the planned pairings, Not Beta Read)
(Part 1-4, Part 5, Part 6+7, Part 8+9 of 9)
The How Steter Hijacked my NaNo2020 series:
(english on AO3/german on AO3, english on SqW)
- Loyality (Only on AO3)/Loyalität (Only on AO3)
(Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Peter Hale, Stiles Stilinski, The Pack Being Idiots, Stiles gets cursed, deaged Stiles but he's still himself, Stiles POV, Not Beta Read)
- Safe (Only on AO3)/Sicherheit (Only on AO3)
(Peter Hale & Stiles Stilinski, Peter Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Peter's a cat, Don't ask me why - the prompt's at fault!, Prompt Fic, POV Peter Hale, Cat!Peter, Living in the woods!Stiles, Not Beta Read)
- More than Coffee (Only on AO3)/Mehr als Kaffee (Only on AO3)
(Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Peter Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Meet-Cute, Alternate Universe - Coffee Shops & CafĂŠs, Not Beta Read)
- There are more things in heaven and earth⌠(Only on AO3)/Es gibt mehr Ding' im Himmel und auf Erden... (Only on AO3)
(Stiles Stilinski, Magical Stiles Stilinski, Magic School, Stiles Stilinski-centric, Magical Fox, Not Beta Read)
- Wolf Heart (+AO3)/Wolfsherz (+AO3)
(Teenwolf, Steter, AU, CW: Stalking, As in Peter stalks Stiles, Werwolf Mates, Not Beta Read)
(I linked Part 7 on tumblr since I didn't edit the older parts and part 7 is the only with links to all the other parts... đ )
- A Special Plant (+AO3)/Eine besondere Pflanze (+AO3)
(Teenwolf, Stiles Stilinski-centric, Magical Stiles Stilinski, Alternate Universe, How to grow a familiar)
- Imaginary (+AO3)/Imaginär (+AO3)
(Teenwolf, Steter, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Imaginary Friend, Stiles kinda has his powers under control already)
- Meet me in your dreams (+AO3)/Triff' mich im Traum (+AO3)
(Teenwolf, Steter, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, soulmates dreaming of each other)
- Exposed (+AO3)/Entlarvt (+AO3)
(Teenwolf, Steter, BAMF!Stiles, Clark Kent Effect, the pack is oblivious, Peter is not)
- Stubborn (+AO3)/DickkĂśpfig (+AO3)
(Teenwolf, The Witcher, Stiles Stilinski & Jaskier | Dandelion, Jaskier is Stiles uncle, I dunno how I got there, child!stiles, POV Jaskier | Dandelion, Fae heritage, Alternate Universe)
The way all the 2020s have done so far have been making me categorically against every new generation of tech that comes out is insane. Like I'm from a technological boom generation, saw the first portable phones, nokias & blackberries & flipphones etc, and the first smartphones, and the first ipods & ipads & tablets in general while still having cassettes & DVD & MP3 players around so I know how all of it work, I had computer classes in high school, I did the transition between home desktop computers to laptops and back to gaming computers. But then they started to put internet in your printer & microwave, everything has ads & AI now and every update is worst than the last. I literally loved technology and they ruined it
Every time you go in a public place and something ISNâT disgusting itâs because somebody cleaned it. Every time you feel comfortable using a public bathroom or sitting at a restaurant table or setting something on a gas station counter or playing on a playground itâs because somebody cleaned it.
Thank you to everyone who cleans the world, especially those who are underpaid and under appreciated.
thank you all gif makers everywhere, yes i WOULD like to live inside that half a second when my otp looked at each other forever on repeat, lovingly color-adjusted to make them even hotter than ever
They don't tell you this but besides the Beloved Mutual there's also the Longterm Follower who you don't follow back but they're always in your notes and you're kind of watching them. Checking on the longterm follower's bio every so often like turning over a log. She's trans now good for her
devastating getting to the end of a fic that fucking rules and thereâs no tumblr link in the notes. this isnât fair youve ensnared me body and soul. let me in to your house.
Expository writing is basically the drawing hands of prose fiction; it's clangingly obvious when it's done poorly, but it's even more awkward when you try to avoid doing it at all, and those who are best at it usually got to be that way because they have some kind of fetish.
Why "doing something relaxingâ does not help your anxiety
A lot of the time when people give advice intended to relieve anxiety, they suggest doing ârelaxingâ things like drawing, painting, knitting, taking a bubble bath, coloring in one of those zen coloring books, or watching glitter settle to the bottom of a jar.
This advice is always well-intentioned, and Iâm not here to diss people who either give it or who benefit from it. But it has never, ever done shit for me, and this is because it goes about resolving anxiety in the completely wrong way. Â
THE WORST THING YOU CAN DO when suffering from anxiety is to do a ârelaxingâ thing that just enables your mind to dwell and obsess more on the thing thatâs bothering you. You need to ESCAPE from the dwelling and the obsession in order to experience relief.
You can drive to a quiet farm, drive to the beach, drive to a park, or anywhere else, but as someone who has tried it all many, many times, trust meâitâs a waste of gas. You will just end up still sad and stressed, only with sand on your butt. You canât physically escape your sadness. Your sadness is inside of you. To escape, you need to give your brain something to play with for a while until you can approach the issue with a healthier frame of mind.Â
People who have anxiety do not need more time to contemplate, because we will use it to contemplate how much we suck.
In fact, you could say thatâs what anxiety isâhyper-contemplating. When we let our minds run free, they run straight into the thorn bushes. Our minds are already running, and they need to be controlled. They need to be given something to do, or theyâll destroy everything, just like an overactive husky dog ripping up all the furniture.Â
Therefore, I present to you:Â
THINGS YOU SHOULD NOT DO WHEN ANXIOUS
âGo on a walk
âWatch a sunset, watch fish in an aquarium, watch glitter, etc.
âGo anywhere where the main activity is sitting and watching
âDraw, color, do anything that occupies the hands and not the mind
âDo yoga, jog, go fishing, or anything that lets you mentally driftÂ
âDo literally ANYTHING that gives you great amounts of mental space to obsess and dwell on things.
THINGS YOU SHOULD DO WHEN ANXIOUS:
âDo a crossword puzzle, Sudoku, or any other mind teaser game. Crosswords are the best.
âWrite something. It doesnât have to be a masterpiece. Write the Top 10 Best Restaurants in My City. Rank celebrities according to Best Smile. Write some dumb Legolas fanfiction and rip it up when youâre done. Itâs not for publication, itâs a relief exercise that only you will see.Â
âRead something, watch TV, or watch a movieâas long as itâs engrossing. Donât watch anything which you can run as background noise (like, off the top of my head, Say Yes to The Dress.) As weird as it seems, American Horror Story actually helps me a lot, because it sucks me in.Â
âMasturbate. Yes, Iâm serious. Your mind has to concentrate on the mini-movie itâs running. It canât run Sexy Titillating Things and All The Things That are Bothering Me at the same time. (âŚI hope. If it can, thenâŚignore this one.)Â
âDo math problemsâliterally, google âalgebra problems worksheetâ and solve them. If you havenât done math since 7th grade this will really help you. I donât mean with math, I mean with the anxiety.Â
âPlay a game or a sport with someone that requires great mental concentration. Working with 5 people to get a ball over a net is a challenge which will require your brain to turn off the Sadness Channel.Â
âPlay a video game, as long as itâs not something like candy crush or Tetris thatâs mindless.Â
THINGS YOU SHOULD DO DURING PANIC ATTACKS ESPECIALLY:
âList the capitals of all the U.S. states
âList the capitals of all the European countries
âList all the shapes you can see. Or all the colors.Â
âList all the blonde celebrities you can think of.
âPull up a random block of text and count all the As in it, or Es or whatever. Â
Now obviously, I am not a doctor. I am just an anxious person who has tried almost everything to help myself.  Iâve finally realized that the stuff people recommend never works because this is a disorder that thrives on free time and free mental space. When I do the stuff I listed above, I can breathe again. And I hope it helps someone here too.Â
(Now this shouldnât have to be said but if the âdo notsâ work for you then by all means do them. Theyâve just never worked for me.)
I need to listen to music or run an audiobook any time I walk somewhere because otherwise the distance between my room and the mailbox (let alone between home and work) is too long to be alone with my thoughts.
My âyes, andâ just to say that all of these are great, and also some tips for turning non-brain occupying activities into brain occupying activities.
My tip for turning walks into a brain occupying activity (besides listening to an audiobook or calling somebody) is to learn a little bit about (depending where you walk) plant identification, bird identification, architecture, language, etc. if Iâm wondering what each of the 20 different plants in the garden I just passed by are, Iâm not thinking about other things. If Iâm in a neighborhood where many of the signs are not in my native language, trying to read them and figure them out is another way to keep my mind busy. (You can also do games like âlook for things that begin with sâ for any object, labeled or unlabeled.)
Similar with manual hobbies. I donât draw much, but I do a lot of fabric stuff. Straightforward stitching might not be great when anxious (unless Iâm doing e.g. a language practice audiobook at the same time), but puzzling out a difficult mending/repair project or planning/starting a new patchwork project (colors, shapes, how I want the pieces to go together, and even piecing them together if itâs a complicated one), can be very mentally occupying.
If I find my mind wandering will listening to audiobooks or podcasts, upping the speed usually helps. If my mind still wanders, then it probably means Iâm bored with the thing and should listen to something else.
I hope that helps someone!
Still trying to figure out how to make doing yoga more compatible with my brain âŚ
The above comment, about nature identification and manual hobby crafts, reminds me of a great piece of advice I saw from another post I think I reblogged somewhere:
Start a new sicktime hobby when youâre still feeling well.
Itâs great to do low-energy activities when youâre ill, or distracting activities when youâre anxious, but trying to find, start, or learn a new hobby when youâre already ill/anxious is really hard! So if e.g. you think youâd like to play a video game next time youâre anxious, install Steam and learn the controls for a game now! Donât wait til youâre in the middle of a panic attack!
Big Techâs Anti-Labor Playbook Has Come for Wikipedia
TLDR: In ten days last month, the Wikimedia Foundation fired the longtime lead developer of MediaWiki and disbanded the team whose entireâŚ
TLDR: In ten days last month, the Wikimedia Foundation fired the longtime lead developer of MediaWiki and disbanded the team whose entire job was to listen to volunteers. Most of the people they fired were union organizers. Wikipediaâs editors are now threatening to strike in solidarity. The Foundation is sitting on $296 million in reserves and a freshly profitable AI revenue stream. This is a confrontation with global implications.
It has been suggested elsewhere that if you are a Wiki Foundation donor, it would be a good idea to email and explain that this kind of behaviour will lead to you withholding future donations.