existential girl scout

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[s-unflow-r]

[theperksofbeingahugefuckingcunt]

Okay sometimes I see an AestheticTM post that’s kinda odd and I keep my mouth shut. But no more. This is too much for me.

[stardustings]

intrigued by how much recovery is self discovery at its core. we tend to think of recovery as an absence of the illness, but the experience has actually been more the opposite: an emergence of the self, overshadowing the rest. the illness has shrunk, almost imperceptibly, and it hasn’t been a linear journey but the more i become, the harder it is for the illness to return. i take up the most space now.

[spiirt-deactivated20191026]

Some cats in some funky sunglasses

[dianafyre]

My ex and I aren’t talking for two months. We’re on day two.

My dad is dying and idk how much time we have left with him. I feel like every day is a lottery draw and I know his number is coming up. It sucks to want to be in the future- to be in a place where we’re both not acting out in pain, but that future is gonna be so much darker for me. Idk. She’s the only person who has seen how damn much I’m struggling and it sucks to not have anyone else to relate to with my complicated feelings. At the same time, I hate putting that on her- like I just want her to live the normal happy life that she deserves. She put up with too much already.

Part of me wonders if I’ll have enough saved up at that point to just up and leave.

Part of me wonders if I’ll associate leaving here with leaving him.

Or if I’ll get the fresh start I’ve always wanted and finally begin The Rest of My Life. That sounds so healthy, and what I should want, but I don’t know where to go except deeper in this.

[missanndrist]

I started a personal blog. Follow if you're curious.

[twenty---something]

“It’s ludicrous to have these interlocking bodies and not…interlock.”

— Buffy the Vampire Slayer

[jodalovesstuff]

Anyone have the gif’s of the Chilean goalkeeper Christiane Endler lifting two of her teammates with ease.

I need them for um reasons lol

[moonlight-mery]

Let’s take a look at it one more time

[davidalleynes]

HELLO????? EXCUSE ME MA'AM???

[andhumanslovedstories]

mom was describing a tattoo a girl once took her to a back bedroom to show her, which was a fishing pole low on her pelvis with a line and hook that descended into her bush where a small clownfish hid amongst the hair. and that’s just. that’s a goal. and the ultimate freedom from obligation, like “gah I would shave but it would ruin my very good joke, what are you gonna do, I gotta make sure there’s foliage for my little clownfish to hide in”

then mom finished telling me this and looked off for a moment. “my god,” she said. “she was flirting with me. fuck. goddamn it.” 

[killthespareno]

when that beat drops in nobody 

[dankmemeuniversity]

[missanndrist]

Q

[racingbarakarts]

I used to have geese so here’s a tip for everyone:

If a goose is attacking you, don’t run. No matter what, stand your ground. They can fly but when they’re mad, they don’t usually try to fly. Hold your hands in front of you, ready to grasp. When the goose gets close, grab it by the neck bit closest to the head and squeeze. Not tight enough to choke the goose, but tight enough so they can’t break free. You can hold them until they calm down or just do the next step right away. The next step is literally just to chuck them as far as possible and run for your life. It makes the goose know you’re in charge and you have a better chance of getting away. Trust me I’ve done this so many times that I’ve lost count

[myblogisnotinteresting]

I can’t tell if this is a shitpost or actual advice. But I do know geese are the fucking worst.

[racingbarakarts]

Actual advice! Just yeet a goose

[partypoodle-deactivated20220209]

@citalopramimalek and @thejunesky just yeet a goose

[mycptsdrecovery]

What's the difference between PTSD and CPTSD? I'm sorry if that's an ignorant question

No worries, it’s not ignorant. PTSD generally refers to a response to a single (or a few) traumatic event(s). Complex PTSD generally refers to a response to a repeated or prolonged traumatic event over a period of time, especially when it occurs in childhood. CPTSD is often characterized by a traumatic event with little or no chance of escape, such as being kidnapped and held prisoner, being in a concentration camp, or abusing a child who does not know how to say no/is manipulated by the person because they are in a position of power. CPTSD can lead to a complete shift in personality and often mimics or overlaps with Borderline Personality Disorder. CPTSD is not an official diagnosis but many practitioners and researchers recognize the differences (notably in personality/sense of self) between CPTSD and PTSD.

Here are some differences between CPTSD and PTSD from this website (may not apply to each individual person but in general):

PTSD:

One or few traumas

Flashbacks

Nightmares about the trauma

Avoidance of things that remind of trauma

Anxiety and depression

Hyper-vigilance

Exaggerated startle reflex

Some dissociation

CPTSD:

Chronic inescapable traumas

Flashbacks

Night terrors and chronic insomnia

Social isolation, avoidance of relationship

Severe alterations in affect regulation

Hyper-vigilance, preoccupation with abuser

Fragmented sense of self

No filter, easily overwhelmed

I have CPTSD and also experience severe dissociation and exaggerated startle reflex so some of the symptoms can overlap. 

[julierthanyou]

alternate life goals if shit hits the fan & i want to run away & start over somewhere:

maker of sweaters with textures that resemble fungi that grow on trees and/or barnacles

maker of ultra specific passive aggressive greeting cards with the ultimate burns to get revenge on anyone who has crossed any of my friends ever in their whole life

maker of reasonably priced halloween pet costumes that transition into normal daywear 

professional graffiti artist that makes puns out of boring ads

flower stand owner but makes bouquets only out of wild, unwanted, under-appreciated greenery 

professional compliment-giver

professional reviewer of sauvignon blancs

the voice of audio recordings to help you take a nap

[adventurelandia]

Disney Sing Along Songs: Disneyland Fun (1990)

[kristenwiiggle]

this is the fuckin JAM 

[missanndrist]

OH MY GOD, I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS MY WHOLE LIFE.

I knew Maleficent was featured in a Disney music video, but I was too young to remember anything more concrete. Anyway, this part always terrified my 4 year old self so much that I would hide behind the couch.

I was also very attracted to Maleficent? Like the paralyzing fear made her So Good.

[kuvaton]

[webpix-blog]

[dagangstapenguin]

imagine the sound of someone walking down the street wearing those

[gallowhill]

Portraits of Women with Vegetable Weapons by Tsuyoshi Ozawa

[justaslut4pizza]

OH. MY. GOD. CHRIS PRATT’S NUDES FINALLY LEAKED

NSFW, and he can guardian my galaxy anyday